Sometimes I Sit and Wonder, Sometimes I Feel like Letting Go.

Vic's P.O.V.

I may or may not be evesdropping on our parents. But it really pissed me off how Mama was all mad, then said 'I guess its fine.' No. It's not fucking 'fine', you want to know why it's not fucking 'fine?' She was having a bitch fit about Mike being gay, and then said Tony was a good kid, and then it was 'fine.' She made, poor Tony, and Mike cry, Mike hardly ever cries. Mike really loves Tony, if you can't see that how stupid are you?

I was hiding behind the wall that blocks the stairs from the kitchen. I heard everything Mama, and Papa said, some of it was starting to piss me off more. Mama was still mad, and Papa was sticking up for Mike, and Tony. I just don't get why Mama is being such a bitch over this, Mike is still her son, and she's going to love him. So why can't she just shut up, and be happy that Mike is happy? What they was saying next made me want to punch a goddamn wall.

"I will not have him living here, and his little boyfriend can die for all I care." Mama said. I was about to go out and say my mind.

"Do not say that about Mike, or Tony. That's just a down right bitchy thing for you Vivian. Mike is still our son, and he loves Tony, so don't you dare say that again." Papa said, and it made me slightly, only slightly happy that he was sticking up for them.

"Whatever. I can't believe they're up there probably in the same bed. It sickens me, for Mike to show so much affection for that boy. What can he possibly see in him? Nothing, at all. I bet it was Tony who..." Mama said, but I cut her off, by stomping in the room.

"Stop it, just fucking stop it! I can't stand here, and let you talk about Mike, and Tony like they're less than human. What you said about Tony earlier was just damn rude, and hateful. What if Mike heard that? Or even Tony! Tony, has had enough abuse, and you're talking about him like that. I can't believe you! So what Mike's gay? That doesn't mean you can talk about him like that! The way you're acting is just fucking stupid! Stop fucking talking about them like dogs. I thought you loved him, but I guess not!" I screamed, probably waking Mike and Tony up. But I couldn't hold it in anymore, I'm sick of her acting this way. Fucking sick.

"Don't put your nose in this!" Mama yelled.

"No, Vivian. Vic has a point, he was right what you said about Tony was just wrong. You have never, been a homophobe before. So why now? Why now, when Mike needs our support? I don't give a damn about what you think Vivian, I'm supporting them. Mike still our son, and I still love him. So suck it up, and support them." Papa said.

"Do you not see the problem, it's two boys together. That's not right! And this reason I'm acting this way is because, It's never been us, and I didn't care about the other gays. But I care for our children. and I don't want them growing up tainted." Mama stated calmly. Like nothing was wrong.

"Tainted? Are you fucking serious? Just let it go, and support him. He needs it now, and more then ever. I want to tell you something Mama. Mike, loves Tony with everything he has, everything. Mike's already beat up a few kids, because they bullied Tony. Mike would a take a bullet for Tony, without a second thought. If that doesn't show love, then I don't know what does. Mike, cares more about Tony, then himself. Tony is the same way with Mike. People say they love each other all the time, but do they really mean it? No. But it's not very often that you see someone say they love each other and truly mean it. I know that Mike, and Tony truly mean it, when they say it. They mean it with every fiber in their body. So why are you doing this? I want you to tell me." I said calmly. Mama looked sad? Maybe?

"To be truly honest, I was just scared. I wanted a perfect family, but now I see that's not how it is. From what you've said about it Mike must really care for Tony. Is this true?" I nodded, "Well then, if Mike is happy, then I'm happy. It will take some time to adjust, but I'll live, and support them. Also, I shouldn't have said that about Tony, it was really wrong." Mama said, and sounded true.

"Are you serious?" Papa asked, and Mama nodded. I felt a grin sweeping across my face.

I told Mama, and Papa I was going to bed, and they nodded. I just hope Mama keeps to what she says. I was happy that I got her to change her mind. I just hope she keeps her word.

When I went to my room I see the time was 10:27. How was talking and yelling? I stripped, left only my boxers on. I crawled under the covers, and was out.

Mike's P.O.V.

I was holding a crying Tony, and I was very pissed. My mom had yelled that Tony could die for all she cares. That hurt Tone, it hurt him a lot; I can't fucking believe she could say something so mean. I am going to talk to her about that tomorrow. I can't stand to see my baby cry, he hasn't hurt anybody, and gets treated like shit.

He was sobbing violently into my chest, while I was rubbing little circles in his back. I leaned down and kissed his head, this helps calm him down.

Soon he was calm, and looked up at me with those eyes I've grown to love. They held things that no one knew, not even me. I was hoping to find them all out someday, so those eyes could be a book. But only Tony, and I know the stories. I found myself getting lost in them.

"Mikey, do you think what you mom said was true? Would people care?" Tony asked, with a few tears still brimming his eyes.

"No, baby. It's not true. Abby would, Vic would, your Mom would, many other people would, and I would. I would care so much, if something happened to you I wouldn't be able to live. You're my everything baby." . I said, and kissed his forehead.

"No they wouldn't." He said on the brink of the crying again.

"Look at me." I said and pulled his face up, "Yes they would. You don't realize how many people care till its all over. I would probably kill myself if something ever happened to you. I would blame myself. You don't understand how much you mean to me. There's the Sun, the Moon, and most of all you." I finished.

"I'm sorry I thought that, I know you care about me. I care about you so much too Mike."

"I love you so much baby." I said kissing his nose this time.

"I love you so much too." He said, and I pulled him in for a kiss. This wasn't a rough, lustful kiss. This was a slow, loving, and passionate kiss.

I let my hands travel up to his hair, and I ran my fingers through it. Tony's hair is so soft, and just overall perfect. He is overall perfect.

Everyone says that nobody is perfect, but I swear Tony is perfect. He may not see it, but he is absolutely beautiful, inside and out. We soon pulled away, both panting. I gave Tone another quick peck.

"Let's get some sleep baby. Alright?" I asked, and he nodded. He laid down with his back facing me, I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him close to me. I buried my head in his hair, taking in his smell. He smells like mint, and shampoo.

"Goodnight, I love you baby." I said, kissing the back of his head.

"Love you too, goodnight." Tony said, and I felt myself slowly fall asleep, with my baby in my arms.

Notes

Hey, I'm sorry for not updating yesterday. And I'm going to be honest the reason I didn't do it was, because I procrastinated, and just didn't do it. Sorry. Can you guys please vote? Please? I hope you all like it! I hope y'all have a wonderful day/night!! <3 And HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLI!! <3