Caraphernelia
Chapter 10 ~ Let's end it now!!
Austin could feel the tension between Jaime and Marcela. Shaking his head, as he makes his way inside his kitchen, in his mind, thinking, ‘This is not supposed to happen. Not in this way.’ Looking outside the kitchen window, straight to the barbeque grill, he saw the closeness between Marcela and, of all people, Oliver. Marcela had been hanging by Oliver like a lease, even to the discomfort of Oliver and a very annoyance Jaime.
Violet had tried to engage her in a conversation, over to where she and Jaime, with few others of their guests, but Marcela did not take the bait. She was faithfully stays by Oliver side, and converse with them from the long distance instead.
Austin scratches his non-itchy head, trying to think of something to reverse the situation. He thought that both of his closest friends are finally together, but it seems like there is some unfinished work here. He tried to crack his brain for any clues that he might find in his so messy mind of the events 14 years ago, the exact reason of why Marcela left all of them. Her sudden disappearance act and, after days later, she ends up back home in Madrid without a single goodbye to Jaime, and proper farewell from Bonnie and him, her supposed close friends.
However, how hard he might want to crack his brain, he comes up with nothing. It seems to him that Marcela had said it all out 2 years ago when they had coincidently met up during his mini tour in Madrid. ‘Did she ever explain the same thing to Jaime?’ Austin wonder, decided instantly to go out and investigate the matter to him.
Walking back to where the so-call barbeque suppose to be, his mind is just giving him instruction to look for Jaime and drag him aside for a little interrogation. But Jaime could not be seen anywhere. Refuse to make the situation into a big deal; Austin tries to play it cool, keeping his sight for Jaime.
Meanwhile, over at the barbeque grill where Oliver is still busy cooking their food and with a lady who is faithfully standing close by him, not far from where Oliver is standing. Oliver understand too well of why she is being near him but it is very childish of her to behave so. And it just gets him irritated with the whole deal.
Without turning to where Marcela is standing behind him, he said,”Go talk things over with him, Marcela. Do not leave him like this. Unfair...”
Marcela try to pretend she didn’t hear of what being said by Oliver. She refused so. Instead, she keeps on pacing in circles. Things have become more complicated and messy, just like her head. She admit that Oliver is right, the man is always right with all of these and he seems had becomes her confidante, unofficially, and she really appreciate his undoing. Marcela should just talk things over with Jaime and be done with it. She already knows of what to be decided and she will not have it another way.
Deep in her heart, she wants the person that she loves so much, heart and soul, to be happy always. Not looming in sadness that will just plaque them with her failing illness. For her, it is no use of them to know the exact truth. Nothing will change anything, unless a miracle from God. But she felt she is full of sins that she felt ashamed to pray to the high lord.
Looking at Oliver for the last time, as if asking for strength to face this ordeal, she set to make herself visible for Jaime to pull her aside. She is way too nervous to approach him with that single intention. From behind her, a faint voice could be heard, “Good luck...”
She did not turn to look at Oliver and keeps on walking to where Violet and Austin are relaxing by the pool tables, and sat on the chair near Austin. Her head turns to the direction of the driveway, trying to spot the missing Jaime.
“What the matter with the both of you, Marcela?” asked Austin softly, ignoring his girlfriend presence who just sitting on his other side. Marcela keeps her eye train for Jaime, saying, “It is much way complicated to be together again, Austin.” And she did not understand why but she feels that she should be apologising to Austin for the disappointment she might caused. “I’m sorry for things did not turn out to be as it is supposed to be,” and she bravely look Austin in the eyes, her tears are threatening to flow out her eyes.
Austin could not believe of what he had heard from Marcela, but seeing the sadness in her eyes and there is something definite that seems out of place here, and he decided not to push her for explanation, he relents. Nodding to the direction of her kitchen, he said gently, “He’s in there.”
There is always a time for the truth to be told.
Following the direction of where Jaime had pointed out to her, Marcela lazily walks up to the direction of the kitchen. She needs to be strong and face it now then later. ‘This will be over as quickly you got it out on the table, Marcela’ reminds Marcela in her heart like a mantra.
Turning to look at Oliver, on her way to the kitchen, she asked out of sudden, as she finds that the man is very engrossed with the task at hand, “Is there anything you want me to get for you from the kitchen?”
Without looking up at her, he replied, “Everything is good here, lass!”
Marcela continues her way to the kitchen. Jaime is busy eating the grapes from the fruit bowl and seeing how clumsy he tries to stuff all those small grapes inside his mouth, Marcela could not help herself but laugh out loud. Jaime looks up at the sudden intrusion. His eyes still bore bits of resentment and Marcela tries to look away from watching that eyes too long.
“You will choke with that fruit full in your mouth,” she said breezily, walking anywhere in the kitchen but not near him. She can’t stay near him. She needs to stay strong if she wants to be done with this tense situation.
