Will You Fall In Love Again?
Time Stood Still
*** SCARLETT'S POV ***
It has been 3 weeks since my thing with Mike and I feel so, so incredibly guilty. We haven't been sneaking around behind Austin's back or anything, it was only that one time but we text frequently and I just ache for him, I'm longing to be in his arms. I feel so awful because I have this wonderful man who loves me and wants to be with me, who knows everything about me and I know everything about him, who’s handsome and who treats me like a princess. But I have this other man that I’ve been in love with since I was a little girl, I don’t think you could say it was a crush really, I’ve always been drawn to him, I never stop smiling when I’m with him, we know everything about each other, he’s simply stunning. My head is an absolute mess. Thank god we’re on our way to New York, I need space. And time to think. Once we get to New York I’m staying home and staying there until the end of tour, there’s only 3 or 4 dates left after this one tonight anyway. I need space to make my decision. Austin or Mike. There are lots of pros and cons for both. I’m driving myself fucking insane trying to keep away from Mike and act like there’s nothing bothering me to Austin.
*** MIKE'S POV ***
Three weeks without my beautiful girl is driving me insane. I miss her so much; I can’t do with just texting her. I love her. I need her to be in my arms. But I totally understand her point of view; she needs space and time to think. I’m glad she’s going home after the New York date because it will give her a chance to do just that. I just need her in my life again. I love her. I cannot stress that enough. I want her to be mine forever. I want to marry her, have babies and grow old with her. She’s so amazing, so flawless. I love Austin as a friend and everything but it kills me to know that he gets to be with her every night. Vic knows there’s something going on because I’m never off my phone, texting her, nor do I let anyone see my phone. I’d do anything to make everything right and I just hope it’s me she chooses. I need her. I’d break down without her again.
*** AUSTIN'S POV ***
There’s something not right. I can sense it. There’s something not right with Scarlett and I but I have no clue what it is. It’s seriously stressing me out. We’re all close now and everything between her and Mike is sorted, thank god, because it would’ve made this tour much worse. She said she needs some “me time” when we get to New York. I wonder why. Am I annoying her? I don’t know… I love her though. I just hope she’s okay. Whatever it is that’s upsetting her, she needs to set it straight and get it sorted out. It’ll get sorted out, she’ll feel much better and I’ll do anything to help her be happy again. She’s on edge. You can tell. There’s definitely something…
*** SCARLETT'S POV ***
Every minute feels like a week, every hour feels like a year. I feel like I’ll be old and wrinkly by the time I get off this bus. I need out. I need my space. Time is not going by quick enough.
I hear the guys saying we’ll be in New York in about an hour. Thank fuck. I go to the bathroom, bringing my outfit and a towel with me. I turn on the shower and step in, rinsing my hair and freshening myself up for the gig tonight. It’ll be the last one I see, I can’t wait to sleep in a proper, comfy double bed tonight. There will be nothing better. I rinse my hair out and have content thoughts of home and step out the shower to get ready. I slide on my underwear, brush my teeth and put on my outfit, wrapping a towel round my hair. I get outside where the air is cool against my warm, steamy skin. I get my makeup bag and get ready in the bunk because there’s a mirror near a window, making it much easier to do makeup in, where there’s proper light. I go with minimal eye makeup and a nude lip. I can’t really be bothered doing much with my hair, so I blow-dry it and put it up into a nice ponytail with braids. I look okay I think. I need to look good for Mike. No! I can’t be thinking those things right now. I put on my wedges and spray myself with perfume, walking to the couch and sitting down.
“You look beautiful baby” Austin said as he sat down next to me, kissing my cheek.
I wouldn’t say I’d been distant, but I haven’t been myself with him. Truth be told I was scared. I’m not sure which one out of Austin and Mike I wanted more. Both were amazing to me. I was also scared because Austin’s ex-girlfriend that he has a lot of history with (and I mean a lot) is going to be at one of the shows I’m not going to be there for… Why the fuck am I being so defensive? I slept with Mike!
Ugh. My head is a mess.
