I Breathe You In With Smoke.
That Kiss Tastes Like Summer.
1 WEEK LATER
I looked away from the mirror, picking up my phone and texting back Jas. I felt arms wrap around my waist and I gasped, dropping my phone face down on the marble sink. I looked in the mirror and sighed in relief.
"You scared me." Tony chuckled.
"Happy Birthday, beautiful." He mumbled as he kissed down my neck. I giggled and brought my shoulder up.
"Thanks Turtle." He nodded.
"Who ya textin'?"
"Your cousin." I mumbled, going back to pumping my mascara into its tube to distract myself from my widening smile.
"She talks to you more than she does to any of us." He scoffed. I rolled my eyes, leaning over the counter and applying my makeup.
"When you want in on the girl talk, let me know."
Jas was doing amazing. She was already in her first trimester, barely showing unless you knew she had a little one in there. I was so happy for her, honestly. All that she's texted me was 'Happy Birthday's' and apologies for not being with me. I wished that she was with me as bad as she did.
just so that I could say goodbye.
He scrunched up his nose and shook his head.
"No thanks."
"Then don't complain." I told him, bobbing him on the nose playfully.
"MYYYYAAAAA!" I heard someone sing before my bedroom door was slammed open. Mike saw me in the bathroom, and attacked me in a hug.
"Happy birthday, short shit!" I laughed and shoved him off.
"I could do without the nickname, but thanks." He rolled his eyes and smirked.
"We're going out to eat."
"No thanks, go ahead. I'm not hungry." I whispered.
It baffles me that they still believe such a thing. Honestly, I've been too terrified to go out in public. Afraid that they would find me. I was never safe, not even inside my head. I hadn't eaten since the incident, spitting my food into my napkin as the guys looked away. Rather than cutting, all I could do was pick and pinch at my scars, refusing them to heal.
I hated being so conniving, but just as Tony said, I was stuck. Stuck in my old ways. It was the only thing I'd ever known, but I wasn't going to bring the guys down with me.
I only had a week left here. I needed to leave before Kevin and Lauren had come back. If I had disappeared, then they would find the guys useless. All I could do was hope and pray that they would leave them unscathed and safe.
This was all for the best. If you love someone, you let them go. If they had found me after I left here, then that's my problem, but the guys mattered, me?
Not so much.
They had fans, they had the world in front of them, Jas too. I didn't belong here, I was a minority compared to them. I don't belong anywhere. I only had one week to make being together count before I had to write that dreaded note and be on my way.
"A-Are you sure? I mean-"
"If I wasn't, I wouldn't have said it." I told Mike, sticking my tongue out at him.
"You're feisty as hell today, jeez. Alright, Tone-"
"I'm staying."
" 'Course you are." Mike scoffed. "Y'know, Jaime swears up and down that you two have shit going on. Unless you want him to find out, I suggest you two spend a few away from each other." I didn't think that Tony was going to respond, but I watched his reflection slowly nod, before giving me a kiss on the cheek. I grabbed his hands before they had a chance to drop from my waist.
"B-B-" He whipped me around and pulled me into a tight hug.
"I'll tell him soon, I promise." He whispered.
"That should be interesting." Mike mumbled. "Alright, see ya My's. Love ya."
"Mhmm, love you." I said, leaving Tony to let go and walk out.
"Bye, guys."
"Be back in a few, babe." Tony said with a wink and walked out.
Minutes later, I had heard the guys' voices exit the house, and the roar of a car engine. I sighed and walked downstairs, sitting next to Poppy who had her head tilted, eyes sparkling as she panted at me.
"I'm gonna miss you, Popps." I whispered, laying across the couch and pulling her into me.
"Mya!" Jaime ran in and attacked me. I screamed, dropping my bottle of water.
"If one of you scare me one more time..!"
"Sorry. Come on!" He grinned and grabbed my hand, trying to run outside. I swallowed hard and planted my feet to the wooden floors. He looked back at me and sighed.
"Jaime, I'm in fucking sweatpants and a hoodie. I c-can't go out like th-this." I sputtered out.
"Wait.." He said and let go of my hand. "Tony's... hoodie." He said slowly.
"Only one I could find. I was cold" And it looked so soft and smelled like him. "Is that bad?"
