Where Do We Go From Here?

"Oh" He said with a cough.

At the sound of one simple word followed by silence, I could feel the tightness in my chest grip me even tighter and the tears well in my eyes.

"Oh god, no! Please don't cry!" He said and pulled me into him. I tried to push myself out of his grasp.

"Becca, I feel the same way! I was just shocked that you said it so soon! Please stop crying." He said with a slight stutter.

"What?" I sniffled and looked up at him.

"I love you, ya fuck." He chuckled and kissed me. The warmth of his arms lulled my tears away but I was still trying to regain control of my breathing.

"I thought you were gonna say you didn't like me." I wiped away the last of my tears and he shook his head.

"I have loved you since the first time I saw you. You were so cute standing in line, getting told by security that you couldn't bring your camera in. I'm glad that I was walking past the door that day or I would have never met someone so caring and lovely as you." He squeezed me a little tighter. "You are all I have thought about since you left that day. When I said that thing last week, I really didn't mean it. I thought you didn't feel the same way about me as I did for you and I didn't want to scare you away or make it seem like I was leading you on." He sighed.

"Seems like everyone could see we liked each other except us." I chuckled. It sounded like a line from a cliche Lifetime movie but it was true.

"Yeah, Denis told me that they all knew but didn't want to say anything to me." We started walking back telling each other what Denis had said to us and we realized that Denis was like the girl in every movie that tries to keep everyone calm and make sure they're okay; A den mother of sorts.

"Look who decided to come back." We heard as we rounded the corner to the bus. The table had been put away and most of the people had gone back to their buses, all that was left outside was a few of the guys from Sleeping with Sirens and the AA boys. They eyed us up and down.

"Finally manned up, I see." James chuckled while pointing to our intertwined fingers.

"She did, I didn't." Ben shrugged but laughed.

"See, I told you everything would be fine." Denis said knowingly.

"Yeah yeah, thank you all seeing eye." I rolled my eyes and chuckled.

I sat back in my chair from earlier and just smiled, thinking about the rest of this summer and how it would be so easy to just enjoy myself now that I don't have an ongoing conflict in my heart and mind.

That night I stayed with Ben. We stayed in his bunk just talking about anything we could think of and cuddled. It felt good to feel like I was loved after all these years of thinking I could only be a friend with benefits girl or just another one night stand.

Ben's POV

So many thoughts were going through my head when she asked me to take a walk with her. I could see that she was nervous about something since she was fiddling with the strings on her shorts.

We stopped walking after a while and she turned to me, stumbling over her words a bit and then she finally spit out what she wanted to say.

"Last year was so nice. I feel like after that something just clicked with us, at least I thought we did but last week when you said that I was really nothing special... It kind of broke my heart even though I know we weren't really much of anything besides friends. I mean, I like you a lot and I just don't know if you feel the same but I thought you felt the same but I don't know. I just thought I should bring it up just so I can get things clear." She said and all I could do was stare at the ground, the shock value hit me hard.

"Oh" I said with a cough, trying to connect all the words in my head. I didn't even think that me not saying anything would make her think that I didn't like her but as soon as I looked over, I could see the pain in her face.

"Oh god, no! Please don't cry!" I said and pulled her into me.

"Becca, I feel the same way! I was just shocked that you said it so soon! Please stop crying." I said with a slight stutter.

"What?" She sniffled and looked up at me and it broke my heart to see her with tears in her eyes.

"I love you, ya fuck." I chuckled and kissed her in attempts to make her feel better and stop crying.

"I thought you were gonna say you didn't like me." She said as she wiped a stray teardrop from her face and I just shook my head

"I have loved you since the first time I saw you. You were so cute standing in line, getting told by security that you couldn't bring your camera in. I'm glad that I was walking past the door that day or I would have never met someone so caring and lovely as you." I held her a little tighter.

"You are all I have thought about since you left that day. When I said that thing last week, I really didn't mean it. I thought you didn't feel the same way about me as I did for you and I didn't want to scare you away or make it seem like I was leading you on." I sighed contently, finally being able to get all that I've wanted to say off my chest.

"Seems like everyone could see we liked each other except us." She said with her adorable little laugh. It was true, we were oblivious while everyone else figured it out.

"Yeah, Denis told me that they all knew but didn't want to say anything to me." I smiled and shook my head at how stupid that sounded.


We started walking back telling each other what Denis had said to us and laughing at how he tried to keep both us calm. As soon as we got back, the ridiculing commenced, I knew it was coming though and I didn't really care.

For the first time in a few years, I found someone that I really think I'm in love with.

Notes

AWWWWWWW<3


Okie Dokie! We have begun the exciting journey that will be filled with lots of conflicting emotions for me and probably you as well as some rage from my friend who reads this(sup Kenia, gurl you gonna hate me one day for this story ;) )

I'll see you guys probably later today!
Love you all <3
~Becca xx