Will You Fall In Love Again?
I Don't Know The Awkward Stranger To My Right
We headed to the bar with the guys from OM&M, Pierce the Veil and The Word Alive. The guys from TWA were lovely, Telle and Luke were my current favourites, and they made me feel so welcome and were such cool guys. I was still kind of taken aback that Mike didn’t even recognise me. I wondered if Vic had kept quiet about seeing me, or if he’d told the guys. He gave me a quick nod when we got to the bar and I went to sit down and keep the table whilst Austin got me and the guys drinks. I was crowded round by Alan, Tino, Phil, Aaron, Telle, Luke, Daniel, Zack and a few girls that must have been here for the boys, whereas everyone else was getting drinks. Austin was chatting to Tony from Pierce the Veil, he flashed a smile at Austin and I couldn’t help but feel a bit guilty for leaving my best friends behind and feel like I missed them a little.
Austin, Tony from TWA, Tony Perry, Vic, Jaime and Mike all walked towards where we were sitting for the night with our drinks. I was sitting at the end of the booth so Austin could squeeze himself in whereas the others went to the other side of the booth, making Mike and I directly across from each other. Oh no…
I buried my face into Austin’s chest as he put his arm round me and repeatedly kissed my forehead and tickled me to make me feel more at ease. It was working.
“Here’s to the best opening night!” Alan said holding his drink up in the air and we all clinked glasses. I felt Mike’s eyes on me, studying me. I’m not sure if he was now just figuring out who I was but I didn’t care anymore. Austin made me feel like it was just us two.
“Hey, lovebirds, stop making out and get into the conversation, hoes!” Telle laughed. I think his drink was already starting to give him a buzz. I sipped on my drink and nodded along to whatever was being said in the conversation, I still felt Mike’s eyes on me, glaring at me. It was actually kind of intimidating.
“Austin, could you let me out please? I’m bursting!” I said as I giggled, Austin got up and kissed me as I got up.
“Hurry back princess” he said as I walked away, the boys made gagging sounds. I laughed. This may not be all that bad.
I went to the toilet, did my business and when I walked out of the cubicle one of the girls that was sitting with us, I think it was Telle’s girlfriend, Pamela came up to me and said, “You’re looking fine tonight, girl” and twirled me round. I giggled and thanked her, “Have you seen that uh, what’s his name, Mike? He’s been looking at you all night, he so wants in those cute ass shorts of yours! Which, your ass is looking fine in, by the way.”
I giggled again, “Thank you but girl, have you seen yourself?” I said twirling her round, “You look absolutely insane. I’d die for your figure! Uhm, yeah I have… actually, he’s my ex. And a lot of shit went down with us, I’ve not seen him in 2 years, we ended right before I left San Diego for New York, where I met Austin and totally fell in love.”
She nodded sympathetically. “Don’t let him ruin your night babe. You look great and the best way of getting to an ex is a great body and a hot new man” she winked at me, “Come on, let’s get some drinks and dance our butts off! You and Austin are precious together by the way. He treats you like you’re a goddess.”
“I am his goddess.” I winked at her and we held hands as we walked to the bar to get more drinks and we did exactly as she said, dancing our butts off and drinking.
It was late on in the night and I was dying for a cigarette so I slipped away from Pamela, grabbed my drink and my cigarettes and went outside. I lit up the cigarette and was in pure bliss. I needed that stress release. I inhaled the smoke and kept it there before releasing it slowly.
“You always did like a cigarette when you were drunk.” A familiar voice said, which startled me out of my state of bliss.
“For fuck’s sake! I didn’t know anyone was standing there, you scared the absolute shit out of me, Mike!” I clutched my hand over my heart, with it still pounding.
He laughed, “Sorry, I thought you saw me when you walked out, but obviously you didn’t…” he chuckled again. “You look good.” He stole my cigarette out of my hands and took a drag, doing the same as I was. He’s so beautiful when he smokes.
“Thanks…” I replied, hiding the smile on my face. I didn’t realise how much I missed him.
“So. You and Carlile, huh?” he said as he blew out smoke.
“Yep.” I sighed. I didn’t know what he was wanting from me; his eyes were fixated on me. “You’re staring. Why?”
“I miss you.” he sighed. “It hurts so fucking bad, seeing you with him. You know that right?”
I shook my head, taking out another cigarette. “I understand that, but you should understand why I left, if that’s what you’re going to get into. And your brother has already started on me about that... I’m sorry that you’re hurting and I do miss you, Mike.” I said as I blew smoke out too, “you look good too. Single life treats you well.”
“I didn’t even recognise it was you at first, then when you were sitting with him in there and I seen that toothy grin you used to give me and I just knew man, I knew it was you Scarlett.” He sighed, sitting down, his hands covering his face, sobbing quietly.
“I’m sorry Mike. I am. I didn’t want things to be like this with us but you didn’t keep your promise to me so I couldn’t keep my promise to you. I’m sorry, Mikey. Please don’t be upset. I don’t like seeing you upset.” I sighed, sitting down next to him on the ground and putting an arm round him.
“We all miss you, you know? You just got up and left. It was heart breaking. I was clean when we got back, and you couldn’t even have been there to be proud of me. Even if you didn’t want to be with me, to make you proud is all I wanted.” His sad eyes looked up at me and looked back down again. “But I understand why you went, I fucked it up, you didn’t deserve any of it.”
“I’m proud of you now though. You haven’t even drank alcohol tonight, I noticed Mike. You only have had a cigarette, which is so good. You should be so proud of yourself!” I rubbed his back and put my head on his shoulder.
Without any warning, he smashed his lips into mine. I found myself not caring, enjoying the moment, I kissed him back. It was quite a few minutes into the kiss when I realised what I was doing. I stopped the kiss and pushed him away.