Jaime realise instantly the way Marcela tries to stay away from him and the anger that he felt awhile ago, suddenly arise again within him that he had painstakingly tries to kill it. However he needs to remain calm, if not Marcela will cave in and he hates to see that happen. He is confuse with the sudden change in Marcela and obviously, for the past few days and tonight here in Austin barbeque party, her closeness with the British rocker who is currently busy grilling their food.
“What’s happening here Marcela?” asked Jaime gently. “I’m truly sorry that I did not spend lots of times with you lately, but you know right that my commitment with the band.” Hope against hope that might be the problem between them. But what Marcela had said next, truly Jaime did not see it coming and mostly did not expected such response from someone like her.
“Let’s end it now...”
Silence
A shocked
“Let’s forget it of what we ever have for each other...all this time.”
Again Jaime remains silence, but he knows that he could hear the sound of something breaking within him. It is his heart.
“I don’t want to prolong this anymore. I don’t want to lie to myself like this.”
Jaime tries to conjure something to say as a response to every words Marcela had to said, every words that comes from her mouth is brutally stabbing his heart into millions of pieces, merciless. “Why...” he croaked.
Marcela keeps her eyes train on Jaime, although only God knows how hard she tried to be strong which she usually not, especially not in this situation. “I have already told you Jaime. I don’t want to lie to you. It is not fair for- I’m not being fair to you.”
“Is this a joke to you with what we had gone through Marcela? Am I a fool to you?” Jaime voice raises an octave as he suddenly feels the anger surge from within him. But suddenly, he felt there is something amiss, slitting his eyes as he tries to figure out the ever complicated puzzle in front of him, he asked hopefully, “Is there something else Marcela that you are hiding from me?”
For a second, Marcela was taken aback with Jaime last words, but she quickly pulls herself together. Her minds quick to think of a new way out and, in her heart she promise to make up with the person that she is force to drag in her current situation. Nodding her head, she seems to not denying Jaime suspicious. But again, it is not something that Jaime is expected.
“There is Oliver now with me.”
Silence
Marcela decided to leave Jaime at this moment. She simply could not take it to have to face Jaime with him looking so sad. And for her to keeps on lying to him.
“I’m sorry.” Quickly, she turns away and walks out from the kitchen. She is a shocked to finds that Oliver is standing directly in front of her, with a look of pure annoyance, but seeing her sad face, Oliver decide to overlook the whole situation a while ago. He did not do it on purpose but he overheard their conversation, at the same time when Marcela had said out lie about their non-existent relationship.
“Let’s go. Take me home, Oliver.”
Silence
Oliver just nodded his head, without uttering a single reply.
Violet had tried to engage her in a conversation, over to where she and Jaime, with few others of their guests, but Marcela did not take the bait. She was faithfully stays by Oliver side, and converse with them from the long distance instead.
Austin scratches his non-itchy head, trying to think of something to reverse the situation. He thought that both of his closest friends are finally together, but it seems like there is some unfinished work here. He tried to crack his brain for any clues that he might find in his so messy mind of the events 14 years ago, the exact reason of why Marcela left all of them. Her sudden disappearance act and, after days later, she ends up back home in Madrid without a single goodbye to Jaime, and proper farewell from Bonnie and him, her supposed close friends.
However, how hard he might want to crack his brain, he comes up with nothing. It seems to him that Marcela had said it all out 2 years ago when they had coincidently met up during his mini tour in Madrid. ‘Did she ever explain the same thing to Jaime?’ Austin wonder, decided instantly to go out and investigate the matter to him.
Walking back to where the so-call barbeque suppose to be, his mind is just giving him instruction to look for Jaime and drag him aside for a little interrogation. But Jaime could not be seen anywhere. Refuse to make the situation into a big deal; Austin tries to play it cool, keeping his sight for Jaime.
Meanwhile, over at the barbeque grill where Oliver is still busy cooking their food and with a lady who is faithfully standing close by him, not far from where Oliver is standing. Oliver understand too well of why she is being near him but it is very childish of her to behave so. And it just gets him irritated with the whole deal.
Without turning to where Marcela is standing behind him, he said,”Go talk things over with him, Marcela. Do not leave him like this. Unfair...”
Marcela try to pretend she didn’t hear of what being said by Oliver. She refused so. Instead, she keeps on pacing in circles. Things have become more complicated and messy, just like her head. She admit that Oliver is right, the man is always right with all of these and he seems had becomes her confidante, unofficially, and she really appreciate his undoing. Marcela should just talk things over with Jaime and be done with it. She already knows of what to be decided and she will not have it another way.
Deep in her heart, she wants the person that she loves so much, heart and soul, to be happy always. Not looming in sadness that will just plaque them with her failing illness. For her, it is no use of them to know the exact truth. Nothing will change anything, unless a miracle from God. But she felt she is full of sins that she felt ashamed to pray to the high lord.
