*** MIKES POV ***

Vic has been acting strange ever since the show, not really looking at me. I wondered what was up but we were all going out tonight and I didn’t want anything to start. Vic and I do tend to bicker. Maybe I’d pissed him off or something. We got to the bar and Vic immediately pulled me up to Austin and Tony Pizzuti. Why the fuck is he being so weird?

I immediately looked over to the booth we were sitting at and saw Austin’s girl. I can’t lie, she’s fucking hot. She’s got the cutest features and I can’t help but feel like I know her from somewhere…
We walked back over with everyone’s drinks and Austin squeezed up next to his girl, I made a mental note to find out her name, I hadn’t found it out yet. The rest of us squeezed in and I was across from them. Something about her still looks so familiar; I don’t know what it is.

“Here’s to the best opening night!” the ginger guy, Alan I think his name is, held his drink up in the air and we all clinked glasses, cheering. I couldn’t help but stare at Austin’s girlfriend, she’s so beautiful and I can’t help myself. She’s like my ‘ideal girl’.

She gets up and looks at me funny, like she’s scared of me or something… “Austin, could you let me out please? I’m bursting!” She giggled as Austin let her out and kissed her. I think I knew who it was. Once she was out of sight, Austin smiled at me and I just fucking knew.

“Austin, what’s your girl’s name? I totally forgot to ask when we were talking earlier!” I chuckled, but I knew who it was.

“Uh, Scarlett.” He paused and I smiled, I fucking knew it. “She’s amazing, right?” he said enthusiastically, I think he knew who I was now too. She must have told him about me, must have. Vic looked over at me sympathetically, knowing why I looked so awkward. Now I know why he’s being weird.

Most of us got up to dance except from me, Vic & Tony. I couldn’t keep my eyes off her as she danced with that girl Pamela, which was Telle’s girlfriend. I just kept staring at her beautiful figure swaying from side to side and her hair going along with her, that god damn beautiful smile spread wide across her face. I can’t take this. I miss her. She’s supposed to be my girl. She’s mine. She always has been. I spot her go out for a cigarette and after 5 or so minutes I take that as my chance to go and see her, speak to her.

She was standing against the wall, drink in one hand and cigarette in the other, with her clutch bag under her arm. She looked so peaceful. She is so beautiful.

“You always did like a cigarette when you were drunk” I said, she nearly jumped out of her skin.

“For fuck sake! I didn’t know anyone was standing there, you scared the absolute shit out of me, Mike! You ass.” She clutched her hand over her heart and we both laughed. Aw, she hasn’t changed at all.

“Sorry, I thought you seen me when you walked out but you obviously didn’t...” I chuckled again. “You look good.” I stole her cigarette and took a drag; it’s my first cigarette in two days. I haven’t had a chance to buy them yet, and this was pure bliss.

She said a small thank you. I see that smile on her face; she looks so cute when she’s embarrassed. I bit my lip, I might regret hearing the answer to what I’m about to ask.

“So… you and Carlile, huh?” I blew out smoke and looked at her.

“Yep.” she sighed. I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her, “You’re staring. Why?”

“I miss you.” I sighed too. “It hurts so fucking bad, seeing you with him. You know that right?”

I got the sense I’d stressed her as she took out another cigarette. “I understand that, but you should understand why I left, if that’s what you’re going to get into. I’m sorry that you’re hurting and I do miss you, Mike.” She blew out her smoke and looked in my direction, eyeing me from head to toe. “You look good too. Single life treats you good.” That one stung. I didn’t want to be single, I wanted to have her.

“I didn’t even recognise that it was you at first,” I paused, it’s true. She has many more tattoos and piercings and she’s so hot with them all but once I had a really good look at her, I knew it was her. “Then when you were sitting with him in there, I seen that toothy grin you used to give me and I just knew man, I knew it was you Scarlett.” I sighed and sat down, feeling my eyes beginning to sting, and before I knew it I was sobbing and she sat down next to me, putting her arm round me.

“I’m sorry Mike. I am. I didn’t want things to be like this with us but you didn’t keep your promise to me so I couldn’t keep my promise to you. I’m sorry, Mikey. Please don’t be upset. I don’t like seeing you upset.” She rubbed my back to console me; I don’t know why I’m so upset. It has been two years...

“We all miss you, you know? You just got up and left. It was heart breaking. I was clean when we got back, and you couldn’t even have been there to be proud of me. Even if you didn’t want to be with me, to make you proud is all I wanted.” I looked up at her beautiful face, there was sadness in her eyes and I looked down again “But I understand why you went, I fucked it up, you didn’t deserve any of it.”

“I’m proud of you now though. You haven’t even drank alcohol tonight, I noticed Mike. You only have had a cigarette, which is so good. You should be so proud of yourself!” she put her head on my shoulder. I could smell her hair and she was rubbing my back. I don’t know why I did this or what happened but without any warning I smashed my lips into hers with so much passion and love; I needed her in that moment. To my surprise, she didn’t push me away, she kissed me back and tugged my hair a bit, I knew this meant she want more and I needed more too. Then she suddenly pushed me away and looked down, with a sad look on her face.

“Mike” she breathed against my lips, “Mike, I can’t. I have Austin. Oh my god, Austin. He’s waiting in there for me. I’m sorry. I can’t.” she stood up really quickly, fixed herself and went back into the bar without even looking at me again. What the fuck just happened?

I walked back into the bar about 10 minutes later and told the guys what happened.

