why do you keep running away?

Tia's pov-

I can't believe I said yes. I shouldn't have said yes. Why did I say yes? You're such an idiot Tia!!.

"Goodnight babe" Gabe said yawning and kissing my forehead. I smiled fakely as he crawled back in my bunk. It was early in the morning. I checked the time on my phone.
"5:00" I mumbled. I shrugged turning off the light and turning on my tiny lamp on the couch.

Dear Diary~
I made a huge mistake. I don't want Gabe. Or, I don't want to break his heart. He's a great guy. But, he doesn't know, I got pregnant for Tony.
It was a long time ago. But it still haunts me to this day. I can't deal with this any longer.
Love, Tierra


When I was 16, I had my first alcoholic beverage. Whiskey, which of course Mike gave me. It was my first time drinking. It was at a party at Tony's house. This was before I had ran away. I was young and dumb, what can I say?

"Babe I'm going to the store to buy more drinks, you want anything?" Kellin asked.
"no, I'm fine" I replied.
He nodded and got out of the house.
I was always the shy girl. I always sat in the corner during partys, I never participated in any games or talked with anyone besides Jenna and Ash Costello.
I sat on the recliner drinking a soda. I wasn't allowed to drink because Austin never let me.
"Come on Tia! Lighten up, have a shot" Mike slurred holding a tray full of whiskey.
"No, I really can't" I said.
"Why?" He asked heart broken.
"I'm 16" I said.
"So, I had my first beer way before than" he said.
I looked around.
"Austin left with some blonde, come on have just one" Mike begged again.
"Fine" I caved in.
"that's the spirit!" He rejoiced.
He handed me a shot.
Some how one shot turned into 4 shots.

Minutes later Tierra mode kicked in.
"seven fucking minutes in heaven!" Vic shouted with girls surrounding him. He ran up to me almost tripping over bottles of beer. He shoved a Beanie in my face.
"Choose" he demanded.
"I can't, Kellin's not back" I said tipsy falling to my left.
"Don't worry" he assured me. I shrugged and pulled out a purple guitar pick with a turtle.
"Some fucking pic!" I said with everyone looking at me.
"Right here!" A drunk Tony shouted.
"you have seven minutes" Mike said shoving us in a closet.
I sat on the couch in the corner.
"So are we just gonna sit here?" Tony asked leaning against the wall.
"Well, you have Stephanie and I have Kellin" I reminded him.
"it's just for one night"
"So?" He asked.
"We can't cheat" I explained.
He ignored me. He pinned me against the wall. His face almost touching mine. His breathe smelling like beer. God dammit. He had snakebites, medium length hair, wide gauges, and dark brown eyes to die for. He was perfect. Seeing this side of him was a real turn on. He was quiet.
Our lips finally united. He forced his toungue in my mouth.
He held my hips as I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Times up!" Mike shouted opening the door. He jumped off of me. "Woah, what happened here?" Mike smirked.
We looked at each other and ran out. Tony grabbed my arm and forced me to his bedroom.
(I feel uncomfortable writing smuts but I'll edit in later if you want)
After the party I went back home to find Austin recovering from his one night stand.
"Why you late?" He asked taking an advil.
"Boyfriend problems" I lied.
"Oh" Austin said.
Where's aunt Kenzie?" I asked noticing it was quiet.
"Business trip" he said.
I nodded.

1 week later~
I've been having morning sicknesses and having bad migraines. I have mixed emotions now. I decided to go to the store and buy a pregnancy test.
I peed on it. Ew. I waited patiently for two minutes, which seemed like a million years. Finally it beeped.
a huge plus sign appeared. Oh god no. I cried and cried. I'm not ready to be a mom. I have to tell Tony

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