You're The Only Thing That's Keeping Me Alive
She Only Comes to Me in My Dreams, So Sleep Becomes Routine
I couldn't stop thinking about what I said to Oli.
I kinda felt bad, but at the same time I'm glad I said it.
But, on the bright side today is Halloween.
Tony immediately lifted me from the bed spinning me around and carried me outside.
There was black, white, brown, and orange paint.
Jaime and Nicole were having a mini paint fight over to the side, as well as Vic and Mike.
Brothers and lovers.
"We are going to paint your tummy like a pumpkin!" Nicole squealed jumping up and down.
"Guys, that's so cheesy! But I guess it'll be cute." I giggled.
"Yay! Let's get started!"
Nicole handed me a half shirt and I slipped it on, exposing my ball of a stomach.
Tony dipped the paintbrush in orange paint and started painting strips down my stomach until it was fully orange.
The paint was so cold that I shivered a couple times and Tony chuckled.
We waited 30 minutes while the paint dried so they could do the eyes and mouth.
"Guys I'm doing the mouth!" Jaime shouted.
"No you little shit, I am!" Vic argued.
"Um, excuuuuse me! But I'm pretty sure I'll be doing the mouth betches." Mike stated like a teenage girl waving his hand around.
"Mike and Vic should do an eye each cause they're brothers." Jaime explained.
"Are you guys really arguing over who's going to paint my fucking stomach?" I asked.
"YES." everyone said.
"Well okay then." I laughed.
Jaime got to do the mouth, and he did a really good job.
Then Mike and Vic each did an eye, very artistically making it worth their while.
I have to say, it was pretty amazing.
It was 4:30 now.
It's daylight savings time, so kids were already trick-or-treating now.
Tony, Mike, Jaime and Vic walked in the bus and 10 minutes later all came out wearing ninja turtle costumes.
"Oh God." I said between laughs.
"Kellin's on his way with Copeland to take you with them for trick-or-treating." Vic told me.
"Alright." I went and got my shoes from the bus and walked out to see everyone running off to houses laughing and Kellin waiting in front of the door.
"Ready?"
"Yep."
"I'm guessing Nicole had the idea to paint your belly? It's adorable!" Kellin smiled.
"Yeah, she did. Thanks." I chuckled.
I turned to look at Copeland, she was dressed in a pink bunny costume.
She had small pointy ears sticking up on her head and a bushy little tail on her bum, with furry legs and a little black nose.
"Aww, Copey, how cute are you!" I exclaimed squeezing her cheeks.
She made a little giggle and her face lit up.
This made me want my baby out of me even more.
We reached a house and Kellin picked up Copeland and knocked on the door.
A woman in her mid-20s opened and screamed.
"Trick-or-treat!"
"Oh my god, you're Kellin Quinn! And Copeland! And...?" she looked over at me.
"This is Yaressi, my little sister."
"I didn't know you had a sister?"
"She's not biological in reality, but she is in my world." he smiled and put his arm around me.
"Aw how sweet! Here's some candy for Copeland. She grabbed a handful of different candy bars and looked down at my stomach.
"Oh my gosh, you're having a baby! Your stomach is so cute! Can I.. feel?" she asked.
Kellin looked at me and I hesitated, but accepted.
She rubbed my stomach and looked up at me with lit up eyes.
"I felt it kick. I'm sorry, I really love babies." she laughed.
"That's okay, thank you."
"Anytime!" she said before we left.
And it begins.
I loved going to houses where people were happy to see Kellin and wanted to feel my stomach or compliment me on the painted pumpkin on it.
It was so great to see that Kellin made so many people happy.
I was loving this Halloween.
- Oli's POV -
I feel so terrible and sick to my stomach because of what I done.
I can't take it back.
I can't fix it.
I can't do anything.
No matter how many times I say sorry, she's right.
It's not gonna go away.
I have to live with this.
She has to live with this.
Because of my stupid actions.
She's not even my girlfriend for God sakes.
She's Tony's.
Now they all hate me.
I held my head in my hands, crying.
I never cried.
I regret what I done so much.
More than any of my mistakes I've ever made.
I have to show her I'm going to be a good father.
I have to show her I'll be there.
I can't leave.
I won't leave.
I've got to do this right.
I grabbed my keys and left.
Straight for the Pierce The Veil tour bus.