"No... Forget about it." I jumped when I heard a car horn blare. "Right, come on. Brother sister time."
"What? Why?"
" 'Cause I said so!" He smiled, grabbing my hand again.
"You're not giving up on this, are you." He shook his head.
"Fine, I'll go get changed." I mumbled.
I really didn't want to do this.
"Where ya wanna go, little sis?" Jaime smiled, keeping his eyes on the road. I shrugged.
"Thought you had this all planed out, Preciado."
"Well... No."
"Then take me home?"
"Can't do that. Sorry, gorgeous." I groaned and threw my head back.
"Fine, but you better not be throwing me a-"
"Nope."
"Liar." I whispered.
"Just tell me where you wanna go."
"Um, coffee shop?" He grinned and nodded, making a U-turn and heading to Panera Bread.
"My?" I looked up from my phone.
"Yes?" He smiled and moved to the chair that was next to me.
"I love you." I sighed.
"I love you too, Himes."
"Happy birthday."
"Thank you, for the millionth time." I giggled.
"Wow, drama queen."
"Okay, let's not forget how you ran into my room last night, jumping on my bed and shouting
'HEY SHORTY, IT'S YO BIRTHDAY, WE GONN PARTY LIKE IT'S YO BIRTHDAY!' At 12am."
"I remember no such thing." He huffed. I laughed and slapped him.
"You're a jerk." I mumbled as I took a sip of my coffee.
"Love you too." I smiled up at him and kissed his cheek.
"I do love you." He shut his eyes and scrunched up his face, giving me a wide and childish smile. His phone went off and he picked it up. I took another sip of my coffee.
"Whose that?"
"Manager. Said we should be talking a tour soon." He shrugged.
Oh, tour.
"You ready?"
"Yeah..." I whispered.
"Hey, don't be sad. Nothing is set in stone. It's usually about a 10 month process. We won't be going anywhere."
"If I could only say the same." I said breathlessly.
"What?"
"Nothing, let's go." I told him, throwing my cup away and walking out, not bothering to wait for him.
Rude, I know. But I couldn't let him see me cry.
Jaime hopped out of the car and ran around, opening my door for me. I smiled softly and grabbed his extended hand, hopping out of the car.
"Such a gentleman."
"Anything for M'lady." He winked and threw his arm around me. We walked up to the door and he knocked. No answer. He sighed and searched his pockets.
"God dammit." He mumbled.
"The guys aren't in there?"
"Don't think so." He told me as he ran his hand across the top of the doorframe.
"If Mike would put the key back..." I laughed and searched through the plant pot, handing him a key.
"He always puts it in the plant." I rolled my eyes.
"Weirdo.." Jaime breathed and unlocked the door, leading me in. I flipped on the light to see people among people jump out from behind shelves, couches, and counters.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" They all screamed. I gasped and jumped back into Jaime, who had caught me with a chuckle. I smiled as everyone ran up and hugged me. I stiffined, but forced myself to relax.
"T-Thanks guys."
"Let's get this fucking party started!" Alex screamed. Everyone cheered and the guys connected their CD player into the TV, blasting Green Day. I smiled and walked into the kitchen.
"Happy birthday, little one." Casey told me. I smiled politely and thanked him.
"Wanna drink?"
"No, thanks."
"C'mon, live a little, birthday girl. I'll make ya something." I sighed.
"Okay, okay." He smirked and hopped off of the kitchen stool, walking over to where the assortment of alcohols.
"Any requests?"
"Strong and tasty, please." He nodded and began his work. I felt someone come up behind me and put their hands over my face.
"Guess who."
"Casey, who is it." I smirked.
"Definitely not Vic."
"Casey, you bastard." Vic chuckled. "You like it?" He asked, looking around the house that was filled with decorations.
"I didn't ask for this, Y'know."
"Yeah, but you deserve this." I shook my head turning around when I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"You deserve this too. Bottoms up." He winked. I smiled and held my cup up to him as I walked away, Vic still next to me, his arm tightly around my middle.
"If you're gonna drink tonight, just stay safe, okay?" Vic whispered in my ear over the loud music. I nodded.
" 'Course." He kissed my cheek, before he was pulled into the crowd by one of the guys to dance. I laughed and walked upstairs, going into my room and hearing my laptop go off. I walked over and realized that Jas was trying to Skype me. I sat on my bed and answered.
