I Breathe You In With Smoke.
Nobody Knows I Dream About It.
I looked over at Tony panicked, who sighed and threw his arm around me, pulling me close to him as we walked inside.
"Hey g-" Vic started from the couch, but raised his eyebrows when the door was slammed closed.
"You and fucking Mya?"
"I-I... We-"
"Wait, holy shit." Vic smiled. "Seriously?"
"No.." I whispered.
"Maybe." Tony mumbled. I felt my cheeks flush and I leaned into him, covering my face with my hands.
"Look, I thought this was just some fucking crush or whatever. She's jailbait Tony!" Mike whisper yelled. "If Jaime didn't want to kill you before, he's damn sure going to now for sticking your dick into his little-"
"Whoa, I haven't fucked her!" Well, this was extremely awkward..
"He's right. I've been waiting for this to happen." Vic pointed at us both. "You two, I mean, but Tone, this could get you into some deep shit with Hi-me."
"Please don't tell Jaime! I-I don't want Tony hurt and.. a-and.." I started crying and all three men wrapped me in a hug.
"Aw, My's.." Vic sighed.
"We didn't mean to make you upset, it's just that... A relationship between you two will only cause trouble." I heard Mike whisper in my ear.
"I-I need to go." I choked out, struggling out of their grips and running into my bedroom.
The last thing I wanted was Tony hurt. I mean, he didn't want me. I was just a fucked up California girl who has only known heartbreak and the blood that trailed down her skin. I had nothing to offer these boys, who had traveled the world and had thousands of people who adored them by their side.
They were forced to take me, out of pure pity.
My mind battled with itself as my eyes flickered to my wrist. I wanted to cut out all of the guilt, cut my pathetic self out of my own skin, but I couldn't without the guys knowing.
My breathing quickened and I felt like the air in the room was suffocating me. I gasped for breath and scrambled to the edge of my bed.
"My? Mya, you okay?" Jaime asked, knocking on the door. When he didn't get a reply, he opened the door and he ran to me.
"Calm down, beautiful. You'll be okay." He said, wrapping me in his arms.
"I'm so sorry.." I gasped as he rocked me back and forth. Sorry for never being enough. Sorry for being stuck with me. Sorry for... Me.
"Shh, it's okay." He cooed. Vic came in and frowned, handing me his glass of water. I took a sip and slowly started to calm down as the urge and voices began to degenerate.
"I love you so much.." He repeated. I snuggled into his chest and sniffled.
"My, I should've never reacted the way that I did. I just can't help it. Now that I have you, I-I... I need to protect you, but I was out of line this time. I took it too far, and I'm so sorry." I nodded and kissed his cheek. That may have not been the problem at the moment, but it did take a huge weight off of my shoulders.
"I love you.." I mumbled, my voice hoarse and scratchy.
"I love you too, beautiful."
"We all do, Mya." Vic added. "I'll leave you two alone." I nodded slowly and traced Jaime's hand tattoo, slowly falling asleep in his arms as he hummed to me.
"My?" I heard Jaime whisper and kiss my forehead. I groaned in response.
"Jas is on the phone. Said she needs to talk to you." I nodded, holding out my hand for the home phone to be placed into it.
"Hello?"
"Mya! Hey sweetie." I smiled at the sound of her voice.
"Hey. I miss you."
"I miss you too. So, there's something I need to t-tell you..." She whispered.
"Mhmm?"
"Are the guys around?"
"Well, I'm kinda sitting on Jaime's lap." I mumbled, looking up at him with a tired smile, which he returned.
"C-Can you go somewhere private? Please, it's just I'm scared and-"
"Whoa, hey. Calm down, yeah." I told her and hopped off of Jaime. He cocked his head to the side and I held up my finger before walking to the bathroom. I heard shuffling on the other end of the line and a shaky breath.
"You there?"
"Of course. What's got you so worked up?"
"You can't tell the other guys. Not until I figure this out."
"You're scaring me.." I whispered.
"Just please. Between you and me." I sighed and nodded, even though she couldn't see me.
"Between you and me."
