My Favorite Explosion

Work was miserable being that I was hungover but thankfully it was kind and we only had a total of three jobs, none that we had to take in ALS. Jake ended up giving me another two bags of fluids since I was so dehydrated. Something that happened to me constantly whether I had drank too much or was just sick. But now that work was over it was time for me to go home and deal with Vic. I had spoke to Austin earlier on the phone, to which I was told I was not allowed to visit him until I had spoken to Vic. I had texted Vic earlier on in the day letting him know I was still alive and wanted to speak to him regarding last night. He told me he’d be waiting for me once I got out of work.

I had never been so happy to have a forty five minute drive home to gather my thoughts of how this could possibly go. I knew I didn’t have to worry about lying about anything because I hadn’t done anything wrong. But I know Vic, and I know his jealousy. This could get messy, and pretty quickly.

I pulled into my driveway, taking note that his car was in his driveway. I pulled out my phone texting him to let him know I just got home but wanted to shower before he came over. Thankfully he didn’t push the issue of me showering and I practically ran inside to the bathroom after leaving my boots at the door.

I stepped into the shower letting the day wash off, feeling instantly refreshed after not showering this morning before work. I just stood there for about ten minutes, letting the water cascade down my body wondering how this conversation with Vic was going to go. I needed space from him last night after everything he said, he was completely out of line. Especially questioning my not telling him about my bipolar disorder.

I finished up in the shower, wrapping myself in a towel and walked to my room grabbing a pair of sweatpants, tank top and sports bra. I texted him telling him I was finished and to let himself in while I brushed my hair out. A few minutes later I heard the door open and someone start walking up the stairs, letting themselves into my room. I walked out of my bathroom a few minutes later to see Vic sitting in my computer chair as I took a seat on the edge of my bed.

“Were you with him last night?” He asked without a hello.

“I was” I said nodding. “But before you freak out, think about something Vic. Aside from my family and you and your brother and your bandmates, I don’t have any friends here anymore Vic. So before you get all high and mighty and let your jealousy show, think about who I’m going to have to hang out with, to talk to, to cry to while you’re on tour in two months” His face dropped when he realized I knew he was going on tour and he hadn’t told me.

“I was going to tell you Letty” He defended.

“I know. And I’m not mad at you for not telling me. I am however, livid at what you said to me last night. You really think I wanted to fight with you? I wanted to go out to dinner and not think about the fact that my brother was in the hospital. But instead, I stressed over the fact that Austin was in the hospital and on top of that, we were fighting. Because I hadn’t told you I was bipolar. So you chose to pick a fight with me when I was at my weakest and ready to snap my mood for the right reason. Did I overreact? Absolutely. But you took it too far Vic. You really think I wouldn’t tell you first? Do you know how hard that is to talk about? How long did it take you to tell me that you were cutting and were depressed? And don’t tell me that it’s different because I fight a constant battle in my head every god damned day. This isn’t easy to deal with but I manage. How dare you ask me if I told someone else before you. And even if I had, what difference would it make? You were being completely unfair to me about it, it’s not as easy to control as people think.” I said as I was pacing around my room, glad that my father was at the hospital with Austin. “I understand you don’t like Jake, and he told me why last night while he and I were at the bar. You have no right to be angry anymore and there’s one important reason why, and that’s because I’m home now and I’m yours and I’m not going anywhere and you need to understand that. I get it, you’re going on tour and ‘it’s not that you don’t trust me but it’s the guys you don’t trust’ but I call bullshit on that. If you trusted me you wouldn’t worry at all. You need to realize that I love you, I always have and god even if it kills me I always will Victor Vincent Fuentes. So you need to relax, calm down and stop thinking the worst of every situation. I love you, and only you and you need to realize that because I don’t think there are words to describe how much you mean to me and how much it would kill me if I lost you because of something stupid like this after waiting so long to be able to call you mine. Do you understand how much you mean to me Vic?” I said as I held his face in my hands.

“I do Scarlett. I do because I don’t think I would know what to do without you either. But I just get so paranoid thinking that something’s going to happen or someone else is going to come along and sweep you off your feet. He understands the stress of your job and there might be days where you don’t want to talk to me about work and instead you’ll talk to him and that will be the last time I see you. I thought I lost you last night when you wouldn’t answer me. I was convinced you hated me and wanted nothing more to do with me once I realized what I had done and said to you. I knew I fucked up right away. But I couldn’t take back what I had said and I hated myself for that and I’m so sorry Scarlett. I was upset you hadn’t told me and I reacted with anger which I shouldn’t have done and I’m sorry. I know I can’t take back what I said but know I’m sorry and I mean that with everything I am” He said taking my hands in his. “I’m sorry I get stupid crazy jealous but I just don’t want to lose you after finally getting you to be mine after my stupidity all those years ago. I just want to protect you and make sure nothing happens to you. You’re mine now and I’d rather not change that” He smiled kissing my knuckles.

“I love you Vic, I really do. But this jealousy shit needs to stop. Jake is my partner and more importantly he is my friend. That’s all, and you need to get that through your thick skull” I laughed.

He laughed pulling me down onto his lap kissing my nose lightly. “I will try my absolute hardest to work on my jealousy Scarlett. I promise” He said holding up his left pinky to pinky swear like when we were younger. I laughed linking my left pinky through his and kissed him.
“That’s all I ask of you” I said kissing him as he stood up grabbing onto my legs and gently placing me on the bed, walking over to lock my door after a few minutes.

He came back over to the bed where I had sat up, wondering if his plans were the same as mine. I had yet to have sex with him since we had gotten together. I had actually not slept with anyone for about six months including with my ex. He pulled away for a moment and looked into my eyes, “Are you sure you’re okay Letty?” He asked knowing what I was thinking.

I pulled him by his shirt back towards me and kissed him, “I couldn’t think of a better time Fuentes.” I smiled kissing him again as he laid me down where we spent the rest of our night.

Notes

Sooooo I know this is a super shitty chapter but I knew I needed to give you something so here it is! Sorry guys!