"Hey, Jassy."
"Hello Darling! You having fun?" I shrugged.
"The guys the party threw for me just started."
"Well, get down there! They've been planning this for like, ever." She laughed. "I love you though, happy birthday."
"Do you really have to go?"
"Well, you can't stay cooped up in your room, talking to me when you could be partying."
"Okay, fine. But how's the baby?" She looked down and smiled.
"Good. I should be far enough along that by the time I'm home and tell the guys, we can determine gender."
"AW!" I gushed.
"Hush, go enjoy yourself. When I get back, I'll make it up to you." I felt my smile wobble slightly.
"Yeah.."
"Alright, I'll talk to you later! Love ya, byeeee."
"Bye." I whispered and closed my laptop.
I walked outside to see a blurry tattooed back deep under the water. I smiled and rolled up my jeans, sticking my feet inside of the pool. Tony came up with a gasp of air and rubbed his eyes.
"Oh, look. A turtle in its natural habitat." He looked over at me and chuckled.
"Hey." I waved in return. "I've been looking for you all night."
"Really?"
"Mhmm." He mumbled, pulling himself out of the pool and throwing his arm around me.
"Holy shit, you're cold." I hissed, feeling goosebumps rise from his chilling and wet skin against mine.
"Sorry." He said, but didn't move his arm.
And I was perfectly fine with that.
"You enjoying the party?"
"Yep." I said, popping the 'p'.
"How many drinks have you had?"
"Like 2 and a half. I'm not drunk, but I'm feelin' it." He laughed and shook his head.
"You're adorable." I blushed and looked at my swinging feet in the water.
"Come on, I need to go dry off." I nodded and hopped to my feet, going over to the lawn chairs and handing him his beer. He smiled and thanked me as he walked inside. I bit my lip and nodded as we walked inside.
"MYA! PRESENTS!" Mike screamed and grabbed me. I looked at Tony who smiled reassuringly at me as I was dragged through the crowd. The music stopped and I fidgeted under everyone's stare. Jaime walked up and gave me a box. I slowly took it with a smile and sat on the couch. I teared through the paper and opened the black velvet box.
"Jaime..." I breathed, my eyes glued to the beautiful diamond necklace. Everyone huddled around behind me, getting a good look at it as well.
"You like it?" He asked.
"A-Are you kidding? It's beautiful. Thank you." I said and threw myself into his arms. He caught me and kissed my head.
"Turn around." I obeyed and gave him the box, holding up my hair to feel it lay around my neck and secure tightly.
"I love you."
"Love you too, My's."
About 30 presents later, I made my way upstairs and to my room. I definitely felt those 3 shots that I had done with Mike kicking in, and I just wanted to sleep. I fell against the closet wall and set all of my stuff in front of it, before setting my brand new acoustic inside the closet to stay in tip top condition. I felt myself being whipped around and I fell into Tony.
"T-ony!" I said through a hiccup.
"Hey." He whispered and pulled me into a quick kiss.
It may have been from the alcohol, but a burst of confidence shot through me and I pulled him closer before he had the chance to pull away. He chuckled and pulled me up against him, licking my bottom lip. I decided to be a tease, keeping my mouth closed. He growled and pushed me up against the bathroom door. I gasped and he slipped his tongue in. My hand ran through his hair, tightening it in my fist. He bit my lip and I let out a breathless moan, our breath intermingling as our tongues began to fight for dominance.He, of couse, had won. Tony pulled away with a triumphant smirk before he went down to my neck and tugging on my shirt. I threw it off and threw my head back and closed my eyes.
I knew what would come out of this.
And it was my first time, but I wasn't scared.
I...I loved him.
I felt my breathing hitch as he found my 'Soft spot', biting down as his thumbs drew soft circles into my hip bones.
"T-Tony." I breathed. He came back up, noses touching as his eyes dilated and almost black with lust.
"Mhm."
"I-I'm a-"
"It's okay. If you ever feel uncomfortable, tell me." I nodded slowly and he pulled me into another kiss. I grabbed his shirt and lead him to the bed, feeling him undo my bra in the process. I fell, my knees giving out as I hit the bed and Tony falling over me. The kiss deepened and he ran his hand down my side. I felt his excitement between my legs and bit my lip, trying to calm my labored breathing as his hand moved towards my jean button.
