No Idea

The next day, I was on a plane going home. Mum had a point. Once tour comes to an end, she’s going to help me with everything. But I mean, I think dad and Hannah will be more help. Dad raised me. But Mum Raised Winter. I know I will be able to do this.

The flight wasn’t too bad; I didn’t feel the need to be sick but it was very long. But when I landed, dad was waiting at the gate for me. He smiled softly to me as he saw me walking out. Once I got to him, I hugged him with all my will and cried into his chest. He rubbed my back until he pulled me out of the hug. He looked at me, his eyes soft, telling me that it was going to be okay.

We retrieved my bag before we walked out to the car, where Hannah was waiting. She pulled into the waiting lane when she saw us and we got in. Dad sat in the front and I, in the back.
It was a very quiet drive home and when we got home, the feeling I got when I walked into the house, was just terrible. I still needed to tell Dad and Hannah what really has happened.

I walked into the lounge and sat down on the couch. Hannah and Dad walked in and Hannah sat down next to me. She looked at me and smiled.

‘Do you need anything? Water?’ She asked. I shook my head and smiled.

‘No thank you. But I do need to talk to you guys.’ I said, looking between Hannah and Dad.

‘Honey, we know. Your mother called. I know you wanted to tell us but… she just wants to make sure you are okay.’ Dad said as he sat down next to me on the other side.

As I looked between the two, I could see how much they wanted a child of their own. And the fact that Colton didn’t make it. If my I have a boy, I’m naming him Colton, I know that much.

I know that it has been a while since I talked to Jaime and anyone for that matter. I excused myself and took myself plus my belongings up to my room. I opened the door and saw that they were moving some of my stuff. Posters and things on my wall were the only thing in which had been moved.

I turned my phone back on and after it started up, I had a message from Sarah.

Sarah: I hope things are good so far. Have a save flight home and if you have the chance, go see Vic, Jaime and all them and give them a hug from me. Love you Stel.

I smiled at it before finding Jaime’s number and pressing the call button. It rang until the very last ring before he answered.

‘Stel, hey. Sorry. I was in class. Is everything okay?’ He asked.

‘Oh, I’m sorry. I was just going to ask, you know how you told me you got a car, what did it look it?’ I asked.

‘Umm… it is a blue SUV. I’ll send you a picture of it later. Why is that?’ He said.

‘I was just wondering. I saw one not long ago and was curious.’ I replied.

‘Well, I have to go now. I’ll call you after school’ He said.

‘Bye Jaime.’ I said. I hung up after that and made my way out of my room.

‘Dad, I am going for a walk. I need to think about a lot of things.’ I said as I walked down the stairs.

‘Well, be careful. Call me if you need me.’ He replied.

I nodded my head and walked out the door, closing it behind me. I walked out into the chilly weather and pulled my coat closer. I walked in the direction of the school.

As I was walking along the street, I could help but think about all the things that have happened along here. Jack and Zack throwing rocks, I walked these streets with Jaime. We would walk hand in hand, laughing at jokes that I couldn’t remember.

As I was walking, I couldn’t help but rub my stomach. I mean, I know that I wasn’t the skinniest of people but it just feels weird knowing that there is something growing in there and as much as I hate what happened but I am kind of excited to be a mother.

I reached the school and realised that it was nearly time for it to finish. Meaning, I was going to find Jaime’s car and sit on the hood of it. And surprise him. I walked through the car park before I saw it sitting there. I walked up to it and made myself comfortable.

I was pulled out of my daydream when I heard the voices of Vic, Jaime, Tony and someone else. I looked through the windscreen and saw that the unknown voice was actually a boy named Kellin.

I jumped off the car and walked around it when I saw that they had the trunk open.

‘Hello boys’ I said, making them look up.

‘Stella!!’ Tony said as he threw his bag into trunk. He ran over to me and hugged me in such a rush. I hugged him back and laughed.

‘What are you doing back?’ He said as he let me go. The others apart from Jaime looking confused.

‘Umm, how about we go somewhere and I fill you in on what happened on my trip away.’ I said.

‘We can go to my house.’ Jaime suggested. We all nodded and agreed, getting into his car and leaving the school ground.

The drive back to Jaime’s was very chatty. I got to know Kellin a bit more. He was best friends with Vic but over all a friend to everyone. He has been at the school for about a year, starting last year. I think I remember seeing him in my music class.

Once we got to Jaime’s, we made our way inside, I heard a knock in the kitchen and looked to Jaime as he smiled to me. I frowned in confusion.

‘That is my grandma. She is living with us at the moment. Helping us.’ He said as he sat down on the couch. We all got comfortable before I looked around to everyone.

‘Okay, so… I didn’t come home because I was sick. Well I’m not that sick, sick but I have been having morning sickness because I um…. I am pregnant. It wasn’t planned, trust me. I don’t remember much from it… it was Nathan and he….’ I said, breaking out into tears. Jaime pulled me into his arms.

‘I’m so sorry Stel, you didn’t deserve it.’ He said. I couldn’t help but begin to cry.

I stood up and looked to them all but couldn’t stop myself from turning around and running out the door, before slowing in to a walk, moving myself away from the situation. I began to walk home.

Once I got home, I walked through the door and avoided Hannah and Dad as they asked me if everything was okay. I was still crying when I got to my room and when I lied on my bed, I cried harder into my pillow, thinking about what I am putting myself through.

Notes

Is anyone actually reading this?
Because I'm so worried no one likes it.