“Mike” I breathed, “Mike, I can’t. I have Austin. Oh my god, Austin. He’s waiting in there for me. I’m sorry. I can’t.” I stood up quickly, fixing myself and walked into the bar without a second glance.
What the fuck have I gotten myself into?
Austin, Tony from TWA, Tony Perry, Vic, Jaime and Mike all walked towards where we were sitting for the night with our drinks. I was sitting at the end of the booth so Austin could squeeze himself in whereas the others went to the other side of the booth, making Mike and I directly across from each other. Oh no…
I buried my face into Austin’s chest as he put his arm round me and repeatedly kissed my forehead and tickled me to make me feel more at ease. It was working.
“Here’s to the best opening night!” Alan said holding his drink up in the air and we all clinked glasses. I felt Mike’s eyes on me, studying me. I’m not sure if he was now just figuring out who I was but I didn’t care anymore. Austin made me feel like it was just us two.
“Hey, lovebirds, stop making out and get into the conversation, hoes!” Telle laughed. I think his drink was already starting to give him a buzz. I sipped on my drink and nodded along to whatever was being said in the conversation, I still felt Mike’s eyes on me, glaring at me. It was actually kind of intimidating.
“Austin, could you let me out please? I’m bursting!” I said as I giggled, Austin got up and kissed me as I got up.
“Hurry back princess” he said as I walked away, the boys made gagging sounds. I laughed. This may not be all that bad.
I went to the toilet, did my business and when I walked out of the cubicle one of the girls that was sitting with us, I think it was Telle’s girlfriend, Pamela came up to me and said, “You’re looking fine tonight, girl” and twirled me round. I giggled and thanked her, “Have you seen that uh, what’s his name, Mike? He’s been looking at you all night, he so wants in those cute ass shorts of yours! Which, your ass is looking fine in, by the way.”
I giggled again, “Thank you but girl, have you seen yourself?” I said twirling her round, “You look absolutely insane. I’d die for your figure! Uhm, yeah I have… actually, he’s my ex. And a lot of shit went down with us, I’ve not seen him in 2 years, we ended right before I left San Diego for New York, where I met Austin and totally fell in love.”
She nodded sympathetically. “Don’t let him ruin your night babe. You look great and the best way of getting to an ex is a great body and a hot new man” she winked at me, “Come on, let’s get some drinks and dance our butts off! You and Austin are precious together by the way. He treats you like you’re a goddess.”
“I am his goddess.” I winked at her and we held hands as we walked to the bar to get more drinks and we did exactly as she said, dancing our butts off and drinking.
It was late on in the night and I was dying for a cigarette so I slipped away from Pamela, grabbed my drink and my cigarettes and went outside. I lit up the cigarette and was in pure bliss. I needed that stress release. I inhaled the smoke and kept it there before releasing it slowly.
“You always did like a cigarette when you were drunk.” A familiar voice said, which startled me out of my state of bliss.
“For fuck’s sake! I didn’t know anyone was standing there, you scared the absolute shit out of me, Mike!” I clutched my hand over my heart, with it still pounding.
He laughed, “Sorry, I thought you saw me when you walked out, but obviously you didn’t…” he chuckled again. “You look good.” He stole my cigarette out of my hands and took a drag, doing the same as I was. He’s so beautiful when he smokes.
“Thanks…” I replied, hiding the smile on my face. I didn’t realise how much I missed him.
“So. You and Carlile, huh?” he said as he blew out smoke.
“Yep.” I sighed. I didn’t know what he was wanting from me; his eyes were fixated on me. “You’re staring. Why?”
“I miss you.” he sighed. “It hurts so fucking bad, seeing you with him. You know that right?”
I shook my head, taking out another cigarette. “I understand that, but you should understand why I left, if that’s what you’re going to get into. And your brother has already started on me about that... I’m sorry that you’re hurting and I do miss you, Mike.” I said as I blew smoke out too, “you look good too. Single life treats you well.”
“I didn’t even recognise it was you at first, then when you were sitting with him in there and I seen that toothy grin you used to give me and I just knew man, I knew it was you Scarlett.” He sighed, sitting down, his hands covering his face, sobbing quietly.
“I’m sorry Mike. I am. I didn’t want things to be like this with us but you didn’t keep your promise to me so I couldn’t keep my promise to you. I’m sorry, Mikey. Please don’t be upset. I don’t like seeing you upset.” I sighed, sitting down next to him on the ground and putting an arm round him.
“We all miss you, you know? You just got up and left. It was heart breaking. I was clean when we got back, and you couldn’t even have been there to be proud of me. Even if you didn’t want to be with me, to make you proud is all I wanted.” His sad eyes looked up at me and looked back down again. “But I understand why you went, I fucked it up, you didn’t deserve any of it.”
“I’m proud of you now though. You haven’t even drank alcohol tonight, I noticed Mike. You only have had a cigarette, which is so good. You should be so proud of yourself!” I rubbed his back and put my head on his shoulder.
Without any warning, he smashed his lips into mine. I found myself not caring, enjoying the moment, I kissed him back. It was quite a few minutes into the kiss when I realised what I was doing. I stopped the kiss and pushed him away.
“Mike” I breathed, “Mike, I can’t. I have Austin. Oh my god, Austin. He’s waiting in there for me. I’m sorry. I can’t.” I stood up quickly, fixing myself and walked into the bar without a second glance.
What the fuck have I gotten myself into?
Notes
Title credit: Yeah Boy, And Doll Face! - Pierce the Veilthis is part one of this chapter, part two will be up tonight and it will be like this but Mike's point of view and some extra drama! hope you enjoy!
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11/11/13