I Breathe You In With Smoke.
As The Rain Falls Like Shattered Pieces Of Glass From The Sky.
NEXT DAY
I sat on the couch, knees to my chest and picking at my nails, hearing the screaming match in progress.
"My, it's okay."
"No it's not, Vic. Listen to them. It's all my fault. They shouldn't be yelling at Tony.."
"It's not your fault, Darling. Jaime's just... He's being a typical brother. Trust me, Mike always got into my business, and to this day I couldn't thank him enough for being so protective over me." I shrugged.
"It's not Tony that's to blame. I was the one who did it."
"But it's-" He stopped when we heard a loud thump.
"TONY!" I screamed and went to get up, but Vic grabbed my shoulders.
"Chill."
"W-What if they hurt him?" I whimpered. The door opened and Tony walked into his room, slamming his door.
"I need to go talk to him.."
"Is that really a good idea, Mya?"
"Please.." He sighed, pulling me up from the couch and wrapping me in a hug.
"I'm here for you, little one."
"Thanks." I kissed his cheek and ran up to Tony's bedroom, knocking softly.
"Fuck off!" Okay, that hurt.
"T-Tone?" I heard him sigh and walk up to the door, still keeping it closed.
"Yeah, My's?"
"Please open." I heard the lock click and I opened the door slowly, running into him. He stumbled back, hugging me tightly.
"I'm sorry." I whispered into his chest with a sniffle. I felt his chin rest on my head.
"I don't blame you for any of this, Y'know. You have no reason to apologize."
"But... I'm every reason that this is happening. T-They hit you and-" He pulled away from the hug and looked into my eyes, his warm hands placed on my shoulders.
"I'm fine. Jaime and Mike just need time to cool off." I nodded slowly before my head dropped, no longer able to hide my tears surfacing.
I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be causing problems, breaking up friendships, having to deal with the only family I have now to hold grudges against the choices I have made, or blame those choices on another, rather than the one who had inflicted the pain onto herself.
I needed to get out. I..I needed to cut, release all of this guilt that had built up inside of me from the burden I have been, to not only Tony, but the others as well.
You think I gave up all of the razors? I tried, I really did, but I couldn't.
"I-I'm gonna go on a walk."
"Can I come too?" No.
I shrugged and turned away from him, making my way down stairs. I walked outside and Tony came minutes later and grabbed my hand.
"Ready?" He smiled, his dermal reflecting off of the Californian sun. I squinted and giggled.
"Let's go." I told him. He nodded and we began our walk.
VIC
"Calm down bro." I told Jaime.
"No! My fucking little sister tried to kill herself and TONY FUCKING KNEW!"
"Look, we're all pissed alright? But you can't be dicks like this! You brought her here to get away from the screaming and the bullshit! What's done is done! Fuck, you act like Tony was the one to do this to her."
"You're on his fucking side?!" Mike screamed at me.
"Not exactly, but it's obvious that Mya hasn't moved on from her home life, or the cutting. You can't blow up like that when anything can trigger her!" Both men sighed.
"I fucking hate it when you're right." Mike mumbled.
"That still doesn't change the fact that-"
"IT BETTER CHANGE A WHOLE HELL OF ALOT JAIME! DO YOU WANT HER TO DO THIS AGAIN?!"
"No b-"
"THEN FUCKING LEAVE IT ALONE AND BE GLAD TONY FOUND HER BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE! HE SAVED HER LIFE, AND YOU'RE BOTH SCREAMING AND SHOVING HIM. I really need to leave because you both are pissing me off. Just let it all sink in, and when you're ready, I think you owe them both an apology." I muttered walking out and slamming the door.
MYA
"Tony, we've been here for fifteen minutes, just staring at this-"
"HIS NAME IS RAPHAEL!" I laughed and held my hands up in defense.
"Well, geez. Sorry."
Tony and I had come across a pond, and in the grass, we had found a baby turtle. Tony has just been petting it with a huge smile. It was quite adorable, but being stuck in 100 degree heat wasn't necessarily my forte.
"It's time to let it go."
"B-B-"
"Tony, say goodbye to the turtle." I mumbled, rolling my eyes at the fact that I sounded like a parent of a five year old. He sighed and set it in the pond.
