I Will Follow You

I packed up the merch booth along with Drew and Max, tonight thankfully nothing went wrong and I was fine. No mishaps here.

Once everything was packed away and put onto the trailer I walked back to the bus and got dressed into a black, backless lace dress that stopped just above my knees and some high heeled boots that went just above my ankles. I fixed my hair and re-applied some makeup. Lynn walked into the bathroom after she did our secret knock. When you live on a bus filled with boys, girls have to work out a way in order to sneak around and help each other without the guys catching on. "Wootwoo, you look hot!" She gave me a look over. "Are you trying to hook up tonight?" She gave me an eyebrow wiggle.

"No, definitely not." I shook my head, my cheeks began to burn a little. It made me feel a little awkward to be honest. Lynn is a great person to make you feel good about yourself, she's just so brutally honest and I do love that quality in her but she did try to push me a little. It's only been 3 days since the tour began and already she knew my whole history with Vic and she was trying to make me get close to him again. It was cute but hard.

"Okay, I get it. You're trying to impress Vic." She said to me as she stood next to me and began staring at herself in the mirror.

"No, God no. I'm just trying to feel good about myself." I told her. She grinned from ear to ear.

"Good, that's the most important thing when making yourself look good." Lynn cocked her head to the side and nodded at her reflection. "I wish Alexa was here." She pouted.

"You'll see her soon babe." I told her and hugged her tightly. I was slowly beginning to feel like Lynn could be a lifelong friend.

"I know it's just hard to be without her and feel like I'll never see her again for months." Lynn laid her head on my shoulder.

"I know but hey, least you ain't living with the person you love and know it's pretty much never gonna happen again." I reminded her.

"True but we are gonna get him back, trust me. By the end of this tour you are gonna be his girlfriend again." Lynn sounded so confident. She pulled back and winked at me.

"Girl, he has someone. I'm not gonna be a home wrecker." I rolled my eyes at her statement.

"Who said you're gonna wreck anything? She's pretty much done that herself, all we gotta do is give it one last push." She grinned at me. I couldn't help but laugh a little, she was funny and brilliant.

We exited the bathroom and met up with the guys in the lounge. "The taxis are outside waiting for us." Jaime spoke up just as we walked in. I looked at Vic whom was dressed in black skinny jeans and a red and black checked shirt that was buttoned up. He had a snapback on also.

I left the bus with Lynn in tow. Me, Lynn, Mike, Jaime and Tony got into one cab and Vic, Alex, Brian, Justin and Mike got into the other. "How drunk are you all going to get?" Mike asked us. Seemingly after breakfast things were much better between me and Mike but he didn't say too much.

"I am hopefully gonna get so drunk that I can't remember this conversation." Tony said with a small laugh. We all laughed along with him but it was kinda sad in a way. It was one of the first things he said in a while and it's that he wants to forget. I miss Tony being happy and the life of the party.

"That'd be good." I agreed, even though it was sad that Tony felt this way. It was totally normal for me.

"Let's keep this in a good light. We are gonna enjoy tonight okay." Lynn tried to keep it upbeat. Where would I be without this chick.

-

We walked into the club and the loud music blared, people were dancing drunkenly and grinding up against each other. I've never really been to Oregon but the nightlife seemed similar to San Diego nightlife, well as far as I remember it. "Well this is loud." I shouted over the music to Lynn.

"Let's get some drinks!" She pretty much screamed in my ear. She grabbed my hand and led me over to the bar.

"What can I get you?" The bartender asked me.

"Vodka orange and..." I looked at Lynn for her to order.

"Jack and Coke." She shouted to the bar guy. He nodded and got us our drinks.

"This place is loud." I told Lynn. She laughed and downed her drink.

"Two more." She told the bartender. I copied her moves and motioned for him to get me two as well. I handed him $30 and then picked up my two drinks. We walked over to the booth that we had rented out for the night. It's kinda cool being with bands because they get some cool benefits at times.

"Shots!" Mike shouted as we sat down. There was a tray of shots, I don't know what was in the shot glasses but I decided it was a good idea to down like 3. I was sat next to Vic and I didn't even realise it until I had no drinks left.

"How many have you had already?" He said to me, speaking into my ear.

"3 drinks and 3 shots, that's not a lot." I pointed out, that's when I realised that I was much more drunk than I thought.

"You seem drunk." He laughed. I looked at him and laughed also.

"Why not be drunk? We are in a club, there is alcohol and people. This is what you do." I laughed loudly. I felt like he wasn't feeling completely the same but he can't judge me.

"Well whatever." He shrugged and got up. I gave him a strange look and he just walked away. It made the pit of my stomach growl and do horrible flips. I didn't like that feeling at all.

I got up and walked in another direction, feeling completely lost and out of touch with the world, once again. Last night I wanted to end my life but tonight, I wanted to drink myself into oblivion. My feet took me towards the bathroom where I bumped into a guy. "Sorry." I said to him, loud enough for him to hear over the music.

"It's okay." He smiled at me. He had a great smile actually, brown hair and brown eyes. I guess just my type. He was wearing a black shirt and black skinny jeans. He was covered in tattoos and looked so rugged, not my type. "Where are you off to?" He asked, a sly smile creeping on his lips.

"I don't even know." I said scratching my head and smiling at him. He somehow gave me a strange vibe but it didn't stop me.

"Wanna come with me, we could do some blow and make out in the bathroom." He joked with me. I laughed along with him and nodded. Turns out, he wasn't joking.

He took me into the guys bathroom and offered me a line. I have never ever thought about doing drugs before but in my frame of mind, I didn't say no. After I snorted one line I felt sick, a burning sensation spread from the back of my nose and down the back of my throat. "Is it supposed to hurt like this?" I asked naively.

"That's cute." He grinned at me. "Yes baby, it does." He pushed me up against the cubical door and began kissing my neck. I didn't mind to be honest. He was hot and I kinda wanted to feel wanted.

-

Cocaine is weird, it makes you feel weird. Jackson, the dude whom gave me the drugs dragged me out of the bathroom and towards the dance floor. I was so high that I didn't even care or notice that my friends were watching me. It felt like the lights were butterflies floating around the room. Jackson pulled me close to him and began kissing my neck again. "You're so hot, do you wanna come back to my place?" He asked me.

"I can't." I told him. "I'm here on tour and we leave at 5am." I told him. He didn't seem too impressed with my reply but he didn't stop dancing with me.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned around to see Lynn and Vic standing there. "Hey guys." I said excitedly. "This is Jackson." I pulled apart from him and then smiled at them.

"Scarlett, are you okay?" Lynn asked me with a confused and worried look on her face.

"I'm fine guys, it's all okay." I said over enthusiastically.

"I think we should take you back to the bus." Vic told me, taking a hold on my arm.

"Hey, if she doesn't wanna go then just leave her with me." Jackson told Vic, which didn't sit well with him.

"Hey, pal she's with us; not you." Vic said and pulled me along with him. I struggled to get my arm out of his grip and pushed him away.

"Leave me alone!" I shouted at him and stormed off. Lynn followed after me and Vic just stood there, completely and utterly confused. Tonight was weird.

Notes

The start of something dark