"Are you sure-"
"Yes. P-Please." He nodded, giving me a reassuring smile before going down the bed and undoing my pants. I helped get them down and he began to rub me through my underwear. My eyes slipped closed and I wiggled around. It felt amazing, but he was teasing me.
I whined and circled my hips. He quickly got the hint, taking my underwear in his fists and pulling them down.
"Ready?"
"Ready for wha-" My sentence was cut off by a moan as he brought his face down and sucked on my clit. My throat closed up as I attempted to gasp out his name, arching my back in pure bliss. I tangled my fingers in his hair as he ate me out. All too soon, I felt my stomach drop.
"T-Tone... I think I'm-" I squeaked as I felt two fingers enter me slowly. I shut my eyes tightly, feeling the sting subside before I was overwhelmed with pleasure.
"F-Faster.." He brought his face up and looked at me with a smirk, picking up his pace as he watched me wither beneath him and meet his fingers with each push. I screamed Tony's name over the music outside of the bedroom as I gripped my headboard, shaking as I felt my walls tighten and release quickly. I gasped for air as I looked at Tony wide eyed.
"Wow.." I said. He chuckled and took off his belt. I went to sit up and return the favor, but he pushed me back down.
"Tonight's about you." He whispered. I nodded slowly and watched him undo his tan skinny jeans, blushing at the buldge inside of his underwear. He took them off and hovered back over me, one hand holding himself up, the other rubbing against my entrance. I bit my lip and nodded, giving him the okay. He slowly started to push in and I moaned in pleasure and pain.
"You okay?" He whispered.
"Just hurts."
"We're almost there, babe. If you wanna-"
"Go." I breathed. He looked unsure, but pulled me into a kiss and pushed himself further inside of me, swallowing my loud whines. He stilled for what felt like forever, allowing my breathing to return to normal as I got used to him.
He pulled out and slammed back in, his lip between his teeth as I moaned.
"M-More." I choked out. He nodded and grabbed my hips, setting a steady pace. I was a moaning mess beneath him as his head dropped into my neck, nails creating crescent moons into my hips. I pushed him off of me and straddled him, pushing him back into me. He growled my name and I kissed him, screaming and throwing my head back as he pushed himself into me.
In that moment, all I could see, smell, hear, and feel was Tony. The only sound audible in the room was skin on skin and moans over the muffled music playing downstairs.
I ran my hands down his chest and looked at him through half lidded eyes. I felt the familiar tingle in my abdomen and mumbled out a "Close.". He nodded, pants falling from his beautiful lips in an inconsistent tempo. At a particularly hard push, I felt him hit a bundle of nerves that made my vision cloud over, heart ricocheting against my ribcage as my face went slack.
"T-TONY!" I screamed as a surge of ecstasy washed over me, the feeling rippling through my stomach and down my legs as I felt Tony stiffen inside of me.
"Fuck, My's." He moaned. We both rode out our orgasms as I leaned against his sweaty chest, still overwhelmed by the euphoria that coursed through my body. He pulled out and wrapped his arms around me, our breathing in time together with staccato pants and legato wheezes.
He kissed my shoulder, rolling me off of him and throwing the covers over me.
"You're so beautiful." He smiled, tucking a sticky piece of hair behind my ear. I blushed and kissed his cheek.
"You have a good birthday?" I closed my eyes, smiling wide as I nodded. He laughed and pulled me close to him. I sighed and closed my eyes.
"I lo-" I started, but quickly stopped myself.
Oh no... I didn't just-
"I love you too, Mya." He whispered and kissed my forehead. "I can sleep in here, right?"
"Really." I huffed.
"Sorry." He chuckled. "Get some sleep, okay?" I nodded, immediately falling into an exhaustion induced sleep.
He.. He loved me.
Is this what being wanted felt like?
What a fucking birthday...
I looked away from the mirror, picking up my phone and texting back Jas. I felt arms wrap around my waist and I gasped, dropping my phone face down on the marble sink. I looked in the mirror and sighed in relief.
"You scared me." Tony chuckled.
"Happy Birthday, beautiful." He mumbled as he kissed down my neck. I giggled and brought my shoulder up.
