A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

("I know Lights sings Don't Go but this goes with the story much better")

The tour ended eventually but Bring Me the Horizon were staying in Germany to record their new album. We were going to be staying with them for two days as Josh was going to be featured in the new album. The weirdest thing was Oli asked me to sing on a track. At first I refused but then I felt really bad because I was marrying Josh.

Laura thankfully went home, I couldn't stand her anymore so I was very happy about that. The thing is, she was clearly only with him for his money and slight fame. Which really annoyed me more than I could even begin to explain.

The first day was going to be me being recorded. I was sitting in the studio watching Oli recording his parts. He was so flawless whe sung, it was so natural and flowed beautifully.

"I was raised in the valley, there were shadows and death. Got out alive but with scars I can't forget." I couldn't stop staring. "This kid back in school, subdued and shy. An orphan and a brother and unseen by most eyes. I don't know what it was that made a piece of him die, Took a boy to the forest, slaughtered him with a scythe." It was haunting. "Stamped on his face, an impression in the dirt. Do you think the silence makes a good man convert?" I felt sick.

He stopped and looked at me, no expression on his face at all. "We all have our horrors and our demons to fight. But how can I win, when I'm paralyzed? They crawl up, wrap their fingers around my throat. Is this what I get for the choices that I've made? God forgive me, for all my sins. God forgive me, for everything. God forgive me, for all my sins. God forgive me, God forgive me." The pain on his face as he sung, it broke my heart.

"Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night. I can't live with myself, so stay with me tonight. Don't go. Don't go." This was the song that he wrote to me all those years ago.

This is where I came in. "If I let you in, you'd just want out. If I tell you the truth, you'd vie for a lie. If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can't clean up. If you follow me, you will only get lost. If you try to get closer, we'll only lose touch. But you already know too much, and you're not going anywhere" I sung it perfectly, he watched my every move. Making me feel insecure about everything.

"Tell me that you need me 'cause I love you so much." He looked into my eyes deeply.

"Tell me that you love me 'cause I need you so much." I thought of that night we sung it to each other, how much he meant to me... how much he still does.

"Tell me that you need me 'cause I love you so much." I just wanted to kiss him...

"Say you'll never leave me 'cause I need you so much." My heart was aching, singing that last bit broke me.

"Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night. I can't live with myself, so stay with me tonight. Don't go, I can't do this on my own. Don't go (you're not alone) Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night. I can't live with myself, so stay with me tonight. Don't go." He finally teared his eyes away from me.

"Don't go" I sung softly, I was only directed to sing it once but I couldn't stop. It felt right, I didn't want him to go... ever. "Don't go" I finished.

The silence filled the room. I felt devastated. It was haunting how perfect it went and we had never even practiced it properly. The door of the recording room opened and the mixer told us it was perfect, no need for another take. I was shocked but happy I guess. It was intense and scary to do that once... I don't think I could do it again. Oli walked over to the door and then turned to me. "We need to talk" He mumbled, avoiding eye contact.

I furrowed my eyebrows at him and sighed. He led me outside, it was nice out today. We sat down on a bench and silence engulfed us. "What's up?" I asked, feeling extremely awkward.

"Why are you marrying him?" He almost spat the words out, like he had no want for them in his mouth.

My head snapped up to look at him. "What?" I ask with disbelief. He frowned at me. "You heard me" He muttered and looked away.

"I love him" I answered.

"Bullshit, bullshit and double bullshit" He said getting more and more frustrated. "Want to know what I think?" He asked. I didn't even bother to reply, he was gonna tell me whether I wanted to know or not. "You're marrying him out of guilt. You know that he is totally in love with you but there's nothing you can do to feel it back. You can't just admit that you wish you were still with me, so you're gonna marry him. If you truly loved him you would have told him the truth by now" He almost laughed at me.

"What like you did? That worked out so well for you, might give it a little go" I said sarcastically.

"If you don't... I will. He's my mate and I'm not gonna let him get married without him knowing the truth" He threatened.

My heart began racing. "No" I shook my head.

"Don't you think he deserves that at least?" He asked. I closed my eyes and let out an exasperated sigh. "You're really gonna do this to me?" I asked, looking over to him.

He shrugged nonchalantly. "Don't you see that it's supposed to be us?" He asked seriously. I didn't answer. "Sooner or later you're gonna realise it and if you don't make you're decision soon enough... you won't have a choice in the matter" He mumbled then stood up and walked away.

What on earth was he going to do? Now I'm scared.

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