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I Am Not Alright, and I Would Rather

We Never Stood A Chance Out There- Shooting Love In Real Time

I walked slowly through the hallways of the hotel, my head down. I knew I was subconsciously looking for an elevator, or at least some stairs. But honestly, I could've passed them a million times and probably not noticed, I was just too out of it.

I know deep down that we were doing what was best for ourselves, for each other. On paper, we're perfect together. But in real life, we're too damaged for each other. We both deserve stability, and neither of us can provide that. Hell, we tore each other apart. Like Tony said, I'm the cause of his mental distress and he's the cause of mine.

I continued to wander around the hotel floor until I came up to someone. They were dressed in grey sweat pants and a big hoodie. When I looked at his face I saw that it was one of Vic's friends.

"Hey Mike," he said casually.

"Hey- Um," I bit my lip, trying desperately to remember his name.

"Kellin," he interrupted. That's it.

"Sorry," I mumbled.

"It's fine," he said, smiling politely at me, "So if you don't mind me asking, why are you still wearing your suit?"

Well, I guess he's one of those people that gets straight to the point.

I shrug, "I haven't been back to my hotel yet..." I say sheepishly, "I actually can't find the elevator or else I would've left about 15 minutes ago."

He nodded and said, "Well, I'm going to go see Vic and Jaime before they leave for their honeymoon. If I were you I'd come with me, Vic's kind of upset that you didn't say goodbye last night. Even though you never left?"

I sighed, "I'll go with you and apologize. I was a little busy last night..."

"You hooked up with someone last night," he said. He said it as a statement and not a question. He was pretty sure of himself, I like it, I could see us being friends.

I couldn't say anything so I just nodded. I felt I was under water. Everything was muffled and far away.

He laughed, "I thought so! Was she hot?"

"He was beautiful," I mumbled, seriously not wanting to have this conversation.

"Oh," Kellin said awkwardly, "I didn't know both Fuentes' we like that..."

I shrugged. "Well now you do..."

He laughed, "Let's go see Vic and Hime then!" he said enthusiastically.

I mustered up the best smile I could manage before following him down the hall to the hotel room.

After a fairly short walk, Kellin walked up to a door and started banging on it and screaming, "VICCY-POO WAKE UP!"

"Oh my god," I muttered as my face grew red. I was completely and totally embarrassed at being associated with this lunatic.

"What?" he questioned me as the door started to open, "It worked."

I facepalmed before looking up at a very unhappy looking Vic. He was dressed only in his boxers and his hair was really messy, definitely just woke up.

"What do you want Kellin?" he asked, venom dripping from his tone.

"Just wanted to say goodbye before you guys left," he said cheerfully, completely unaffected by Vic's harsh tone, "Oh and I found your brother! He didn't leave without saying goodbye, he just got laid last night!"

"Oh my god Kellin," I exclaimed, facepalming again. This guy really is a piece of work.

Vic looked over at me and raised an eyebrow, I found myself squirming because of the awkwardness his stare induced. It's like he fucking knows.

Just then Jaime came up behind Vic and saved me, "Hey Kellin, hey Mike," he said lazily, "What's going on?"

It was obvious he had just woken up too, his hair fell limply over his forehead and his eyes were still halfway closed. He rested his chin on Vic's forehead while he waited for an answer.

"Just came to see you guys and ran into Mike," Kellin answered, as cheerful as ever, "He was lost, looking for the elevator."

Jaime shot me a weird look, "How'd you get lost if you came up here in the first place?" he asked.

"He was a little busy when he came up," Kellin answered for me, "He got laid last night!"

"Kellin, I'm going to hurt you!" I exclaimed.

Even I could hear the amount of sadness in my voice as I said that. It was obvious that Jaime and Vic had heard it too, I could tell by their faces.

"Babe, take Kellin downstairs to get breakfast," Vic said, "I think Mike needs to tell me something."

I shuddered and bit my lip as Jaime nodded. He went back into the hotel and emerged less than 5 minutes later completely dressed.

"Let's go Kels," Jaime said, walking around Vic, "I hear they have a great breakfast restaurant here."

As they walked away Vic led me into his room. We sat down at the table, Vic poured us both cups of coffee.

"Ok," he said as he sat down, "What happened? And don't say nothing. Even though it's been six years, I can still tell when my little bro is sad."

I sighed before breaking down and telling him everything. It felt good to say it, yes. But it also made it seem pathetic. I mean come on Mike, what did you expect? This isn't some fucking fanfiction, this is real life. There are no happy endings.

When I was done with my story Vic stood up and hugged me, "I'm sorry Mike," he whispered, "I think you guys were wrong though. I think it'll hurt the both of you more if you stay away."

I sighed, knowing in reality he's only saying that because it's what I need to hear. It's not helping though, I know it's not the truth.

Notes

Title Cred: All Time Low

A little Kellin to lighten the mood. :D I know this isn't cookie worthy, but I never actually agreed to it... >.> <.<<br>
Guys I broke the fourth wall. I'm not even sorry.

HOW THE FUCK DID I UPDATE THREE TIMES TODAY? I haven't done that in forever... Don't get used to it though, I start school on Monday... :'C

Comments

I fucking loved this story you are a natural talent!!!! :)

Tori Fuentes Tori Fuentes
2/18/14

Holly crap... I cried... Man this is sad... Very fucking sad... NOOOOOOOOOOOO! WHY DID YOU MAKE ME CRY!? I LOVED THE STORY BUT WHY DID YOU MAKE ME CRY!? *sits down in a corner and sobs for the ready of eternity*

Okaay...I imagined real life tony dying in a hospital bed...I instantly started crying at the thought of losing someone I looked up to. This seriously broke me heart <\3 why end it so sadly? ;_;

You really fucking like killing my feelings don't ya? First it was the one before with I think it was Vic's sudden death and now this? Oh you could write a horror novel and make me buy it and then get the living flying fucks scared outta meand make me wanna cry because of the attachment you create with the readers. Oh your an amazing writer but your killing my feeling now. ;~;
Honesty's_Lies_ Honesty's_Lies_
11/12/13
@xMareBear14x
Your welcome I hope you write more books though
Janese Janese
10/17/13