It feels so right, I just know it's wrong.

Kellin's P.O.V.


"Kind of...I don't know. I just find guys attractive...I don't think I'm um...gay though...I can't be. I've just been feeling a little weird around this guy in my second period...I don't know, I'm dumb." I shrugged. I can't believe I'm telling him this. He's just the only one I've got for this type of thing..

"It's okay to be gay, Kellin. I'm gay, there's nothing wrong with that. You're not dumb. If you want to be sure, just try something. Anything. Make sure you do it with someone you know won't mind. It could help clarify things." Victor answered. I nodded and awkwardly stood there. Victor was staring at me. I felt a little intimidated until I realized he was looking at me in an admiring way. Fuck, this teacher is one sexy man.

"Victor?" I asked.

"Yea?"

"I kind of want to do it with someone experienced..." I spoke, walking closer. I'm attacted to Victor, he's gay, and he's single. There's no harm in trying something right? He said so himself. "So I can feel more comfortable..." I was right in front of him now. I felt butterflies attack my stomach. Am I doing this right now? Oh my god.

"Then you should. Whatever makes you comfortable." Victor replied, not expecting what I was suggesting. I took a deep breath and put my hand on the back of Victor's neck. Victor looked confused. I closed my eyes and leaned in slowly. This could go great or this could go terrible. Next thing I know, my lips are on his.

For a second I instantly regretted it, but then I felt him kissing back. It wasn't just a peck anymore; it was a real kiss. It's so perfect. It feels so good. I could tell Victor was into it too, his arms were around my waist and I could feel him pulling my body closer to his. I moved my hands up to his head and played with his hair in my hands. I heard a groan escape his lips. God, he's so hot. But sadly for me, he pulled away all too soon.

"You have to go." Victor seethed. Fuck! He's mad at me! What did I do? He's my teacher! I'm such an idiot!

"I-I'm sorry..." I mumbled, my lungs felt like they were running out of air.

"You need to go..." Victor repeated. I nodded and let out a breath before walking out of the room.

Nice going, Kellin.

I was walking as fast as I could out of that school. I'm such an idiot! What the fuck is wrong with me?! Fuck! It's gonna be all awkward in class now. I have two problems now! 1) I'm totally sure I'm gay. and 2) I'm attracted to my teacher.

This shit sucks. Should I tell anyone?...maybe Jenna? She's my best friend...no, she'd laugh. Ugh. I don't even know what to do. I just know I need to talk to Victor tomorrow.



*THE NEXT DAY*


It's time for first period and I really don't want to go in. What if he's still mad at me and he gives me a harder time in class? Oh fuck it.

I walked in, being the last one again. I put on my star smile and made sure to make my presence known.

"Kellin's here!" I cheered. The boys all called out for me wanting me to sit with them, the girls looked over trying to flirt once again. This gets old sometimes. But it doesn't matter, a boy's gotta do what a boy's gotta do to be popular.

I walked over to Mandy, she loves me. I took her hand and kissed it. She giggled and the rest of the girls rushed with jealousy. I only laughed, taking a seat in the front again. Then I looked at Vic. He wasn't looking at me.

"Alright, settle down!" Victor yelled. The class went quiet and he began to talk. Who even knows what it was about. I wasn't here to learn.

"Kellin. Do you know what the answer is?" Victor asked. I was completely gone, losing myself in the thought of the kiss from yesterday. Shit. Why can't I get it off my mind?

"Kellin."

"Hmm?" I asked, coming back.

"What's the answer?" Victor asked. He still wouldn't completely look at me, he just looked at the ground.

"I don't know. Why don't you tell me? You're the math teacher." I spoke. I got a few laughs from the class. Victor shook his head disapprovingly and sighed. He didn't try saying anything back. Boy, he must be really mad a me.

"What's the matter? Not gonna try to get me back?" I asked, with a bitter laugh. I was trying to act hard, but truth is, I just wanted him to say something to me.

"Oliver, do you know the answer?" Victor completely ignored me. Oliver got up and walked to the board to do the problem. I need him to talk to me.