"You're a jerk. That was like the cutest turtle I've ever seen.."
"Eh, I've seen cuter."
"Huh? What do- O-oh." He blushed and kissed my cheek. I smiled, but jumped when I heard a loud clap of thunder.
"Shit, we better-" Tony's sentence was cut short by the torrential downpour of rain. I laughed as Tony grabbed my hand and ran, stomping through the deepening puddles as our feet pounded the sidewalk in a desperate attempt to get back to the house. We were a good three blocks from the house, and by the time we got to our street, I was gasping for breath.
"Tony I--Can't run anymore!" He stopped and nodded. I looked over at him and stiffled a laugh.
He was soaked, but my God did he look adorable.
"You just had to stay and pet the turtle." I joked, shoving him.
"It was a cute turtle, okay!" He defended, looking over at me.
"Awh.." He laughed. "You're shaking." Tony said and pulled me into him.
"M'cold."
"It's okay, we're just 3 more houses down." I nodded and leaned into his shoulder as we walked, feeling the rain slow to a sprinkle.
We made our way up the driveway and I looked up at Tony to see him smiling at me. I smiled back before running off to the front door, my chilling skin getting the better of me. I heard Tony run up behind me and just as I reached for the door, he grabbed my wrist and whipped me around, pulling me into a kiss. I was a little taken back, but placed my hands on either side of his face. I let my eyes flutter closed, and I felt as if he had pulled away all too soon.
As the butterflies subsided, it was replaced by fear and confusion.
What did he want out of me? I'm only 17? Did he like me?
"Why do you keep doing that?!"
"Doing what?"
"You know what, Perry." I heard someone clear their throat and my head snapped towards the door. My eyes widened.
"D-Did you-"
"Get the fuck inside, Mya."
Shit.
I sat on the couch, knees to my chest and picking at my nails, hearing the screaming match in progress.
"My, it's okay."
"No it's not, Vic. Listen to them. It's all my fault. They shouldn't be yelling at Tony.."
"It's not your fault, Darling. Jaime's just... He's being a typical brother. Trust me, Mike always got into my business, and to this day I couldn't thank him enough for being so protective over me." I shrugged.
"It's not Tony that's to blame. I was the one who did it."
"But it's-" He stopped when we heard a loud thump.
"TONY!" I screamed and went to get up, but Vic grabbed my shoulders.
"Chill."
"W-What if they hurt him?" I whimpered. The door opened and Tony walked into his room, slamming his door.
"I need to go talk to him.."
"Is that really a good idea, Mya?"
"Please.." He sighed, pulling me up from the couch and wrapping me in a hug.
"I'm here for you, little one."
"Thanks." I kissed his cheek and ran up to Tony's bedroom, knocking softly.
"Fuck off!" Okay, that hurt.
"T-Tone?" I heard him sigh and walk up to the door, still keeping it closed.
"Yeah, My's?"
"Please open." I heard the lock click and I opened the door slowly, running into him. He stumbled back, hugging me tightly.
"I'm sorry." I whispered into his chest with a sniffle. I felt his chin rest on my head.
"I don't blame you for any of this, Y'know. You have no reason to apologize."
"But... I'm every reason that this is happening. T-They hit you and-" He pulled away from the hug and looked into my eyes, his warm hands placed on my shoulders.
"I'm fine. Jaime and Mike just need time to cool off." I nodded slowly before my head dropped, no longer able to hide my tears surfacing.
I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be causing problems, breaking up friendships, having to deal with the only family I have now to hold grudges against the choices I have made, or blame those choices on another, rather than the one who had inflicted the pain onto herself.
I needed to get out. I..I needed to cut, release all of this guilt that had built up inside of me from the burden I have been, to not only Tony, but the others as well.
You think I gave up all of the razors? I tried, I really did, but I couldn't.
"I-I'm gonna go on a walk."
"Can I come too?" No.
I shrugged and turned away from him, making my way down stairs. I walked outside and Tony came minutes later and grabbed my hand.
"Ready?" He smiled, his dermal reflecting off of the Californian sun. I squinted and giggled.