Looking at Oliver for the last time, as if asking for strength to face this ordeal, she set to make herself visible for Jaime to pull her aside. She is way too nervous to approach him with that single intention. From behind her, a faint voice could be heard, “Good luck...”
She did not turn to look at Oliver and keeps on walking to where Violet and Austin are relaxing by the pool tables, and sat on the chair near Austin. Her head turns to the direction of the driveway, trying to spot the missing Jaime.
“What the matter with the both of you, Marcela?” asked Austin softly, ignoring his girlfriend presence who just sitting on his other side. Marcela keeps her eye train for Jaime, saying, “It is much way complicated to be together again, Austin.” And she did not understand why but she feels that she should be apologising to Austin for the disappointment she might caused. “I’m sorry for things did not turn out to be as it is supposed to be,” and she bravely look Austin in the eyes, her tears are threatening to flow out her eyes.
Austin could not believe of what he had heard from Marcela, but seeing the sadness in her eyes and there is something definite that seems out of place here, and he decided not to push her for explanation, he relents. Nodding to the direction of her kitchen, he said gently, “He’s in there.”
There is always a time for the truth to be told.
Following the direction of where Jaime had pointed out to her, Marcela lazily walks up to the direction of the kitchen. She needs to be strong and face it now then later. ‘This will be over as quickly you got it out on the table, Marcela’ reminds Marcela in her heart like a mantra.
Turning to look at Oliver, on her way to the kitchen, she asked out of sudden, as she finds that the man is very engrossed with the task at hand, “Is there anything you want me to get for you from the kitchen?”
Without looking up at her, he replied, “Everything is good here, lass!”
Marcela continues her way to the kitchen. Jaime is busy eating the grapes from the fruit bowl and seeing how clumsy he tries to stuff all those small grapes inside his mouth, Marcela could not help herself but laugh out loud. Jaime looks up at the sudden intrusion. His eyes still bore bits of resentment and Marcela tries to look away from watching that eyes too long.
“You will choke with that fruit full in your mouth,” she said breezily, walking anywhere in the kitchen but not near him. She can’t stay near him. She needs to stay strong if she wants to be done with this tense situation.
Jaime realise instantly the way Marcela tries to stay away from him and the anger that he felt awhile ago, suddenly arise again within him that he had painstakingly tries to kill it. However he needs to remain calm, if not Marcela will cave in and he hates to see that happen. He is confuse with the sudden change in Marcela and obviously, for the past few days and tonight here in Austin barbeque party, her closeness with the British rocker who is currently busy grilling their food.
“What’s happening here Marcela?” asked Jaime gently. “I’m truly sorry that I did not spend lots of times with you lately, but you know right that my commitment with the band.” Hope against hope that might be the problem between them. But what Marcela had said next, truly Jaime did not see it coming and mostly did not expected such response from someone like her.
“Let’s end it now...”
Silence
A shocked
“Let’s forget it of what we ever have for each other...all this time.”
Again Jaime remains silence, but he knows that he could hear the sound of something breaking within him. It is his heart.
“I don’t want to prolong this anymore. I don’t want to lie to myself like this.”
Jaime tries to conjure something to say as a response to every words Marcela had to said, every words that comes from her mouth is brutally stabbing his heart into millions of pieces, merciless. “Why...” he croaked.
Marcela keeps her eyes train on Jaime, although only God knows how hard she tried to be strong which she usually not, especially not in this situation. “I have already told you Jaime. I don’t want to lie to you. It is not fair for- I’m not being fair to you.”
“Is this a joke to you with what we had gone through Marcela? Am I a fool to you?” Jaime voice raises an octave as he suddenly feels the anger surge from within him. But suddenly, he felt there is something amiss, slitting his eyes as he tries to figure out the ever complicated puzzle in front of him, he asked hopefully, “Is there something else Marcela that you are hiding from me?”
For a second, Marcela was taken aback with Jaime last words, but she quickly pulls herself together. Her minds quick to think of a new way out and, in her heart she promise to make up with the person that she is force to drag in her current situation. Nodding her head, she seems to not denying Jaime suspicious. But again, it is not something that Jaime is expected.
“There is Oliver now with me.”
Silence
Marcela decided to leave Jaime at this moment. She simply could not take it to have to face Jaime with him looking so sad. And for her to keeps on lying to him.
“I’m sorry.” Quickly, she turns away and walks out from the kitchen. She is a shocked to finds that Oliver is standing directly in front of her, with a look of pure annoyance, but seeing her sad face, Oliver decide to overlook the whole situation a while ago. He did not do it on purpose but he overheard their conversation, at the same time when Marcela had said out lie about their non-existent relationship.
“Let’s go. Take me home, Oliver.”
Silence
Oliver just nodded his head, without uttering a single reply.
Notes
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5/16/13