"Thanks Turtle." He nodded.
"Who ya textin'?"
"Your cousin." I mumbled, going back to pumping my mascara into its tube to distract myself from my widening smile.
"She talks to you more than she does to any of us." He scoffed. I rolled my eyes, leaning over the counter and applying my makeup.
"When you want in on the girl talk, let me know."
Jas was doing amazing. She was already in her first trimester, barely showing unless you knew she had a little one in there. I was so happy for her, honestly. All that she's texted me was 'Happy Birthday's' and apologies for not being with me. I wished that she was with me as bad as she did.
just so that I could say goodbye.
He scrunched up his nose and shook his head.
"No thanks."
"Then don't complain." I told him, bobbing him on the nose playfully.
"MYYYYAAAAA!" I heard someone sing before my bedroom door was slammed open. Mike saw me in the bathroom, and attacked me in a hug.
"Happy birthday, short shit!" I laughed and shoved him off.
"I could do without the nickname, but thanks." He rolled his eyes and smirked.
"We're going out to eat."
"No thanks, go ahead. I'm not hungry." I whispered.
It baffles me that they still believe such a thing. Honestly, I've been too terrified to go out in public. Afraid that they would find me. I was never safe, not even inside my head. I hadn't eaten since the incident, spitting my food into my napkin as the guys looked away. Rather than cutting, all I could do was pick and pinch at my scars, refusing them to heal.
I hated being so conniving, but just as Tony said, I was stuck. Stuck in my old ways. It was the only thing I'd ever known, but I wasn't going to bring the guys down with me.
I only had a week left here. I needed to leave before Kevin and Lauren had come back. If I had disappeared, then they would find the guys useless. All I could do was hope and pray that they would leave them unscathed and safe.
This was all for the best. If you love someone, you let them go. If they had found me after I left here, then that's my problem, but the guys mattered, me?
Not so much.
They had fans, they had the world in front of them, Jas too. I didn't belong here, I was a minority compared to them. I don't belong anywhere. I only had one week to make being together count before I had to write that dreaded note and be on my way.
"A-Are you sure? I mean-"
"If I wasn't, I wouldn't have said it." I told Mike, sticking my tongue out at him.
"You're feisty as hell today, jeez. Alright, Tone-"
"I'm staying."
" 'Course you are." Mike scoffed. "Y'know, Jaime swears up and down that you two have shit going on. Unless you want him to find out, I suggest you two spend a few away from each other." I didn't think that Tony was going to respond, but I watched his reflection slowly nod, before giving me a kiss on the cheek. I grabbed his hands before they had a chance to drop from my waist.
"B-B-" He whipped me around and pulled me into a tight hug.
"I'll tell him soon, I promise." He whispered.
"That should be interesting." Mike mumbled. "Alright, see ya My's. Love ya."
"Mhmm, love you." I said, leaving Tony to let go and walk out.
"Bye, guys."
"Be back in a few, babe." Tony said with a wink and walked out.
Minutes later, I had heard the guys' voices exit the house, and the roar of a car engine. I sighed and walked downstairs, sitting next to Poppy who had her head tilted, eyes sparkling as she panted at me.
"I'm gonna miss you, Popps." I whispered, laying across the couch and pulling her into me.
"Mya!" Jaime ran in and attacked me. I screamed, dropping my bottle of water.
"If one of you scare me one more time..!"
"Sorry. Come on!" He grinned and grabbed my hand, trying to run outside. I swallowed hard and planted my feet to the wooden floors. He looked back at me and sighed.
"Jaime, I'm in fucking sweatpants and a hoodie. I c-can't go out like th-this." I sputtered out.
"Wait.." He said and let go of my hand. "Tony's... hoodie." He said slowly.
"Only one I could find. I was cold" And it looked so soft and smelled like him. "Is that bad?"
"No... Forget about it." I jumped when I heard a car horn blare. "Right, come on. Brother sister time."
"What? Why?"
" 'Cause I said so!" He smiled, grabbing my hand again.
"You're not giving up on this, are you." He shook his head.
"Fine, I'll go get changed." I mumbled.
I really didn't want to do this.
"Where ya wanna go, little sis?" Jaime smiled, keeping his eyes on the road. I shrugged.
