Through the Lens

"Hey there... where are we? Switzerland? Oh yeah. Man, I must be wasted." Vic laughed. He stood out on stage with his guitar around his neck and mic in hand. The fans in the audience screamed out to him.

I knew he was probably a little drunk. As we arrived to the venue earlier, Kellin insisted on taking pre-show shots. I only took 2 because my stomach still didn't feel 100% from the night before, and I still had to be able to focus my camera. I stood at my spot in between the stage and the audience with my camera in hand.

"We've got one more song for you guys tonight... a little special one we like to call 'King for a Day'." Vic said as he placed the mic back into the stand.

The crowd exploded with a cheer. The song started and guess who ran out on stage? Kellin.

The crowd went even more crazy as him and Vic sang together. I continued to snap photos of their performance together, which everyone seemed to love.

I focused my camera on the two for a moment to catch a few photos of them singing and screaming to each other, like how Kellin and I were last night at the club. I then shifted my attention to Mike who was really into his drumming tonight. He seemed more... collected? I guess the whole thing with his ex really had been stressing him out. I smiled and snapped a picture just for Trista to send her later.

I looked to see Jaime and Tony playing side by side, bouncing up and down, trying I get the crowd even more excited. I could see Jaime screaming out the lyrics. I smiled. Couldn't resist a picture of the two of them. Click.

The song ended and the show was over. The red curtain closed. I ran back stage to start sorting through the photos I had taken.

"Raxxy!" I heard my name being called from behind me. I turned to see Kellin walking towards me, swaying as bit with a bottle in his hand of... whiskey? Typical.

He put his arm over my shoulder as he took a swig from the bottle and then offered it to me. I smiled and took a swig as well, tasting the strong but satisfying alcohol in my mouth. I handed the bottle back to him after I was done.

"Where are the guys?" I asked.

"Said they had some fans that wanted to see them... more alcohol for us though." Kellin cheered as he took another swig from the whiskey bottle.

I chuckled. "The real pirates!"

"Yesss!" He slurred slightly. He stepped back and fell back onto the couch behind us taking me with him, bottle still in hand.

It was weird being this physically close to Kellin. Sure, he was a good friend now and he was super drunk, but I don't think I've ever seen him this clingy. He handed the bottle back over to me and I took it with a slight hesitation. I brought the bottle to my lips and took a drink. I felt the warmth from the alcohol building up in my stomach and I was slightly tipsy. I put the bottle down onto the table in front of us that had all sorts of other drinks on it.

Kellin's arm was still around my shoulder and I felt his hand creep onto my upper arm and then his fingers tangled and pulled at my hair... his lips were against mine for a desperate and drunken kiss.

I breathed in sharply and looked shocked. I sat there for a moment not knowing exactly what had happened with his lips still on mine. I could taste the alcohol in his mouth and on his lips.

"Raxella...?" A voice whispered from behind us.

I pushed Kellin off of me instantly and looked to see Tony standing there like he had just seen a ghost.

"Tony..." That was all I managed to get out before he turned to leave without saying another word.

Kellin sat there next to me with his own eyes wide with shock, realizing what he had done. "Shit... fuck, Rax... I'm so sorry..."

My eyes were still fixated on the doorway that Tony stormed through. I got up from the couch and ran through the door after him. I followed his shadow down the hall until finally I caught up with him. I grabbed onto his sweater sleeve to stop him.

"Tony, please. I can ex-" I breathed out trying to tell him what had happened.

He ripped his arm away from mine violently and turned to me, stopping us both in or tracks. I had never seen him so full of anger.

"No, Rax. There's nothing more I have to say to you. We're done. You're the last person I would have expected to betray me." Tony snapped at me. He turned and continued to stomp off. He swung open the door to the outside and it slammed shut behind him.

I stood there for a moment but then sank to my knees with tears in my eyes. I laid my face into my hands as I sat crying and broken. We were done. I fucked up. I screwed up so badly. Tony hated me. He fucking hated me.

The sound of someone running up behind me came closer until it stopped. "Raxella? What happened?" I didn't even have to look up to know it was Jaime.

A few steps closer and I felt a hand on my back as I sat there and cried in the middle of the floor. Jaime's arms wrapped around me from behind and he rested his head on my back.

I didn't want to answer. I just shook my head and sobbed. Once again, my world was sad and dark. I felt alone even though Jaime was here with me. I felt like my heart was being ripped out and stomped on, over and over again. My one source of light was gone.

You're the last person I would have expected to betray me...

Notes

Well, shit. What now?