I Will Follow You

"You won't tell anyone right?" I asked Vic. He gave me a sad look, a really sad look.

"Why would I ever tell anyone? It's a difficult thing to even discuss." He shook his head.

"Okay, I just wanted to confirm with you. Thing is though, it's really different now than two years ago." I looked away towards the sky. My head was all over the place.

"I don't want you to ever leave me." He mumbled, grabbing my hand. I looked down at our hands intertwined together. My eyes rose up to see if Vic was looking too but he wasn't. He was still looking up at the stars above us.

"I don't want you to ever leave me." I repeated but in a much more serious tone. He looked at me and raised his eyebrows.

"What do you mean?" He asked. I didn't say a word, just smiled at him and thankfully he smiled back at me.

-

The next morning I woke up with a throbbing headache and the worst amount of regret. I pulled the curtain back on my bunk and came face to face with Lynn. "Morning." She mumbled, rubbing sleep from her eyes.

"Hey." I pretty much mimicked her actions.

"What happened last night?" Lynn asked me with a concerned look on her face.

"Wait, did Vic tell you anything?" I snapped feeling kinda self conscious.

"No Drew did." Lynn raised her eyebrows at me.

"Oh." I mumbled feeling bad. I climbed out of my bunk and jumped down in front of Lynn.

"What's going on?" She wasn't gonna let this drop.

"Some girl at the merch desk was being super rude to me about my job then said she would fuck the band to get a job like mine since that's what I apparently did. She really riled me up Lynn." I rubbed my eyes, then yawned loudly.

"Ugh, sometimes people can be just so damn rude. I know it's hard to avoid but there are always gonna be fans of bands that are just downright terrible people. It's hard to work it out I guess." She shrugged. I know she's right because I seen it first hand.

"I just hope this doesn't happen again." I sighed.

"You guys better hurry up and get dressed, we are going to iHop." Jaime told us as he walked into the bunk area.

"When are we leaving?" I asked him. He gave me a totally puzzled look and then shrugged.

"Ask Vic." He slipped back out of the bunk area leaving me and Lynn totally confused.

We both shrugged and then got dressed, it was fun to try and get dressed as quickly as possible without anybody walking in and seeing us partially naked.

Once dressed we walked out into the lounge area and everyone was waiting for us. "Are you guys finally ready." Mike asked a little bitterly. Honestly why is he being so childish, it's unfair and I don't understand it.

"Yeah, we finally are." I replied with an equally biter tone. I could tell everyone felt tense from the interaction so I just stormed off the bus. Yeah it's childish but I'm so bummed out that he's being totally unreasonable.

I heard the door open and shut after me. "What was that?" I heard Tony ask. I turned to look at him, shocked that he was the one whom came after me. Tony barely said a word anymore and never to me.

"Tony." I said softly. "Mike is pissed off with me." I looked down at my feet.

"I know, he told me." Tony shifted around on his feet.

"What?" I was actually kinda shocked. "Why did he speak to you about it?" I asked, then I realised how horrible that sounded. "No I don't mean like that it's just it was a personal reason why we fell out." I said softly, feeling awful.

"He needed an opinion and I gave him one, don't feel bad." Tony said quietly. "If you think I'm gonna judge you then you're wrong. It's your life and I'm there whenever you need me." Tony looked up and then shrugged.

"You barely speak anymore Tony, what happened?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"You died." He said so quietly, I could barely even hear him.

"I'm not dead." I corrected him.

"But to the world you were dead and to me I lost my best friend." Tony came back strong. "Okay, I lost you and then Kiera. She moved away after you died and that basically left me on my own, depressed and more sad than ever. My anxiety kicked in worse than ever." He hung his head low and then sighed, taking his hat off and then running his hand through his short hair.

"I'm sorry Tony." I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his torso.

"It's not your fault, you didn't choose to die." Tony hugged me back. I missed him so much.

The bus door opened and everyone began pouring out into the parking lot. "Come on losers, I'm hungry." Alex patted our shoulders and came between us.

-

"Ooh pancakes." Jaime said as he looked over his menu.

"Can I take your order?" The waitress approached our massive table. We all gave our orders and began talking. Vic was sitting directly across from me, Lynn next to him on one side and Jaime on the other side. Mike was next to me and Tony on the other side. I looked at Lynn whom just gave me a goofy look, making me laugh a little. I noticed Vic look at me and smile, it made my cheeks burn red.

"So should we go to a club tonight?" Mike spoke up.

"Wait you guys have a show tonight?" I looked around and they all have me a look, a sad look that said my comment was cute and naive.

"It's only 3 days into tour, I guess you haven't worked out its normal to go out after shows." Mike turned his head to look at me. He didn't seem as annoyed at me as earlier.

"Oh, okay. That's cool I guess." I looked down and fiddled with the napkin on my table.

"I'm in." Lynn called in, we all looked at her and then everyone else basically agreed too.

Our food arrived and we all began eating, it was nice because we all talked and joked, even Tony joined in and everyone seemed pretty happy about it. It was nice.

Notes

Woohoo!