"Thought you had this all planed out, Preciado."
"Well... No."
"Then take me home?"
"Can't do that. Sorry, gorgeous." I groaned and threw my head back.
"Fine, but you better not be throwing me a-"
"Nope."
"Liar." I whispered.
"Just tell me where you wanna go."
"Um, coffee shop?" He grinned and nodded, making a U-turn and heading to Panera Bread.
"My?" I looked up from my phone.
"Yes?" He smiled and moved to the chair that was next to me.
"I love you." I sighed.
"I love you too, Himes."
"Happy birthday."
"Thank you, for the millionth time." I giggled.
"Wow, drama queen."
"Okay, let's not forget how you ran into my room last night, jumping on my bed and shouting
'HEY SHORTY, IT'S YO BIRTHDAY, WE GONN PARTY LIKE IT'S YO BIRTHDAY!' At 12am."
"I remember no such thing." He huffed. I laughed and slapped him.
"You're a jerk." I mumbled as I took a sip of my coffee.
"Love you too." I smiled up at him and kissed his cheek.
"I do love you." He shut his eyes and scrunched up his face, giving me a wide and childish smile. His phone went off and he picked it up. I took another sip of my coffee.
"Whose that?"
"Manager. Said we should be talking a tour soon." He shrugged.
Oh, tour.
"You ready?"
"Yeah..." I whispered.
"Hey, don't be sad. Nothing is set in stone. It's usually about a 10 month process. We won't be going anywhere."
"If I could only say the same." I said breathlessly.
"What?"
"Nothing, let's go." I told him, throwing my cup away and walking out, not bothering to wait for him.
Rude, I know. But I couldn't let him see me cry.
Jaime hopped out of the car and ran around, opening my door for me. I smiled softly and grabbed his extended hand, hopping out of the car.
"Such a gentleman."
"Anything for M'lady." He winked and threw his arm around me. We walked up to the door and he knocked. No answer. He sighed and searched his pockets.
"God dammit." He mumbled.
"The guys aren't in there?"
"Don't think so." He told me as he ran his hand across the top of the doorframe.
"If Mike would put the key back..." I laughed and searched through the plant pot, handing him a key.
"He always puts it in the plant." I rolled my eyes.
"Weirdo.." Jaime breathed and unlocked the door, leading me in. I flipped on the light to see people among people jump out from behind shelves, couches, and counters.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" They all screamed. I gasped and jumped back into Jaime, who had caught me with a chuckle. I smiled as everyone ran up and hugged me. I stiffined, but forced myself to relax.
"T-Thanks guys."
"Let's get this fucking party started!" Alex screamed. Everyone cheered and the guys connected their CD player into the TV, blasting Green Day. I smiled and walked into the kitchen.
"Happy birthday, little one." Casey told me. I smiled politely and thanked him.
"Wanna drink?"
"No, thanks."
"C'mon, live a little, birthday girl. I'll make ya something." I sighed.
"Okay, okay." He smirked and hopped off of the kitchen stool, walking over to where the assortment of alcohols.
"Any requests?"
"Strong and tasty, please." He nodded and began his work. I felt someone come up behind me and put their hands over my face.
"Guess who."
"Casey, who is it." I smirked.
"Definitely not Vic."
"Casey, you bastard." Vic chuckled. "You like it?" He asked, looking around the house that was filled with decorations.
"I didn't ask for this, Y'know."
"Yeah, but you deserve this." I shook my head turning around when I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"You deserve this too. Bottoms up." He winked. I smiled and held my cup up to him as I walked away, Vic still next to me, his arm tightly around my middle.
"If you're gonna drink tonight, just stay safe, okay?" Vic whispered in my ear over the loud music. I nodded.
" 'Course." He kissed my cheek, before he was pulled into the crowd by one of the guys to dance. I laughed and walked upstairs, going into my room and hearing my laptop go off. I walked over and realized that Jas was trying to Skype me. I sat on my bed and answered.
"Hey, Jassy."
"Hello Darling! You having fun?" I shrugged.
"The guys the party threw for me just started."
"Well, get down there! They've been planning this for like, ever." She laughed. "I love you though, happy birthday."
"Do you really have to go?"
"Well, you can't stay cooped up in your room, talking to me when you could be partying."
