But Where's Your Heart?

ANDREA'S POV

~two days ago ~

I was really tired from school so I decided to take a nice hot bath. I'm not big on baths so for me to want to take one, I thought I'd make it special. I put out some scented oils, lit some scented candles, put on a playlist of soft music and dimed the lights.

I took my time in there, to just think. To think of everything from my unfinished science homework to contemplating my existence. I live for moments like this. I love to just sit down and think. To busy myself with random thoughts and not be interrupted, but most people thing I'm wasting time just sitting on my ass.

Quite some time passes and I decide to get out. U u dress in some comfy clothes then drain the tub. I walk out of the bathroom and straight to my room. The first thing I do is put on my La Dispute "Somewhere At The Bottom Of A River Between Vega and Altair" vinyl then lie on my bed and wait to expierience the story Jordan Dreyer to disclose. Because that's what it is. That's how you would properly understand their music, to expierience it. To try to understand him, to try to understand whomever he's written this song about. To try to understand what has happened to this man to make him want to write music like this; with such topics and emotion.

I stay like this. Deep in thought, until I am so rudely interrupted by my notification ringtone going off. I check and it's an email...from Julia? I was kinda happy, ecstatic actually, so much that i want even annoyed by her awful timing

The email read:

Hey cutie how'ya been? Sorry u haven't spoke to you in a while but I've been soooi busy. Anyways, things here are going good, David finally asked me out, school's still hell and I miss u a lot but none of those things are the reason I emailed you. I have a HUGE surprise for u that u know ur going to loooove!! But, I've been told to keep it a secret sooo..... sorry about that ;D talk to ya soon yeah?

Bye ;*

She's such a dork, but I miss her her too. I'm also really happy for her. Julia and David have been crushing on each there since the fourth grade and since they're both my friends, I had to listen to them go on and on when the other did something 'cute'.

I sat up and crossed my legs before I sent my reply.

Hey you dork, I've been fine. I'm glad to know he finally grew some balls ;P You guys are SO cute together, I can already see it. School sucks here to but all least I made a friend, well four actually, all guys and before you ask, no I am not dating any of them. And believe me muffin, I miss u too, I have no one here to complain to ;) Also, you're a little shit you know that? You know I hate when people tell me they have a surprise and don't tell me what it is. You monster. But don't worry, I will find out >:)

Jk, love ya, bye xoxo

I press send then almost instantly get a reply.

Ok, ok! I'll tell you, just please don't hurt me! ;) So Andrew told me that he's going to go visit u during the winter break! It's my job to get your exact location and schedule so he knows where and when to go! Yay! U wanted to go too but u thought I'd ruin the whole "the love of my life came so far to come and visit me" thing y'all got going on ;)))

I sat there, starting at my phone screen in shock. She can't be serious, that won't happen, she's probably just joking. I mean today is October 22, why would she tell me now Instead of like a week before the break? Yup, this is just a crude joke.

Ok, right ;)))

I laid back with my phone hovering over my face.

Andie, I shit u not, I swear on my cat's life, I am telling u the truth

I let out a sigh and reply

You sound very convincing, I'll give you that but why would you tell me now, in October, instead of a later date? Like, winter break in Toronto isn't until the second week of December, which is in about two weeks from now.

I tried to beat her with my logic, but if I know one thing about Julia, it's that she's persistent, stubborn, if you will.

What, did you think his parents are going to let him go to San Diego on his own? Especially on such a special occasion? He has to save up money for his plane ticket, he's leaving the night after the last day of school and coming back the night before we return. Babe, I know how much he means to you, I get it now, I wouldn't joke about something like this. Trust me <33

She got me there. I know for a fact that Julia would never make me feel bad or insult me, even if we weren't friends. I trust her. I hesitantly pressed the send button

82 Rosecrans Street
San Diego, CA

I do trust you

I hesitantly pressed the send button. I really don't have anything to lose here.

