I need you, I love you
Million Dollar Houses
"DON'T FUCKING SAY IT! DON'T SAY IT VIC!" She yelled at me, I wanted to tell her how much I loved her, I finally found the will to say it but she wouldn't let me. It was like she wanted to kill me with a shotgun.
"I CAN'T HELP IT CHARZ. I LOVE YOU, OKAY? I FUCKING LOVE YOU! WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. GIVE ME YOUR HEART AND YOUR HAND AND WE CAN RUN!" I yelled. It was first time ever I had yelled at her and she looked shocked. Even in our past arguments I had never yelled at her or even raised my voice. I had always stayed calm. She stepped back, tears falling faster. Why was I so bad at this? I had always been shit at relationships. I had finally calmed her down from earlier, we were getting somewhere, she was opening up to me and I ruined it. I fucking ruined it like I ruin everything.
"GET OUT VICTOR....GO STAY AT TONYS OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT! I DON'T CARE!" Her saying that pained me. "JUST GET OUT....NOW!" Her saying this made me think if she would ever allow me back. There were times before when we argue and the next day we would be fine but this time it felt different, it was different. She didn't want me. It was like she killed me BANG and I was gone. All I knew is that I would never give up fighting for her,
"Fine, I'll be back tomorrow," I tried to keep as calm as possible and tried to stop myself from crying. Tears filled my eyes but never left. I reached for my phone and keys, making my way to the car. I rang Tony asking to stay the night but of course he was busy with his wife, Siren. I didn't want to disturb them anymore than I had so I rang my brother hopinh he wouldn't still be out with Jaime. He never picked up so I assumed he was still out, passed out or with Jordan.
"Jaime, I need a place to stay tonight, Charz kicked me out after a fight me had please just let me stay I don't care if you're busy I gotta stay at yours Tony said he would kill me if I came round and Mike won't pick his damn phone up. Its either you or my car, please?" I literally had just begged Jaime.
"Vic chill outof course you can stay, you don't need to ask you knoew that. I got ya back. So what did you guys fight about, common talk to me dude." He asked me talk about it and to be honest I really didn't wan to say let alone knowing what to say.
"Nar I'll just write and get it out that way. I don't wanna talk about it." I said sternly so he wouldn't ask again.
"Fair enough dude, see you in a bit." I hung up and made my way to his house I walked to his door and before I could knock he opened the door.
"I got the guitar out in the back. Call me if you need anything." I nodded, smiled and gave my thanks.
After around four hours of writing I finally came out with a song;
"So what if I was just a painter
painting houses on the rich blue coast?
Would you ever try to leave me
for somebody who deserves you most?
'Cause darling I am just a painter.
I'm painting houses for the rich old folks.
I'm gonna make a million dollars,
'cause nobody's gonna steal you, no
For diamonds and gold.
For diamonds and gold.
'Cause I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money but we just can't keep this home.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
We can run, we can run baby, run now.
We can run baby, run.
She's like a bullet through an oceam,
I still remember how you moved so slow.
You tried to kill me with a shout gun.
Bang! Now we're even.
We don't stop till someone's bleeding.
(We don't stop till someone's bleeding.)
'Cause I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money but we just can't keep this home.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
We can run, we can run baby, run now.
We can run baby, run baby, you're my hope.
Permanetly yours.
Sometimes the moon looks brighter than the sun.
As times like this run up my wrist,
she hates all the guts and blood.
Splash around with me while we move like flames on burning sheets.
And your doctor won't stop calling me her medication.
But baby no, sometimes thing don't work out the way we planned.
To live is just to fall asleep,
to die is to awaken.
Maybe we're meant to lose the ones we love,
but I'll fight for you till then.
And if they stole you from me,
on my arm there's a tattoo of your name.
I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money, but fuck money we want love.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
Finally done." I guess it was written for Charlotte, I don't know so many other emotions went into it.
"Vic? I'm sorry." It was Jaime, what the fuck? Why was he sorry? "She's in the hospital. I told Jenna what happended and she went and checked on her, she tried to kill herself, again, she lost alot of blood. I'm sorry Vic."
