Sometimes I Sit and Wonder, Sometimes I Feel like Letting Go.

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I'm supposed to pick up Tony now. All day today, I've thought that I hurt Tony, and that he hates me. God, I'm suck a fuck up, I just hope this all goes over well.

So right now I'm in Vic's car going to get Tony. I texted him before I left, so he knew to be waiting. Finally, I get to Tony's, I was shaking the whole way. I honk the horn once, and Tony comes out the door pretty quickly, and looking flawless.

He opens the door, and gets in flashing his perfect smile. How did I ever get a such a perfect person, that I can call mine? I don't know.

"Hi." Tony said breaking me from my thoughts, and I also noticed I was staring. I couldn't help but let a blush creep its way onto my face, quickly I turned away.

"Hi, baby." I said, leaning for a quick kiss. He turned his face, and made me kiss his cheek. I give him a pouty look.

"That's for you staring at me. Can I ask, why?" Tony said smirking, and I blushed a little more. What's with all the blushing?

"'Cause, you're perfect." At this Tony blushed, I leaned in to give him another kiss. I got this one.

"Well lets go." I said after pulling away. Tony nodded, and I pulled out of the drive way.

Tony grabbed my hand, and interlocked out fingers. I have to admit, this calmed my nerves quite a bit. I wasn't shaking as bad, and I had calmed down some. I told Vic about my plan, and everything. He said that he would stand up for Tony, if that was needed.

We finally got to my house, and the nerves acted up again. Oh joy. I leaned over, and grabbed Tony's other hand. Then looked right into his eyes.

"No matter what happens in there, just know that I will never leave you. I love you way to much, to let anything happen. Alright? I love you." I said, looking Tony in the eyes. He looked nervous.

"Alright, I love you too. Now lets go." Tony said, and I pulled him into a kiss. After we pulled away, we got out and went inside. Mama, and Papa, said 'hi' to Tony, but I just pulled him upstairs.

Vic was waiting in my room, for whatever reason. He engulfed Tony into one of those weird bro-hug things. Tony hugged back awkwardly. I was just standing there, watching my boyfriend get hugged. It's not like I care, Vic isn't gay, and he has Abby. So we're good, we're fine.

"Hey, get off my man." I told Vic, with false sternness. It didn't last very long, because I laughed a little.

"It's not fair that you get to keep him all to yourself." Vic whined, and Tony was blushing something fierce. It was cute though.

"Seriously, you're embarrassing him." I whined to Vic, whom had let Tony go. He was now standing by me, and I put an arm around his waist. I leaned over and kissed his dermal, he smiled and flushed a pink color. I just hugged him closer to my body, and grinned.

"You guys are nasty, I'm out. I holler when dinners ready. Also Tony, I'm here for you okay?" Vic, said, and Tony nodded.

The time was drawing nearer, and I was so nervous. This had to be done, I can't hide from my parents forever. Even though I would love to, I can't. Either way, I will still love Tony with all my fuckin' heart. Nothing, even if it's something like my parents disapproving is going to tear me from him. Nothing.

I've never cared so much for another person in my life.(except Vic, because he's my brother) I would take a bullet for Tony, without a second thought. It would kill me to see something happen to him, I don't think I could live if something did.

We was laying in be cuddling, because you can't get enough cuddles. Tony has his head on my chest, and on of my arms is around his shoulders, the other playing with his hair. I could never get tired of this.

"Mikey, are you okay? You looked kinda spacy." Tony said, breaking me from my thoughts. He was looking up at me, with big adorable doe eyes.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I was just thinking baby." I said, leaning up to kiss Tony on the nose. He smiled, he smiles at the littlest things. Like when I kiss him on the nose, or holds his hand. It's cute though. It's not like I'm mad at him, only because he smiles. That would be stupid. And when he smiles, it makes me smile, it makes me happy that I make him happy.

"Oh okay." Tone said, and then there was knocking on the door.

"Dinner's ready come on!" Vic yelled the through the door. It's now, or never.

Tony got off of me, and then I got up. I was shaking slightly again. Tony walked over to me and pulled my face up, so I would look at him. I must've looked really worried because he pulled me into a hug.

"It's going to be okay. It doesn't matter what they say. We love each other to much to let them get to us. Right?" Tone, said once we pulled away.

"Right."

"Well lets go, and get this over with." Tony said, I just nodded, and went to go downstairs. He was following close behind.

We got to the table, and I sat beside Tony, with Vic on the other side of Tony. We tamales, only bean. I told my mom the other day that Tony was vegetarian, and she remembered.