"Okay, My... I-I'm pregnant. I don't know how the guys are going to react. I'm going to lose my job and Vic might leave me, and.. I...I'm really scared, Mya." Her voice got progressively shaky by the end of her sentence, a sign that she started to cry. I stood frozen, my jaw slacked and eyes wide.
"You're...what?" I breathed.
"Yeah.."
"Jas, that's amazing!"
"Yeah?" She laughed a little.
"Yes! Could you imagine a little-" I started, but stopped, realizing that Jaime was only a few feet away. "We're talking later, when it's more private. I'm so happy for you! OH MY GOSH!"
"Shh, calm down. Okay. Keep your cell on, we'll text or something."
"Yeah."
"Alright, bye Darling. Love you."
"Yeah, love you." I told her and hung up, composing myself before opening the door to find an amused Jaime and now Tony.
"Girls and their gossip, man." Tony chuckled.
"If you only knew." I huffed.
"Okay, well I need to walk. My legs are numb from you sleeping on them for 2 hours." Jaime rolled off of the bed and stretched.
"LOVE YAAAAAA!" he sang, making me giggle.
"Love you too. Sorry for falling asleep on you."
"S'all good." He said and walked out, leaving Tony and I alone.
"Was that Jas?" I nodded and sat on the bed, still keeping my distance.
"I can't help but think something was wrong.. She didn't tell you anything did she?"
"Nope." I mumbled, biting my cheek to avoid a smile. He looked up at the TV that had been playing Tosh.0, I'm guessing that was Jaime's doing.
"You okay?" He whispered.
"What are we Tony?" I blurted out. He sighed and looked at his lap. "I-I mean, like we kiss and you're all sweet one minute, and then the next, you say it can't happen again. Just give me a straight answer.."
"Look, I like you My, okay? It's just you're too young, and I don't know how Jaime could react. I'm trying to work this shit out, so just bare with me.. Please?" I sighed and nodded, picking at my fingernails.
"I, um.. I like you too." He looked up and smiled, scooting closer and pulling me into his chest. He was always so warm, I couldn't help but to feel safe in his arms, but nothing could distract me from the thoughts of the guys running around with a little Fuentes.
I'm happy for Jas, but I wonder if I could ever be happy for myself?
"Hey g-" Vic started from the couch, but raised his eyebrows when the door was slammed closed.
"You and fucking Mya?"
"I-I... We-"
"Wait, holy shit." Vic smiled. "Seriously?"
"No.." I whispered.
"Maybe." Tony mumbled. I felt my cheeks flush and I leaned into him, covering my face with my hands.
"Look, I thought this was just some fucking crush or whatever. She's jailbait Tony!" Mike whisper yelled. "If Jaime didn't want to kill you before, he's damn sure going to now for sticking your dick into his little-"
"Whoa, I haven't fucked her!" Well, this was extremely awkward..
"He's right. I've been waiting for this to happen." Vic pointed at us both. "You two, I mean, but Tone, this could get you into some deep shit with Hi-me."
"Please don't tell Jaime! I-I don't want Tony hurt and.. a-and.." I started crying and all three men wrapped me in a hug.
"Aw, My's.." Vic sighed.
"We didn't mean to make you upset, it's just that... A relationship between you two will only cause trouble." I heard Mike whisper in my ear.
"I-I need to go." I choked out, struggling out of their grips and running into my bedroom.
The last thing I wanted was Tony hurt. I mean, he didn't want me. I was just a fucked up California girl who has only known heartbreak and the blood that trailed down her skin. I had nothing to offer these boys, who had traveled the world and had thousands of people who adored them by their side.
They were forced to take me, out of pure pity.
My mind battled with itself as my eyes flickered to my wrist. I wanted to cut out all of the guilt, cut my pathetic self out of my own skin, but I couldn't without the guys knowing.
My breathing quickened and I felt like the air in the room was suffocating me. I gasped for breath and scrambled to the edge of my bed.
"My? Mya, you okay?" Jaime asked, knocking on the door. When he didn't get a reply, he opened the door and he ran to me.
"Calm down, beautiful. You'll be okay." He said, wrapping me in his arms.
"I'm so sorry.." I gasped as he rocked me back and forth. Sorry for never being enough. Sorry for being stuck with me. Sorry for... Me.