"I CAN'T HELP IT CHARZ. I LOVE YOU, OKAY? I FUCKING LOVE YOU! WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. GIVE ME YOUR HEART AND YOUR HAND AND WE CAN RUN!" I yelled. It was first time ever I had yelled at her and she looked shocked. Even in our past arguments I had never yelled at her or even raised my voice. I had always stayed calm. She stepped back, tears falling faster. Why was I so bad at this? I had always been shit at relationships. I had finally calmed her down from earlier, we were getting somewhere, she was opening up to me and I ruined it. I fucking ruined it like I ruin everything.
"GET OUT VICTOR....GO STAY AT TONYS OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT! I DON'T CARE!" Her saying that pained me. "JUST GET OUT....NOW!" Her saying this made me think if she would ever allow me back. There were times before when we argue and the next day we would be fine but this time it felt different, it was different. She didn't want me. It was like she killed me BANG and I was gone. All I knew is that I would never give up fighting for her,
"Fine, I'll be back tomorrow," I tried to keep as calm as possible and tried to stop myself from crying. Tears filled my eyes but never left. I reached for my phone and keys, making my way to the car. I rang Tony asking to stay the night but of course he was busy with his wife, Siren. I didn't want to disturb them anymore than I had so I rang my brother hopinh he wouldn't still be out with Jaime. He never picked up so I assumed he was still out, passed out or with Jordan.
"Jaime, I need a place to stay tonight, Charz kicked me out after a fight me had please just let me stay I don't care if you're busy I gotta stay at yours Tony said he would kill me if I came round and Mike won't pick his damn phone up. Its either you or my car, please?" I literally had just begged Jaime.
"Vic chill outof course you can stay, you don't need to ask you knoew that. I got ya back. So what did you guys fight about, common talk to me dude." He asked me talk about it and to be honest I really didn't wan to say let alone knowing what to say.
"Nar I'll just write and get it out that way. I don't wanna talk about it." I said sternly so he wouldn't ask again.
"Fair enough dude, see you in a bit." I hung up and made my way to his house I walked to his door and before I could knock he opened the door.
"I got the guitar out in the back. Call me if you need anything." I nodded, smiled and gave my thanks.
After around four hours of writing I finally came out with a song;
"So what if I was just a painter
painting houses on the rich blue coast?
Would you ever try to leave me
for somebody who deserves you most?
'Cause darling I am just a painter.
I'm painting houses for the rich old folks.
I'm gonna make a million dollars,
'cause nobody's gonna steal you, no
For diamonds and gold.
For diamonds and gold.
'Cause I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money but we just can't keep this home.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
We can run, we can run baby, run now.
We can run baby, run.
She's like a bullet through an oceam,
I still remember how you moved so slow.
You tried to kill me with a shout gun.
Bang! Now we're even.
We don't stop till someone's bleeding.
(We don't stop till someone's bleeding.)
'Cause I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money but we just can't keep this home.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
We can run, we can run baby, run now.
We can run baby, run baby, you're my hope.
Permanetly yours.
Sometimes the moon looks brighter than the sun.
As times like this run up my wrist,
she hates all the guts and blood.
Splash around with me while we move like flames on burning sheets.
And your doctor won't stop calling me her medication.
But baby no, sometimes thing don't work out the way we planned.
To live is just to fall asleep,
to die is to awaken.
Maybe we're meant to lose the ones we love,
but I'll fight for you till then.
And if they stole you from me,
on my arm there's a tattoo of your name.
I've broken bones for you, and for you only.
I make money, but fuck money we want love.
Give me your heart and your hand and we can run!
Finally done." I guess it was written for Charlotte, I don't know so many other emotions went into it.
"Vic? I'm sorry." It was Jaime, what the fuck? Why was he sorry? "She's in the hospital. I told Jenna what happended and she went and checked on her, she tried to kill herself, again, she lost alot of blood. I'm sorry Vic."
I love this :P
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