I kinda felt bad, but at the same time I'm glad I said it.
But, on the bright side today is Halloween.
Tony immediately lifted me from the bed spinning me around and carried me outside.
There was black, white, brown, and orange paint.
Jaime and Nicole were having a mini paint fight over to the side, as well as Vic and Mike.
Brothers and lovers.
"We are going to paint your tummy like a pumpkin!" Nicole squealed jumping up and down.
"Guys, that's so cheesy! But I guess it'll be cute." I giggled.
"Yay! Let's get started!"
Nicole handed me a half shirt and I slipped it on, exposing my ball of a stomach.
Tony dipped the paintbrush in orange paint and started painting strips down my stomach until it was fully orange.
The paint was so cold that I shivered a couple times and Tony chuckled.
We waited 30 minutes while the paint dried so they could do the eyes and mouth.
"Guys I'm doing the mouth!" Jaime shouted.
"No you little shit, I am!" Vic argued.
"Um, excuuuuse me! But I'm pretty sure I'll be doing the mouth betches." Mike stated like a teenage girl waving his hand around.
"Mike and Vic should do an eye each cause they're brothers." Jaime explained.
"Are you guys really arguing over who's going to paint my fucking stomach?" I asked.
"YES." everyone said.
"Well okay then." I laughed.
Jaime got to do the mouth, and he did a really good job.
Then Mike and Vic each did an eye, very artistically making it worth their while.
I have to say, it was pretty amazing.
It was 4:30 now.
It's daylight savings time, so kids were already trick-or-treating now.
Tony, Mike, Jaime and Vic walked in the bus and 10 minutes later all came out wearing ninja turtle costumes.
"Oh God." I said between laughs.
"Kellin's on his way with Copeland to take you with them for trick-or-treating." Vic told me.
"Alright." I went and got my shoes from the bus and walked out to see everyone running off to houses laughing and Kellin waiting in front of the door.
"Ready?"
"Yep."
"I'm guessing Nicole had the idea to paint your belly? It's adorable!" Kellin smiled.
"Yeah, she did. Thanks." I chuckled.
I turned to look at Copeland, she was dressed in a pink bunny costume.
She had small pointy ears sticking up on her head and a bushy little tail on her bum, with furry legs and a little black nose.
"Aww, Copey, how cute are you!" I exclaimed squeezing her cheeks.
She made a little giggle and her face lit up.
This made me want my baby out of me even more.
We reached a house and Kellin picked up Copeland and knocked on the door.
A woman in her mid-20s opened and screamed.
"Trick-or-treat!"
"Oh my god, you're Kellin Quinn! And Copeland! And...?" she looked over at me.
"This is Yaressi, my little sister."
"I didn't know you had a sister?"
"She's not biological in reality, but she is in my world." he smiled and put his arm around me.
"Aw how sweet! Here's some candy for Copeland. She grabbed a handful of different candy bars and looked down at my stomach.
"Oh my gosh, you're having a baby! Your stomach is so cute! Can I.. feel?" she asked.
Kellin looked at me and I hesitated, but accepted.
She rubbed my stomach and looked up at me with lit up eyes.
"I felt it kick. I'm sorry, I really love babies." she laughed.
"That's okay, thank you."
"Anytime!" she said before we left.
And it begins.
I loved going to houses where people were happy to see Kellin and wanted to feel my stomach or compliment me on the painted pumpkin on it.
It was so great to see that Kellin made so many people happy.
I was loving this Halloween.
- Oli's POV -
I feel so terrible and sick to my stomach because of what I done.
I can't take it back.
I can't fix it.
I can't do anything.
No matter how many times I say sorry, she's right.
It's not gonna go away.
I have to live with this.
She has to live with this.
Because of my stupid actions.
She's not even my girlfriend for God sakes.
She's Tony's.
Now they all hate me.
I held my head in my hands, crying.
I never cried.
I regret what I done so much.
More than any of my mistakes I've ever made.
I have to show her I'm going to be a good father.
I have to show her I'll be there.
I can't leave.
I won't leave.
I've got to do this right.
I grabbed my keys and left.
Straight for the Pierce The Veil tour bus.
Notes
I made this long to make up for taking so long to update yesterday! :bDoes anyone else still listen to SKSK? Or is it just me that does? xD
title cred: Scary Kids Scaring Kids ^^
11/10/13