To Die Is To Awaken

I chewed on my nail as I stepped silently across the hall. I saw a strip of light shining from underneath Jaime's door. I knocked the door quietly and after a moment it opened. Jaime was standing in front of me wearing nothing but a pair of boxers. I averted my eyes and didn't know what to make of him or what he was wearing.
"One sec, Han." he said. When I looked back he was wearing some bottoms. "Come on in." he urged. I followed him inside and sat on his bed. "Is something wrong?" he asked.
"Apart from there being all these people that I apparently love and care for but I do not remember?" I asked.
"You sound more like Han now." Jaime laughed. "Apart from that?" he urged.
"I just... I don't know. I'm so confused."
"About what?" Jaime asked gently.
"About all this. How could I just forget?"
"Okay, I probably shouldn't tell you this," he rubbed his jaw uneasily. "But someone has to."
"Please." I said.
"We used to live some place different. My dad met your mom and they started dating so we had to hang out a lot. I found out what you could see but I didn't believe you. Your parents found out but they didn't believe you either. They sent you to a hospital where they gave you pills. They didn't work. So one night I followed you, I saw some stuff. It made me believe you. You following so far?" Jaime explained.
"Yes." I nodded.
"This ghost was basically stalking you. To get away and to run away from what happened we moved here,"
"What did happen?" I asked.
"Your friend got lured to a warehouse. They showed her things and it drove her mad. I watched you get taken over. You were so weak after. It wasn't nice."
"Oh, I am sorry." I muttered.
"Not your fault," Jaime told me. "When we moved you started seeing this ghost again. The short version is that you found Vic and you found the rest of them. But the attack started. You nearly died. Vic pulled you through it.
"Not long ago you nearly died again. Something took over Carrie. She put the symbol on your skin. She's the reason you don't remember."
"Do you not like her?" I asked.
"I don't have a choice. Tony is my friend and Tony is her person."
"She is like me?" I asked.
"Yeah, that's why it's difficult. You tried so hard to help her. You helped a lot of The Haunted. We went to England just so you could figure out how."
"Did everything go to plan there?"
"I suppose," Jaime shrugged. "We found out what happened after your attack."
"Tell me please." I begged.
"You left your baby and ran to the tomb. Your brother followed you. Then you were writhing and being cut and hurt on a stone slab. They were showing you things to torture you. Then finally when they released you you killed yourself. Your parents raised the baby. Robin didn't come back until it was too late. Your brother made a garden for you actually."
"What happened to him?" I asked desperately.
"He killed himself, sorry Han."
"It fine." I mumbled. I felt my eyes fill up and I wiped them urgently. "Vic was there through everything?" I asked.
"Yeah, he even watched you obsessed by Robin. He's never left you." Jaime explained.
"It must be so hard for him."
"It is." Jaime agreed.
"What can I do?" I asked.
"You have school not tomorrow but the day after. As soon as it's finished we're going to Jess's where Lily is going to try and help you."
"I did my schooling." I said.
"Not now, and you're nearly finished. It'll be over soon."
"Will you be there?" I asked.
"Yeah, Vic or Jess or I will be in all your classes." he promised.
"Thank you Jaime." I breathed.
"You don't need to thank me. You might have forgotten but I'm your brother. That isn't changing any time soon."
"I know." I smiled. "I think I need to go to Vic. Would me being with him help him?"
"Yeah," he agreed. "But I'm guessing you still feel it. You still want to hug and kiss him all the time."
"I do." I nodded.
"Then just do it. It'll help him more than anything else."
"But it is not proper." I sighed.
"Things have changed so much. It is proper. Anyway, I've watched you send a demon to hell. You shouldn't care, Han."
"Can I go?" I asked.
"Why are you asking me?" Jaime laughed.
I smiled and went back to my room. I got a jacket and some shoes. Then I went back to Jaime. I saw him drifting off to sleep when I gently shook him. "I don't know where his house is." I said awkwardly.
"Fine." Jaime sighed. He put a shirt on and took me out of the house.
We got inside the car and Jaime started to drive. I watched him. I wanted to remember at least this. But I just couldn't. He drove fast on the empty roads. Until he eventually pulled up outside a house. He pointed it out to me and I nodded in thanks.
"I'll pick you tomorrow morning." Jaime said.
"Thank you." I replied.
I got out of the car and walked slowly over to the house. I stood outside for a while until I eventually gathered up the courage to knock the door. When I got no reply I knocked again. After a few minutes the door opened. I saw a blonde, sleepy woman looking at me.
"I'm sorry." I told her.
"Hannah, is everything okay?" she asked, sounding concerned.
"Is Vic here? I would really like to see him." I said.
"He's sleeping, sweetheart. But you're welcome to go to him." she said.
"Thank you." I told her.
I walked inside and saw Mike headed for the stairs. He looked at me rubbing his eyes. "Do you know what fucking time it is?" he grumbled.
"Michael, language!" his mother scolded.
"I just really need to see Vic." I said.
"Go on." Vic's mother urged. "You know where everything is." she said making Mike laugh.
I walked up the stairs. Vic's mother disappeared into a room and Mike urged me along. He pointed out a room to me before he went into a different room. I gently opened Vic's bedroom door. He was asleep in bed. I gently stepped across to his bed and bit my lip. Something was urging me to him. I couldn't fight it any longer.
I slipped off my shoes and jacket. Then I pulled back Vic's covers and crawled into bed next to him. I took his hand and wrapped his arm around my body. I nestled my head into his chest and took in a deep breath. Vic moved and I looked up. His eyes opened and he frowned.
"Hannah?" he asked and I nodded. "What are you doing?" he asked.
"I realised something." I whispered.
"What's that?"
"That even though I do not remember I still think I love you. I know I was so in love with you before. Nothing has changed. Something is making me want to hug you and kiss you."
"You want to kiss me?" Vic muttered and I nodded.
"But I'm scared."
"Be brave." Vic urged.
I smiled and looked at him. In his eyes were wide looking at me. And I could see the love in his eyes. Vic lifted my chin up gently with his finger and I leaned in a little. Vic met me and our lips touched. I kissed him and he kissed back. Vic's fingers were in my hair. I just felt better.
We pulled away and Vic smiled at me. "Why?" he asked.
"I love you, I just don't know what made me fall in love with you." I mumbled.
"That's okay, Han. We'll find out." he promised and kissed me again.

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