"Okay, fine. But how's the baby?" She looked down and smiled.
"Good. I should be far enough along that by the time I'm home and tell the guys, we can determine gender."
"AW!" I gushed.
"Hush, go enjoy yourself. When I get back, I'll make it up to you." I felt my smile wobble slightly.
"Yeah.."
"Alright, I'll talk to you later! Love ya, byeeee."
"Bye." I whispered and closed my laptop.
I walked outside to see a blurry tattooed back deep under the water. I smiled and rolled up my jeans, sticking my feet inside of the pool. Tony came up with a gasp of air and rubbed his eyes.
"Oh, look. A turtle in its natural habitat." He looked over at me and chuckled.
"Hey." I waved in return. "I've been looking for you all night."
"Really?"
"Mhmm." He mumbled, pulling himself out of the pool and throwing his arm around me.
"Holy shit, you're cold." I hissed, feeling goosebumps rise from his chilling and wet skin against mine.
"Sorry." He said, but didn't move his arm.
And I was perfectly fine with that.
"You enjoying the party?"
"Yep." I said, popping the 'p'.
"How many drinks have you had?"
"Like 2 and a half. I'm not drunk, but I'm feelin' it." He laughed and shook his head.
"You're adorable." I blushed and looked at my swinging feet in the water.
"Come on, I need to go dry off." I nodded and hopped to my feet, going over to the lawn chairs and handing him his beer. He smiled and thanked me as he walked inside. I bit my lip and nodded as we walked inside.
"MYA! PRESENTS!" Mike screamed and grabbed me. I looked at Tony who smiled reassuringly at me as I was dragged through the crowd. The music stopped and I fidgeted under everyone's stare. Jaime walked up and gave me a box. I slowly took it with a smile and sat on the couch. I teared through the paper and opened the black velvet box.
"Jaime..." I breathed, my eyes glued to the beautiful diamond necklace. Everyone huddled around behind me, getting a good look at it as well.
"You like it?" He asked.
"A-Are you kidding? It's beautiful. Thank you." I said and threw myself into his arms. He caught me and kissed my head.
"Turn around." I obeyed and gave him the box, holding up my hair to feel it lay around my neck and secure tightly.
"I love you."
"Love you too, My's."
About 30 presents later, I made my way upstairs and to my room. I definitely felt those 3 shots that I had done with Mike kicking in, and I just wanted to sleep. I fell against the closet wall and set all of my stuff in front of it, before setting my brand new acoustic inside the closet to stay in tip top condition. I felt myself being whipped around and I fell into Tony.
"T-ony!" I said through a hiccup.
"Hey." He whispered and pulled me into a quick kiss.
It may have been from the alcohol, but a burst of confidence shot through me and I pulled him closer before he had the chance to pull away. He chuckled and pulled me up against him, licking my bottom lip. I decided to be a tease, keeping my mouth closed. He growled and pushed me up against the bathroom door. I gasped and he slipped his tongue in. My hand ran through his hair, tightening it in my fist. He bit my lip and I let out a breathless moan, our breath intermingling as our tongues began to fight for dominance.He, of couse, had won. Tony pulled away with a triumphant smirk before he went down to my neck and tugging on my shirt. I threw it off and threw my head back and closed my eyes.
I knew what would come out of this.
And it was my first time, but I wasn't scared.
I...I loved him.
I felt my breathing hitch as he found my 'Soft spot', biting down as his thumbs drew soft circles into my hip bones.
"T-Tony." I breathed. He came back up, noses touching as his eyes dilated and almost black with lust.
"Mhm."
"I-I'm a-"
"It's okay. If you ever feel uncomfortable, tell me." I nodded slowly and he pulled me into another kiss. I grabbed his shirt and lead him to the bed, feeling him undo my bra in the process. I fell, my knees giving out as I hit the bed and Tony falling over me. The kiss deepened and he ran his hand down my side. I felt his excitement between my legs and bit my lip, trying to calm my labored breathing as his hand moved towards my jean button.
"Are you sure-"
"Yes. P-Please." He nodded, giving me a reassuring smile before going down the bed and undoing my pants. I helped get them down and he began to rub me through my underwear. My eyes slipped closed and I wiggled around. It felt amazing, but he was teasing me.