"Let's go." I told him. He nodded and we began our walk.
VIC
"Calm down bro." I told Jaime.
"No! My fucking little sister tried to kill herself and TONY FUCKING KNEW!"
"Look, we're all pissed alright? But you can't be dicks like this! You brought her here to get away from the screaming and the bullshit! What's done is done! Fuck, you act like Tony was the one to do this to her."
"You're on his fucking side?!" Mike screamed at me.
"Not exactly, but it's obvious that Mya hasn't moved on from her home life, or the cutting. You can't blow up like that when anything can trigger her!" Both men sighed.
"I fucking hate it when you're right." Mike mumbled.
"That still doesn't change the fact that-"
"IT BETTER CHANGE A WHOLE HELL OF ALOT JAIME! DO YOU WANT HER TO DO THIS AGAIN?!"
"No b-"
"THEN FUCKING LEAVE IT ALONE AND BE GLAD TONY FOUND HER BEFORE IT WAS TOO LATE! HE SAVED HER LIFE, AND YOU'RE BOTH SCREAMING AND SHOVING HIM. I really need to leave because you both are pissing me off. Just let it all sink in, and when you're ready, I think you owe them both an apology." I muttered walking out and slamming the door.
MYA
"Tony, we've been here for fifteen minutes, just staring at this-"
"HIS NAME IS RAPHAEL!" I laughed and held my hands up in defense.
"Well, geez. Sorry."
Tony and I had come across a pond, and in the grass, we had found a baby turtle. Tony has just been petting it with a huge smile. It was quite adorable, but being stuck in 100 degree heat wasn't necessarily my forte.
"It's time to let it go."
"B-B-"
"Tony, say goodbye to the turtle." I mumbled, rolling my eyes at the fact that I sounded like a parent of a five year old. He sighed and set it in the pond.
"You're a jerk. That was like the cutest turtle I've ever seen.."
"Eh, I've seen cuter."
"Huh? What do- O-oh." He blushed and kissed my cheek. I smiled, but jumped when I heard a loud clap of thunder.
"Shit, we better-" Tony's sentence was cut short by the torrential downpour of rain. I laughed as Tony grabbed my hand and ran, stomping through the deepening puddles as our feet pounded the sidewalk in a desperate attempt to get back to the house. We were a good three blocks from the house, and by the time we got to our street, I was gasping for breath.
"Tony I--Can't run anymore!" He stopped and nodded. I looked over at him and stiffled a laugh.
He was soaked, but my God did he look adorable.
"You just had to stay and pet the turtle." I joked, shoving him.
"It was a cute turtle, okay!" He defended, looking over at me.
"Awh.." He laughed. "You're shaking." Tony said and pulled me into him.
"M'cold."
"It's okay, we're just 3 more houses down." I nodded and leaned into his shoulder as we walked, feeling the rain slow to a sprinkle.
We made our way up the driveway and I looked up at Tony to see him smiling at me. I smiled back before running off to the front door, my chilling skin getting the better of me. I heard Tony run up behind me and just as I reached for the door, he grabbed my wrist and whipped me around, pulling me into a kiss. I was a little taken back, but placed my hands on either side of his face. I let my eyes flutter closed, and I felt as if he had pulled away all too soon.
As the butterflies subsided, it was replaced by fear and confusion.
What did he want out of me? I'm only 17? Did he like me?
"Why do you keep doing that?!"
"Doing what?"
"You know what, Perry." I heard someone clear their throat and my head snapped towards the door. My eyes widened.
"D-Did you-"
"Get the fuck inside, Mya."
Shit.
Notes
CASSANDRA HURRRR.So sorry if it wasn't up to par. It was a bit rushed, I'm so exhausted I can't even..
I don't know how many of you listen to Tonight Alive, but I bought their new album today, and hOLY SHIT.
Crystal did have a part in writing this (Mya's first POV), so S/O to you darling. Things are going to pick up soon, so much drama coming in this o.o MYA'S BIRTHDAY WILL BE IN 2 CHAPTERS! WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN?!
*The ending will be lengthened to Ch: 35-40ish. MAYBE.*
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5/14/14