why do you keep running away?

Tia's pov-

I woke up in tears and drenched in sweat. "please no!" I screamed.
Gabe jumped up immediately.
"what? What's wrong!?" He asked turning on the little lamp.
I was breathing heavily.
"hand me my pills" I demaded. He grabbed my prescribed pills from when Dallas abused me.
I took one out quickly and put on tab in my mouth.
I swallowed it.
"thanks" I said under my breathe.
"What happened?" He asked again this time wanting an answer.

"Can we talk in the kitchen?" I asked.
"yeah of course"

I walked to the coffee table.
"So what happened?" He asked sitting down.
I sighed heavily.
"Do you want the full story?" I asked.
"Only if you feel comfortable telling me" he said.
"Ok, when I was 7 my dad went to Afghanistan, he was stationed there, little did he know my step mom abused me, I have this scar from the time she hit me with her beer bottle and pushed me down the stairs and the glass stabbed me"
I pulled up my shirt and showed him the side of my ribcage.
It had a 10 in scar with stiches.
"oh my god" he said looking at it.
I sat back down.
"I know, it's bad" I said.
"What else?" He asked.
"My uncle raped me when I was 6 and my "mom" didn't do anything about it, she had 12 affairs when my dad was away, my real mom died during birth with me, I got beat up in 5th grade and almost lost my memory." I said.
"I started self harming" I said showing him my scars.
"you're so beautiful, even if you have scars, I love you either way" he said.
"I'm not beautiful Gabe, look at me, I have no make up on, I'm wearing clothes that are 2 times to big, my hair is a mess, I am ugly" I said.
"you've never looked more beautiful" he said.
he got up and went to my side of the table.

"I love you" he said before kissing my lips.
I closed my eyes stunned.
He pulled away.
"Please be my girlfriend" he said looking into my eyes.
"I would love too Gabe" I didn't think.

Why am I doing this.. Goodbye Kellin

Notes

I hate my life rn!!! Fuck everything I hate myself.
:'( but I'm fine.