I whined and circled my hips. He quickly got the hint, taking my underwear in his fists and pulling them down.
"Ready?"
"Ready for wha-" My sentence was cut off by a moan as he brought his face down and sucked on my clit. My throat closed up as I attempted to gasp out his name, arching my back in pure bliss. I tangled my fingers in his hair as he ate me out. All too soon, I felt my stomach drop.
"T-Tone... I think I'm-" I squeaked as I felt two fingers enter me slowly. I shut my eyes tightly, feeling the sting subside before I was overwhelmed with pleasure.
"F-Faster.." He brought his face up and looked at me with a smirk, picking up his pace as he watched me wither beneath him and meet his fingers with each push. I screamed Tony's name over the music outside of the bedroom as I gripped my headboard, shaking as I felt my walls tighten and release quickly. I gasped for air as I looked at Tony wide eyed.
"Wow.." I said. He chuckled and took off his belt. I went to sit up and return the favor, but he pushed me back down.
"Tonight's about you." He whispered. I nodded slowly and watched him undo his tan skinny jeans, blushing at the buldge inside of his underwear. He took them off and hovered back over me, one hand holding himself up, the other rubbing against my entrance. I bit my lip and nodded, giving him the okay. He slowly started to push in and I moaned in pleasure and pain.
"You okay?" He whispered.
"Just hurts."
"We're almost there, babe. If you wanna-"
"Go." I breathed. He looked unsure, but pulled me into a kiss and pushed himself further inside of me, swallowing my loud whines. He stilled for what felt like forever, allowing my breathing to return to normal as I got used to him.
He pulled out and slammed back in, his lip between his teeth as I moaned.
"M-More." I choked out. He nodded and grabbed my hips, setting a steady pace. I was a moaning mess beneath him as his head dropped into my neck, nails creating crescent moons into my hips. I pushed him off of me and straddled him, pushing him back into me. He growled my name and I kissed him, screaming and throwing my head back as he pushed himself into me.
In that moment, all I could see, smell, hear, and feel was Tony. The only sound audible in the room was skin on skin and moans over the muffled music playing downstairs.
I ran my hands down his chest and looked at him through half lidded eyes. I felt the familiar tingle in my abdomen and mumbled out a "Close.". He nodded, pants falling from his beautiful lips in an inconsistent tempo. At a particularly hard push, I felt him hit a bundle of nerves that made my vision cloud over, heart ricocheting against my ribcage as my face went slack.
"T-TONY!" I screamed as a surge of ecstasy washed over me, the feeling rippling through my stomach and down my legs as I felt Tony stiffen inside of me.
"Fuck, My's." He moaned. We both rode out our orgasms as I leaned against his sweaty chest, still overwhelmed by the euphoria that coursed through my body. He pulled out and wrapped his arms around me, our breathing in time together with staccato pants and legato wheezes.
He kissed my shoulder, rolling me off of him and throwing the covers over me.
"You're so beautiful." He smiled, tucking a sticky piece of hair behind my ear. I blushed and kissed his cheek.
"You have a good birthday?" I closed my eyes, smiling wide as I nodded. He laughed and pulled me close to him. I sighed and closed my eyes.
"I lo-" I started, but quickly stopped myself.
Oh no... I didn't just-
"I love you too, Mya." He whispered and kissed my forehead. "I can sleep in here, right?"
"Really." I huffed.
"Sorry." He chuckled. "Get some sleep, okay?" I nodded, immediately falling into an exhaustion induced sleep.
He.. He loved me.
Is this what being wanted felt like?
What a fucking birthday...
Notes
http://www.iroff.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/09/diamond-necklace-pendant-P040S6W-IDD-869x9001.png Necklace c:http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=100100199
Yay for being up a day early! I'm sick as hell with bronchitis, so staying home all day. D: Drinking tea and living off of cough drops isn't fun, but I was free to finish this for you.
Crys and I both wrote bits and pieces of this, and um... sorry bout the smut /.\ But, you guys did ask for it.
So, I think she'll be leaving next update and stuff. Only about 6 more chapters left :O.
And holy shit! You guys did it! You got this story to the first on the popular page! Crystal was like, flipping shit earlier xD But seriously, you're all fucking amazing.<3
-Cassie
sequel pleeeease :D
5/14/14