Claire cannot stand the life she lives. All she wants to do is enrich her and other's mind with writing, music, and art, but pressured by her peers and parents to be a professionel, she can't seem to find her place.
Every aspect of the society she is pressured into torments her--how can this lifestyle make anyone truly happy? Claire wants her shot at a life of happiness, she wants her shot to prove to people that it's okay to be who you really are. Her dreams may come true when a special opportunity comes her way, but unexpected events turn her life upside down.

Okay, well that summary was terrible. And a giant cliché. But maybe you get the general idea and will give my story a chance :)


NC-17 due to language, mild violence, and sex
--some parts may be triggering--self harm and depression mildly mentioned--

NOTE: Title previously "Finding My Place", but I changed it to "The Curse" because it fits better with the progression of the story

1. Chapter 1: “Mom and Dad, Did You Search For Me?”

2. Chapter 2: “This Is Just Me, Disguised As Me”

3. Chapter 3: "Don't Rain On My Parade"

4. Chapter 4: "I Know What It's Like To Feel Burned Out"

5. Chapter 5: "A Diamond Bullet And A Gun Made Of Gold"

6. Chapter 6: “To Live Is Just To Fall Asleep, To Die Is To Awake”

7. Chapter 7: "I Would Kiss You Even If You Were Dead"

8. Chapter 8: "Without You, What's The Point?"

9. Chapter 9: "Can You Chase Away The Darkness?"

10. Chapter 10: "I Put Your Body To The Test With Mine"

11. Chapter 11: "The Drunken Moon"

12. Chapter 12: “Sleep On The Ceiling And Creep Under Black Lights”

13. Chapter 13: "Stained Glass Eyes And Colorful Tears"

14. Chapter 14: "Do You Think You're The Only One?"

    *warning* may be triggering. Takes a turn for the depressing in this chapter

15. Chapter 15: "Darling, You'll Be Okay"

    special chapter with another POV

16. Chapter 16: "When It's Sudden Death We Fight Back"

    :)

17. Chapter 17: "Without You There Is No Me"

18. Chapter 18: "Keep Talking, Because I Love To Hear Your Voice"

19. Chapter 19: "The Night Can Be Deadly"

20. Chapter 20: "I Don't Want To Feel A Thing Anymore"

21. Chapter 21: “If I Ever Catch The One Who Hurt You, I’m Hoping That God Looks Away”

22. Chapter 22: "Now It's Your Turn To Run"

23. Chapter 23: "These Severed Hands Are Doing The Best They Can"

24. Chapter 24: "We Don't Stop Until Someone's Bleeding"

    **special guest appearance** ;)

25. Chapter 25: "Red Rose Of The Dead"

26. Chapter 26: "You Know I've Never Held A Gun In My Life, But Now I Carry One Around In Case I See You Tonight"

    Rewind**Vic's POV

27. Chapter 27: "Can We Create Something Beautiful, And Destroy It?"

28. Chapter 28: "Show Me The Way Back"

29. Chapter 29: "The Only Real Way To Cure Pain Is To Add A Little More"

30. Chapter 30: "This Love Was Out Of Control"

31. Chapter 31: "A Perfect Thing"

32. Chapter 32: "Everything's Okay"

33. Chapter 33: "It's Good Enough To Make Me Want To Fall In Love"

34. Chapter 34: "Now We Live Like We Should"

35. Chapter 35: "I Pretended Everything Was Fine"

36. Chapter 36: "I Want To Hold Your Hand So Tight"

37. Chapter 37: "I've Waited My Whole Life For You"