But Where's Your Heart?

TONY'S POV

I already knew today was gonna suck but not this much. What was a bit strange was that I haven't seen Andrea all day, I mean I usually don't see her until after lunch but even after that she wasn't there. It's now almost the end of last period and I think she didn't come to school today.

The bell finally rang and I walked out of class. I opened my locker put things away, took some out, then slammed it shut. I walked out of the school and into the parking lot where I saw Jaime and Vic.

"Hey guys" I said

They both looked at me and greeted me.

"Hey Tone, have you seen Andie today? " Jaime said.
"Uh no actually, I was gonna ask you guys if you've seen her"
He made a sad pouty face.

I lied. I don't want to talk to Andrea, not because I'm angry or anything like that but I think it's best, for the both of us, if I just stop.
I was so busy thinking about how much of a horrible person I am towards my friends that I didn't notice Andie was here with Mike, and I only realised because she was getting angry. What the hell? I zone out for two seconds and suddenly the world is ending.
I tried to not make eye contact with her and look as uninterested as I could until Mike and Vic started yelling at each other and that's when I realised what they were yelling about so, in an attempt to be a good friend, I decided to step in.
"Guys can we just fucking go home already? What's so wrong if she smoked some? It's not like you guys haven't tried it and if you haven't, then you've at least gotten wasted a few times. What's the big fucking deal?" Honestly, I'm really just tired. It's Friday and I just want to go home.

Vic turned to me and by the look on his face I knew I should've kept my mouth shut. But hey, can't blame a guy for trying.
"Oh what do you know Tony? You get wasted every fucking weekend! I wouldn't be surprised if you had a fucking travel-size bottle of Jack in your bag!"

I didn't think he'd go that far. I know I have a few problems, sure I'm broken here and there, but he just yelled them out in the middle of a public place, in front of a girl I have feelings for.
I feel so ashamed. I put my head down and didn't dare say anything back.
"Ok Vic, that's a bit too far. We all have problems ok? We all have our own ways of dealing with them, whether it's healthy or not. You of all people should understand that"
She walked over to me and gave my hand a soft squeeze with a matching smile.
She's amazing. I don't think it would've meant as much if anyone else said it. I just feel like giving her the most loving and passionate kiss in the world but, you know, I can't for obvious reasons.
She ran her hands through her hair, looked at each of us then spoke again.
"I'm walking home" she said lowly then walked away.
As soon as she was gone Vic turned back to me with such anger, I can't even describe.
"What the hell Tony!" He said almost screaming.
"Woah, what? What the hell did I do?"
"She probably hates me and thinks I'm the bad guy right now because of you!" He said walking closer to me.
"Vic, you did that on your own! You basically just told her that she can't have any fun or happiness by any means! What are you her mom!? Why do you treat her like that!?"
Vic tried coming even closer but Jaime got in the middle.
He put his hands on Vic's shoulders and looked him straight in the eye.
"Come on Vic, we're not going to act like middle schoolers and fight friend over some girl"
He pushed him off and started to shake his head.
"She's not some girl Jaime, you of all people know that. You know how I've talked to you about her for hours, you know how much I care about her, you know how much I think about her, you know how much she means to me and now she hates me"
I took this as my chance to escape. As Vic was talking to Jaime I took cautious steps back around the back and the side of the car until I was at the front where I couldn't be seen, then ran.
I ran through the, now empty parking lot, past the gates and kept going. Once I was close to my destination I slowed down a bit. I walked a bit further then here I was, the park. But no, not just any regular old park, this park has.... A bench. See, when ever I had problems or my mind was too cloudy from too many thoughts, I came here to clear my head.
As I neared the sacred bench, I noticed someone sitting there with their head in their hands, their purple head in their hands.
Andie.
Should I sit next to her? No, she probably thinks I'm desperate, and an alcoholic or something like that. So instead, I went around the bench to the other side of the park then climbed up the play structure, to the small roof thing and laid down there.
Vic was right, well almost right, when he said I have a travel size bottle of alcohol, except it wasn't Jack, it was vodka. I closed my eyes then drank about a shot's worth of the liquid.
~a few shots later at Tony's house~
I know how bad this is for me but let's face it, there's really nothing here stopping me, there's no one here telling me I have my whole life ahead of me and that I shouldn't throw it away, there's no one here that genuinely cares. I swear on my heart that if someone stops to at least try to help me –in any way – I would stop completely in an instant. But for now, I kick back a bottle of... I don't even know actually, could be gin, vodka or whiskey. Something along those lines.
I've put a lot of thought into this and I think I should become friends (even more if possible) with Andrea again because 1: It'll do me good to be hanging with such an amazing girl like her and 2: I know that if she accepts my friendship again that it'll piss off Vic.
Well now I know what I'm doing tomorrow.
ANDREA'S POV
I don't regret anything.

Notes

Hey

right so i was supposed to post this last Thursday but i really lost track of time, sorry about that so expect a new chapter in the next day or two

bye babes;)