She said that's great and I replied with hearts and blushy emojis then I put my phone off to the side.

I'm dreaming, there is no way in hell that this is really going to happen. This only happens in movies and really sappy books. In real life? No. Never. Let alone my life.

I sat there and wondered what it'll be like to have him here for two weeks and after pinching myself numerous times and still not believing, I figured why not? I mean no harm done in believing she's telling the truth right? Even if it is a lie.

I just won't put too much faith in it.

~present time ~

I don't regret anything. Vic was being such an asshole to all of us, I feel like I should've gotten angrier.

Pull my knees up to my chest and claw at my shoulders in an attempt to calm myself down.

I sigh.

Vic's a really good guy, he was probably having a rough day and I just I made it worse. I'll give him his space, I don't think he'd want to talk to me after today anyways. He just wanted me to be healthy and I was being a bitch about it.

I stand from the bench and plug my earbuds in. I chose a soft playlist of music because u feel so fragile right now, I don't think I would be able to handle anything else. I tart to walk home.

After about for songs my phone died and I'm forced to walk through the streets without the comforting companionship of beautifully harmonised sounds.

I take the long way home because I feel like I need to breathe and clear my head. So many things have hit me hard in the past few days. I feel overwhelmed. I feel engulfed in problems and I don't know how to deal with them.

I enter my house and take off my shoes. I begin to walk up the stairs until my mom calls my name.

"Yeah, mom?"

"Come here please "

i sigh quietly and go back down the stairs, into the dining room where she's sat at the table.

"Andrea..."

My mom says and by the way she said my name I can tell she's going to speak in Spanish, which is never a good thing.

"Miré, te lo voy a decir una vez, no quiero saber qué tú vas a celebra la día fui los muertos con tus amigos. Nos otros vamos a mirar películas aquí en la casa y vamos a hablar con tu abuela por teléfono. ¿Me entiendes?"

[Listen, I'm only going to tell you once, ii don't want to know that you're going to celebrate Halloween out with your friends. We are going to watch movies here at home then phone your grandmother. Is that understood?]

I rolled my eyes at her.

"Miré ya casi tengo dieciséis años. Pienso que puedo hacer mis decisiones. Casi no salgo, pienso que salir esa día con mis amigos me va ser bien "

[Look I'm almost sixteen, I think I can make my own on decisions. I barely ever go out, I think having fun with my friends that day will do me good]

"Andrea, no quiero pelear, l'otro semana vas a quedar a aquí "

[Andrea, I don't want to fight, next week you're staying here and that's final]

I rolled my eyes again and got up

"Whatever" I muttered as I hoisted my bag over my shoulder

i was walking away when she grabbed my wrist and forcefully spun me around.

"Do not speak to me like that" she said through clenched t teeth.

I pulled my wrist from her grasp and straightened my posture all without breaking eye contact. I went up to my room.

I closed the door and the my things to the side. I rubbed my face while taking deep breaths.

I walk over to my bedside table and put my phone to charge. As soon as it powered on I got a notification of a text from... Tony? Weird.

The text read:

Tones: hey Andie, wanna hangout? I haven't picked out a Halloween costume yet and I don't want to be a cowboy again this year

Me: sure Tones, what time does the costume store close?

Tones: 11pm

I glance at the numbers at the to corner of my screen, 6:42

Me: ok I'll get dressed, should I meet you somewhere?

Tones: I can meet u at Mission Bay park in 30 and we can go from there

Me: sounds good, see yea then

I put my phone down and stand, stretching a bit. I decide to change my outfit from shorts, tank and a flannel to black ripped skinnies, a black and white 3 quarter sleeve and my beanie and I was off

Notes

Hey
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So first and foremost, I again want to apologise for being late again with updating, I just can't find time. I have the next chapter written already and it will be posted later today. Also, I'm trying to make my chapters longer, sooo yeah

Bye babes ;*