I Introduce The Selfish Machine

There was a loud knock on the door.
I ran over there as fast as I could, stopping in front of the door to fix my hair. I swung it open, trying to act all casual.
"Tony! Hey!" I said. Tony started laughing. "Whoa, hey, what?"
"Did you bother to change?" He asked. I looked down to see that I was wearing an oversized Army and shorts (that you couldn't even see the shirt was so large).
"At least I'm wearing shorts." I added.
"Can I come in?"
I nodded my head, moving aside so he could walk inside the studio. "Sorry it's a little messy." I had threw all my clothes in the corner by my bed and threw out all the cups.
"It's fine." He sat down on the couch. I sat down next to Tony. Wow, this felt kind of awkward. He cupped his hands together, not saying anything. I sat there staring at how he moved his hands and how much he was shaking.
"You okay?" I asked.
He looked up and smiled. "Yeah, I'm good just uhm-do you have any coffee?"
I put my face in my hands. "Coffee, oh my God, coffee. I completely forgot to make coffee."
"Hey, don't worry about it." He put his hand on my lower back.
"Whoa, Perry, what cha doing there?" I asked, surprised by how quickly he did that.
He moved his hand away. "Sorry, sorry. I suck at flirting." He complained. "I'll just show myself out."
"I didn't kick you out. Stay. I want you to stay." I laced my hands with his.
Wait, what?
"Are you sure you're okay with my staying?" He asked.
"Don't be silly, of course!"
PIPER WHAT ARE YOU DOING.
"You're so sweet. Oh, you got a lose hair." He said, moving the hair behind my ear.
"Thanks."
PIPER.
"You know, I've wanted to call you all week, I've just been way to scared to. I finally go tired of Vic and Jaime yelling at me, so I maned up. I was so afraid you were going to reject me, you're just unbelievably gorgeous, and your eyes, God Piper, your green eyes. Wow, you're beautiful."
Beautiful? What? No guy has ever said that, but then again, I've never let them say it.
Why am I letting this happen?
"Tony, you're just too sweet and too cute." I said. "Thanks for-"
Tony's big hands grasped my cheeks and pulled me to his lips. They were so much softer than mine, and they felt like a pillow hitting my lips. I was in such shock, my hands were lifted in surprise. Then I moved my hands and laced my fingers with his.
Why am I letting this happen?
Tony's left hand moved from my face, to my neck, to my hips. He pulled me closer to him on the couch.
Oh my God, why am I letting this happen?
Then, suddenly, the feeling hit me.
I was feeling something for Tony. It was that feeling that made you think of them in the morning and smile. The feeling where you want them by you all the time and you never...
Then, the fear hit me.
The fear swept over my body so quickly I had no time to react. I pulled away from Tony with force. Not because he was holding me down or anything, but because I'm just really freaking scared.
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry. I-I-I shouldn't have kissed you like that." Tony shuttered. His pupils were huge.
I turned to him. "No, no Tony it was great. Oh my God, it was great. I just, I can't feel this feeling. I can't! Every time I try to, my body starts to fear it. It's like my blood cells are trained to fight of the feeling. Tony, it's not even you, it's me and my stupid blood cells."
There was a pause. "What are you afraid of?" He asked.
Pause. "Liking somebody, because liking is innocent, but love-love is freaking real and liking leads to love and I just rather not deal with it."
Tony put his hand on my face again. "Just let me show you there's nothing to be afraid of." He whispered, his lips almost touching mine.
"I-I don't-"
"Piper, please."
I was sitting there, feeling an attraction to a guy that I didn't even want to feel. But I just couldn't help it. "Okay." I whispered.
Tony kissed me again, only with more force. It was just as soft and gentle as before. Next thing I knew, he was on top of me, touching me...without force. Just gentle.
Soft, and gentle.
Oh my God.
Yes.

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