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A One Night Stand, Lingered To A Fling

Fuck

I couldn't sleep at all. My mind was racing, a million things a second. What if Oli told Josh the truth? What if Josh didn't make a big deal out of it and is gonna guilt me into admitting it? What would my brother think? What would Stephanie think? How would Josh react? How much would he hate me? The weight of it all made sleep pretty much impossible for me.

The sun was beginning to rise and I looked at the ring on my finger, it shone beautifully in the light. It made my stomach do horrible flips, it was scary. I couldn't live like this. I couldn't live in constant fear of him finding out, waiting for him to say something.

I climbed out of the bed in me and Joshs' hotel room. He was still out of it; probably would be sleeping for another hour or so. I put some jeans, shirt and a hoody on, grabbed my vans and went outside. The morning air in Germany was cool, slightly chilly actually. I walked over to a bench that was in the garden of the hotel.

I pulled out my phone and phoned Stephanie. It rung for a couple of minutes then she answered. "Hello bitch, where you at?" She laughed down the phone.

"Hey babe, I couldn't sleep so I decided to give you a call" I explained.

"Awh, go wake your fiancé up and have some fun. Tomorrow he goes home to London and you come back to me" She suggested.

"I actually phoned to talk to you about that" I sighed.

"What's up?" She sounded concerned.

I let out a shakey breath, hoping to God Stephanie wouldn't judge me. "Okay, please don't hate me. This is big, very fucking big" I told her.

"Just spit it out" She told me.

"I slept with Oli" I blurrted out.

The silence that filled Stephanies side made me nervous. "Fuck sake Casey, when? How many times? What were you thinking?" She rushed.

"A few times last year, I don't know I didn't leep count and I wasn't thinking clearly. I just... did it" I said calmly.

"Look, I don't condone cheating but you've been under so much stress it doesn't hugely surprise me if I'm honest" She sighed.

"Am I a bad person?" I asked.

"No Casey, you just made a bad mistake. Are you gonna tell him?".

"I don't know, I feel like Oli is gonna tell him" I bit my lip nervously.

"Let's be real here... you're not really into Josh if you went back to your ex" Stephanie told me.

"I'll think about it. I'll see you tomorrow okay" I told her.

"Goodluck and have fun, you're worrying too much" Stephanie finished.

"Bye babe" I laughed and then hung up.

I looked at the garden around me, everything seemed so peaceful. In a sort of eerie way, which made me feel even worse about the whole situation. I closed my eyes and laid my head back against the bench. The wind blew softly against my skin but it was comforting to me, a simple reminder that even though right now my head is falling apart but the world keeps on going. I guess I need to know that.

Suddenly someone sat down next to me; my head snapped up quickly to see who it was. To my surprise Oli was sitting there, looking peaceful. He stared at the sky above us and then closed his eyes. I watched his every move, taking in every expression that spread across his beautiful face. The look in his eyes told me that he was full of wonder.

He tore his eyes away from the sky and looked at me. He caught my gaze and my cheeks flushed slightly at the realisation that he caught me staring at him. He looked at me questioningly then bowed his head. "Why are you up so early?" He asked, staring at his hands upon his lap.

"I couldn't sleep" I mumbled softly, trying not to speak too harshly. The lack of sleep had made my voice slightly hoarse.

His eyes flicked up and gazed upon my face for a brief second before looking away. "Is that because of how I acted last night?" He asked very quietly.

I bit my lip, unsure of how to answer without striking up another argument. "No, it's my own fault really" I said looking at my feet. We used to be best friends, could talk about anything and now we can barely even look each other in the eye anymore.

"Listen, I was a knobhead last night. I'm not gonna tell anyone. That's your choice, it's up to you what you wanna do" He looked at me. I looked into his eyes and seen the hope that lay there, deep within his beautiful eyes.

"I don't know what to say, thank you" I looked down at his lips, the urge to kiss him became very over whelming.

I stood up quickly and stood with my back to him. "What's wrong?" He asked, sounding concerned.

I planted a fake smile on my face and turned around. "Nothing, just got a little bored of sitting I guess" I shrugged. He raised an eyebrow at me then smirked.

"I think you're lying" He grinned. I rolled my eyes at his accusation, it was funny because he could see right through me. "Can I ask you a serious question though?" He asked, rising to his feet.

"Go for it" I nodded. He smiled mischievously and looked away for a second.

"If the fact that I cheated on you repulsed you so much that you dumped me then why did you instigate this "affair" between us?" He asked, using airquotes.

I tried to think of something witty to say to that but nothing seemed appropriate or fitting, time was passing by and I needed some sort of answer. Nothing would come out. My mind froze and nothing would form. His smile grew wider as the seconds passed. "Fuck you" I muttered aggressively, knowing he was getting satisfaction out of this.

He licked his lips and give me a sly smile; stepping forward, closing the gap between us. "You can if you want to" He stared into my eyes, our faces less than an inch apart. The tension in the air was thick, making it hard to back down.

"I'd rather jump in that pond over there" I nodded towards the small pond. He rolled his eyes, seeing through my lies.

"Lie" He smirked, leaning in and catching my lips witgmh his own. My breath caught in my throat, making it almost impossible to think straight. He pulled back and watched my reaction.

"This is wrong, everything about it is wrong. I always wanted to do the right thing and tell Josh the thruth but I can't and I'm too scared" I mumbled, eyes closed and feeling dazed. When I opened my eyes Oli stared at me with a look of fear in his eyes.

He tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and then smiled. "I'm no saint but you're no martyr" He whispered. I looked at him with confusion as he slowly backed away then turned on his heel and walked off. I watched him walk off into the distance and out of sight. My heart felt like it was going to give out. Fuck.

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Comments

@Fangirl_Alert

Awh wow, thats a huge compliment thank you :)

@saradanks

This is just how they talk in sheffield.

@Colourfultears
Sorry I got very emotional at the end, wow this story was amazing, i need to read the sequals, it was like a real book, you should really start writing.

the grammar and word tense is really confusing

fix the grammar! but i love it so far