“What the fuck, so she kissed you and walked away? She’s turned into a bitch from the looks of it, playing with your emotions like that. She obviously wanted to kiss you, so why would she act like she didn’t? I don’t get it man.” Vic said, shaking his head.

“Hey! Don’t call my best friend-well my old best friend a bitch. She’s obviously confused. She’s not seen him in two years she’s obviously going to be conflicted on how she feels. You know she’s always been in love with you Mike and that’s why she had to go.” Jaime said and walked off, he has never really brought up Scarlett anymore, he was just as hurt as we were by her leaving. She was his roommate after all. He walked over to her and cuddled her, probably wanting to talk.

I didn’t give a fuck anymore; I needed the pain to go away. I ordered numerous shots and once I was drunk enough, I seen a girl with big boobs and blonde fake hair and went over to her, just instantly kissing her. I wanted her to hurt like I did. So I kissed this girl and made it look like we were going to fuck right there and then but when I see Scarlett kiss Austin goodnight and walk out, with tears in her eyes I automatically stopped and followed her once she was out of Austin’s sight.

“See how it feels!” I shouted at her and instantly regretted it.

“Fuck you Mike! I was going to speak to you about everything when we had a chance, I wanted to talk to you about everything and I could make a decision. I was thinking about ending things with Austin after this tour, he’d understand I know he would, I was thinking about giving you another chance, like I’d always promised you because I actually missed you, I missed kissing you and being near you, but you’ve well and truly fucked it now. Just because little Mikey doesn’t get his way straight away he goes and fucks some other bitch! I can’t believe you. My heart has always been yours and it feels like you only want me when you can’t fucking have me.” she said with tears streaming down her face.

“I-I’m sorry Scarlett honestly, I’m so fucking sorry.” I grabbed her and kissed her and she stayed there, in my arms as I kissed her and kept her close to me, running my hands through her hair. She put her arms round my neck and deepened the kiss, I could feel her tongue piercing on my tongue and it felt so good. I never wanted this moment to end, it was amazing. I needed her, I needed to kiss every single inch of her body and make love to her. She needed to be mine again.

“Where are we going to go?” she breathed against my lips.

“The Pierce the Veil bus? You could text Austin and say we got in a fight and wanted to talk things out so it’s not awkward on this tour.”

“You’re a genius, Michael.” She quickly texted him and we walked back to where the buses were. I locked the door and we went straight to the back room, I locked that door too. “I can’t believe I’m doing this”

“Come here beautiful, I need you.” she walked over to me and took her heels off and got on top of me, kissing me with more passion and love than I’ve had from anyone in the past two years. Sure I’ve been with a few girls in two years but nothing felt like this. This was love, not just sex. We both knew we loved each other in this moment and the high I was feeling because of it was unreal.

“Mikey” she breathed out as I was kissing her neck and collar bones. I took her top and bra off and kissed her boobs, noticing her nipple piercings. She giggled as I looked stunned.

“That’s hot as fuck Scarlett, oh my god.” She giggled again and I got on top of her taking down her jeans and thong as she took off my jumper and jeans. I missed everything about her. I kissed every inch of her with her moaning out quietly. She took my boxers off and we totally skipped the foreplay.

“I need you Mikey, please fuck me.” she said against my neck and nibbled at the spot that she knew drove me crazy. I slid myself into her and thrust deep into her each time, making her eyes roll back and her nails dig into my skin. “I love you Mikey, I’ve always loved you.” she kissed me and moaned in my mouth as I continued to thrust.

“I love you too Scarlett, always” I thrust into her harder and I was becoming close, as was she. We rode out our orgasms together and afterwards we lay next to each other, smiling. I traced every new tattoo of hers; taking everything in before we had to get changed and she had to leave.

She left about an hour later and I got a text just after she left the door.

From: Scarlett <3
I miss you already :-( xxxxx

My heart melted when I read it and with a tear in my eye I text her back:

To: Scarlett <3
I miss you too baby :-( it won’t be long until we can be together my lady, I promise. Xxxxx

I went to sleep a happy man that night, and with dreams of her being mine. I felt like I had my life back together. Sure we’ve been through a lot of shit in the years we were together but we’ve grown up now. I’m 26 and she’s 25, we’re more mature, we love each other. You can’t stop love. Right?

*** SCARLETT’S POV ***

I got to the OM&M tour bus and couldn’t help but feel like my heart was breaking. I missed Mike; I needed to be with him again. I love Austin, yes, and he’d give me everything in the world if he could. But it’s not the same. With Mike it’s consuming and we can’t live without each other, can hardly keep our hands off each other.

I went to mine and Austin’s bunk, where he was already sleeping. I tried not to wake him as I slipped into the bunk, feeling incredibly guilty. I can’t believe I did this to him. I’ve got the lips of another man on mine and I had the most amazing night, don’t get me wrong… but I just cheated on my boyfriend. Something I swore I’d never do. I am a horrible, horrible person.

“Everything good, baby?” Austin snapped me out of my thoughts.

“Yeah, we sorted it. It took a while, but we sorted it.” I smiled at him, “nothing will be awkward in this tour anymore. Yay!” I pressed a soft kiss to his lips and every time I looked at him I wanted to cry. I know my heart doesn’t belong with him, here, in this bunk. It belongs with Mike, and I was aching to be with him again.

I'm a horrible person.

Notes

Title credit: Yeah Boy, and Doll Face! - Pierce the Veil

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