"Shh, it's okay." He cooed. Vic came in and frowned, handing me his glass of water. I took a sip and slowly started to calm down as the urge and voices began to degenerate.
"I love you so much.." He repeated. I snuggled into his chest and sniffled.
"My, I should've never reacted the way that I did. I just can't help it. Now that I have you, I-I... I need to protect you, but I was out of line this time. I took it too far, and I'm so sorry." I nodded and kissed his cheek. That may have not been the problem at the moment, but it did take a huge weight off of my shoulders.
"I love you.." I mumbled, my voice hoarse and scratchy.
"I love you too, beautiful."
"We all do, Mya." Vic added. "I'll leave you two alone." I nodded slowly and traced Jaime's hand tattoo, slowly falling asleep in his arms as he hummed to me.
"My?" I heard Jaime whisper and kiss my forehead. I groaned in response.
"Jas is on the phone. Said she needs to talk to you." I nodded, holding out my hand for the home phone to be placed into it.
"Hello?"
"Mya! Hey sweetie." I smiled at the sound of her voice.
"Hey. I miss you."
"I miss you too. So, there's something I need to t-tell you..." She whispered.
"Mhmm?"
"Are the guys around?"
"Well, I'm kinda sitting on Jaime's lap." I mumbled, looking up at him with a tired smile, which he returned.
"C-Can you go somewhere private? Please, it's just I'm scared and-"
"Whoa, hey. Calm down, yeah." I told her and hopped off of Jaime. He cocked his head to the side and I held up my finger before walking to the bathroom. I heard shuffling on the other end of the line and a shaky breath.
"You there?"
"Of course. What's got you so worked up?"
"You can't tell the other guys. Not until I figure this out."
"You're scaring me.." I whispered.
"Just please. Between you and me." I sighed and nodded, even though she couldn't see me.
"Between you and me."
"Okay, My... I-I'm pregnant. I don't know how the guys are going to react. I'm going to lose my job and Vic might leave me, and.. I...I'm really scared, Mya." Her voice got progressively shaky by the end of her sentence, a sign that she started to cry. I stood frozen, my jaw slacked and eyes wide.
"You're...what?" I breathed.
"Yeah.."
"Jas, that's amazing!"
"Yeah?" She laughed a little.
"Yes! Could you imagine a little-" I started, but stopped, realizing that Jaime was only a few feet away. "We're talking later, when it's more private. I'm so happy for you! OH MY GOSH!"
"Shh, calm down. Okay. Keep your cell on, we'll text or something."
"Yeah."
"Alright, bye Darling. Love you."
"Yeah, love you." I told her and hung up, composing myself before opening the door to find an amused Jaime and now Tony.
"Girls and their gossip, man." Tony chuckled.
"If you only knew." I huffed.
"Okay, well I need to walk. My legs are numb from you sleeping on them for 2 hours." Jaime rolled off of the bed and stretched.
"LOVE YAAAAAA!" he sang, making me giggle.
"Love you too. Sorry for falling asleep on you."
"S'all good." He said and walked out, leaving Tony and I alone.
"Was that Jas?" I nodded and sat on the bed, still keeping my distance.
"I can't help but think something was wrong.. She didn't tell you anything did she?"
"Nope." I mumbled, biting my cheek to avoid a smile. He looked up at the TV that had been playing Tosh.0, I'm guessing that was Jaime's doing.
"You okay?" He whispered.
"What are we Tony?" I blurted out. He sighed and looked at his lap. "I-I mean, like we kiss and you're all sweet one minute, and then the next, you say it can't happen again. Just give me a straight answer.."
"Look, I like you My, okay? It's just you're too young, and I don't know how Jaime could react. I'm trying to work this shit out, so just bare with me.. Please?" I sighed and nodded, picking at my fingernails.
"I, um.. I like you too." He looked up and smiled, scooting closer and pulling me into his chest. He was always so warm, I couldn't help but to feel safe in his arms, but nothing could distract me from the thoughts of the guys running around with a little Fuentes.
I'm happy for Jas, but I wonder if I could ever be happy for myself?
Notes
PARTY NEXT CHAPTER!MAYBE.
I don't know if I should add some major drama, like Kevin and Laura coming back into the story, or whatever.. xD
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5/14/14