So far everything has went good. The normal small talk, things like that. But the time has come, that need to do this. I shot Tony a look, and he nodded. It's now or never Mike, fucking grow a pair and do it.

"Mama, Papa, I have something to tell you." I said, looking between Mama, and Papa. They both looked indifferent, and nodded for me to continue.

"Well, I thought you should know, that Tony and I are dating. We have been for about a month and a half." I said, and looked between Mama, and Papa again. Mama, hadn't changed, Papa, looked kind of proud? And he was the first to speak up.

"I'm happy for you guys. As long as you all love each other, then I'm happy. Love is love." Papa said, and smiled at us, at least he's not mad. We still don't know about Mama.

"Thank you Papa." I said.

"I will not have a son of mine who is gay. What the hell is wrong with you?" Mama half yelled, and raised from the table. I knew this was going to go south somewhere.

"Vivian, it doesn't matter. As long as he is happy with Tony, then it doesn't matter what sex the person is." Papa yelled back. Tony was sitting really quiet, with his head down playing with his thumbs. I fucking knew this was bad idea, and I fucking went and done it anyways.

"Yes, it does matter! You're supposed to be with the opposite sex. They're can't get married or have kids!" Again Mama.

"SHUT UP! All of you! It's been forever since I've seen Mike this happy. And I'll be dammed if you ruin it for him! Just because you want a 'perfect' son. I happen to know that Mike loves Tony with all his heart, and Tony loves Mikes with all his. Tony is such a nice person, and Mike needs him, so much. I don't give a shit what you think, but I'm supporting them." Vic yelled, then he was toned down by the end. Tony was still looking down, but I saw his body jerk every little bit. My baby was crying, I felt so bad. I went over and hugged him to my chest. Why did I have to do this?

"Don't you dare disrespect me like that young man. I don't care how much they love each other, I will not have a gay in my house." Mama yelled, this was just a yelling match now.

"Vivian! Stop! It doesn't matter! And who says they won't get married and have kids. Mike is still our son, and we're going to support him. With any of the choices he makes. It's his choice who he dates. So drop it, and learn to deal with it." Papa said calmly. but now I was going to speak.

"Whatever Mama! I don't care what you think. I love Tony so damn much, he's my world. I agree with Vic, Tony has made me the happiest I've ever been, I not going to let him go, only because you think I should like girls. Well honey I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but I prefer dick." I yelled and toned it down at the end. Mama's mouth was hanging open, and her eyes were saucers. I was still clinging on to Tony, he was still crying.

"Michael! You cannot love a boy, that's impossible." Mama said calmly. I really wanted to slap her. I'm not going to, I would never, but I want to.

"It's not impossible. It doesn't matter that Tony is a boy. I love Tony, for his sweet, loving, and caring personality. I love Tony, because he makes me happy, because he cares for me. I love Tony, for being Tony. Nothing can change that." I said, and now I was crying. I heard Mama scoff.

"Mike's right, all that really matters is the persons personality. How the person makes you fell, and how much you love them. So why are you trying to bring them down?" Vic asked. I was crying even harder, holding onto Tony like its the last time I'll ever get to hold him.

"I don't know." Mama said quietly.

"Then why the hell are you acting like this Vivian?" Papa asked with fury.

"I don't know. I'm sorry. Tony's a good kid, and if he makes Mike happy, then I guess its fine."

Tony had stopped crying, but I hadn't. Tony was holding me now, I hadn't even noticed we had moved positions. He was whispering 'shh it's okay' in my hair. I had calmed down, after about 5 minutes. All I could think was how I made Tony feel. He probably hates me now, and I wouldn't blame him.

"Tony, can you two go upstairs? Vivian, and I have some things to discuss." Papa said quietly. I felt Tony nod against my head.

"Come one Mikey, lets go upstairs." Tony whispered to me. I nodded and got up.

When we got upstairs to my room, I closed and locked the door. Then went and lied down, I felt the bed dip, then a warm pairs of arms around me. I had stopped crying, but I was still sniffling a little.

"I'm so sorry Tony. If you hate me for this I understand." I said between sniffles.

"Mikey, I would never hate you. I love you so much, now get some sleep." Tony said , and kissed my forehead.

"I love you too Tone." I said, and before I knew it I was out.

Notes

I wrote this today actually, and it took me a hell long time. I'm sorry for all the dialogue, I'm tryna cut back on that. Anyways I hope you enjoy, Please comment if you liked it. I try and get back to all of you who comment, I like to let you know that I just don't read them and let them go. I read them, and comment back, because I thinks it's nice. I love it when you guys comment, it makes my day. I hope y'all have wonderful day/night!!! <3