It has been 3 weeks since my thing with Mike and I feel so, so incredibly guilty. We haven't been sneaking around behind Austin's back or anything, it was only that one time but we text frequently and I just ache for him, I'm longing to be in his arms. I feel so awful because I have this wonderful man who loves me and wants to be with me, who knows everything about me and I know everything about him, who’s handsome and who treats me like a princess. But I have this other man that I’ve been in love with since I was a little girl, I don’t think you could say it was a crush really, I’ve always been drawn to him, I never stop smiling when I’m with him, we know everything about each other, he’s simply stunning. My head is an absolute mess. Thank god we’re on our way to New York, I need space. And time to think. Once we get to New York I’m staying home and staying there until the end of tour, there’s only 3 or 4 dates left after this one tonight anyway. I need space to make my decision. Austin or Mike. There are lots of pros and cons for both. I’m driving myself fucking insane trying to keep away from Mike and act like there’s nothing bothering me to Austin.
*** MIKE'S POV ***
Three weeks without my beautiful girl is driving me insane. I miss her so much; I can’t do with just texting her. I love her. I need her to be in my arms. But I totally understand her point of view; she needs space and time to think. I’m glad she’s going home after the New York date because it will give her a chance to do just that. I just need her in my life again. I love her. I cannot stress that enough. I want her to be mine forever. I want to marry her, have babies and grow old with her. She’s so amazing, so flawless. I love Austin as a friend and everything but it kills me to know that he gets to be with her every night. Vic knows there’s something going on because I’m never off my phone, texting her, nor do I let anyone see my phone. I’d do anything to make everything right and I just hope it’s me she chooses. I need her. I’d break down without her again.
*** AUSTIN'S POV ***
There’s something not right. I can sense it. There’s something not right with Scarlett and I but I have no clue what it is. It’s seriously stressing me out. We’re all close now and everything between her and Mike is sorted, thank god, because it would’ve made this tour much worse. She said she needs some “me time” when we get to New York. I wonder why. Am I annoying her? I don’t know… I love her though. I just hope she’s okay. Whatever it is that’s upsetting her, she needs to set it straight and get it sorted out. It’ll get sorted out, she’ll feel much better and I’ll do anything to help her be happy again. She’s on edge. You can tell. There’s definitely something…
*** SCARLETT'S POV ***
Every minute feels like a week, every hour feels like a year. I feel like I’ll be old and wrinkly by the time I get off this bus. I need out. I need my space. Time is not going by quick enough.
I hear the guys saying we’ll be in New York in about an hour. Thank fuck. I go to the bathroom, bringing my outfit and a towel with me. I turn on the shower and step in, rinsing my hair and freshening myself up for the gig tonight. It’ll be the last one I see, I can’t wait to sleep in a proper, comfy double bed tonight. There will be nothing better. I rinse my hair out and have content thoughts of home and step out the shower to get ready. I slide on my underwear, brush my teeth and put on my outfit, wrapping a towel round my hair. I get outside where the air is cool against my warm, steamy skin. I get my makeup bag and get ready in the bunk because there’s a mirror near a window, making it much easier to do makeup in, where there’s proper light. I go with minimal eye makeup and a nude lip. I can’t really be bothered doing much with my hair, so I blow-dry it and put it up into a nice ponytail with braids. I look okay I think. I need to look good for Mike. No! I can’t be thinking those things right now. I put on my wedges and spray myself with perfume, walking to the couch and sitting down.
“You look beautiful baby” Austin said as he sat down next to me, kissing my cheek.
I wouldn’t say I’d been distant, but I haven’t been myself with him. Truth be told I was scared. I’m not sure which one out of Austin and Mike I wanted more. Both were amazing to me. I was also scared because Austin’s ex-girlfriend that he has a lot of history with (and I mean a lot) is going to be at one of the shows I’m not going to be there for… Why the fuck am I being so defensive? I slept with Mike!
Ugh. My head is a mess.
Notes
Title credit: Sleepwalking - BMTHWho do you guys think she'll choose? :)
I'm so sorry this is such a shitty chapter, i'm having really bad writers block and I feel like this story isn't too good, idk :(
Thank you for reading anyway!
<3
Awww, you're so sweet man!
11/11/13