"Wow, Victor, I thought you were supposed to know how to do math!" I laughed. I waited for a response but got nothing. Fine. You wanna play that way? Okay.

I got up from my desk and walked over to the board, snatching the marker away from Oliver and drawing one big, ugly, midget elf with Victor's name next to it. The class broke out in laughter. Victor finally looked at me. I just gave him a cold stare. Now that he was looking at me, I could tell he didn't even seem mad. He looked frustrated. Victor walked over to the phone and dialed a number.

"Yes, hello? This is Kellin's math teacher. I just wanted to let you know he'll be staying after school again today for detention." Victor spoke into the phone. You're fucking kidding me, right? I picked up the marker again and started drawing dicks all over the board.

"Actually, I'm gonna have to make it a week of detention." Victor spoke into the phone again. He said a few other things before hanging up the phone. I threw the marker on the floor and sat back down in my seat. The entire class that day consisted of Victor not speaking to me at all and everyone else getting extra attention from him. He's such a jerk. I hate him. Ugh.

After math I ditched school and went to the park. When it was time for my detention, I walked back into the school. Now I can talk to Victor. I got to his classroom, the door was open and I shut it behind me. Looks like I'm the only one that's been getting trouble.

"Victor." I spat, walking towards him. When he turned around, it was almost impossible to be angry at him. How could I be angry at that face? "W-Why won't you talk to me?"

"Here, I need you to put one of these textbooks on each desk." Victor spoke.

"No. Not until you answer my question." When he ignored me again I just kept going. "A-are you mad at me?...I'm sorry for...for kissing you. I just wanted to see if I felt anything...I did. I felt a lot. I can't stop thinking about it now. I'm an idiot, I'm sorry, you're probably disgusted by me no-"

"I'm not disgusted by you." Victor spoke, turning around to look at me. He looked like he felt bad. I felt bad too. It kind of hurt getting rejected like this.

"Well it sure feels that way...I'm sorry I had to torture you with a terrible kiss yester-"

"Kellin, stop. It wasn't terrible...I...It was great. It felt nice.."

"Then why are you mad?"

"I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at me."

"Why?" I asked.

"Because, I had no self control and I could lose my job for that. I'm just so mad, I should've stopped."

"Did you want to stop?" I asked, curious. He looked at me for a second before exhaling.

"N-no. That's not the point, Kellin. You're nothing more but my student. That's all."

"Well what if I don't want to just be your student?" I asked. I don't know what I'm saying. My feelings were speaking before my thoughts could stop me.

"What? What are you saying?" Victor asked. His face was starting to turn a light pink. Could he be anymore attractive?

"What if I want you in a different way? What if I want to kiss you again? What if I like you?"

"Kellin, stop." Victor demanded. His cheeks were cherry red.

"What if I want a chance?" I asked, walking right in front of him. Vic looked like he was having all sorts of mixed emotions right now.

"W-we can'-"

"Stop with the excuses! I don't care if you "can't", I only care if you "want". Do you want to? Do you want to kiss me?" I asked. I can't believe all the confidence I'm getting right now.

"Kellin, I don't want to hurt you." Victor replied. I got closer to his lips and stared down at them for a second.

"Then don't." I whispered. Our eyes were locked together now. "I can keep a secret...I'm sure you can too." I whispered. Victor swallowed hard like he was trying to resist his urges. I wasn't going to resist though. I leaned in and kissed him. He instantly kissed me back again. Thank god. He likes me too.

"This is totally unprofessional.." Victor sighed, pulling away but I could see it in his eyes he wanted it just as much as I did.

"Please?..." I insisted. He looked at me, biting his lip then he nodded slowly. I don't think I've ever been so attracted to someone this much before. We reattached our lips, they moved perfectly in sync. I couldn't stop my hands from trailing down to his back. Victor groaned. This time he didn't stop. His hands found there way to my ass. He squeezed my ass in his hands before picking me up and setting me on his lap as he sat down. Victor's lips found their way to my neck.

"Mmm.." I moaned softly, gripping onto his hair. That's when Victor stopped.

"I-Is that too much?.." Victor asked.

"No. I love it..." I wanted nothing more but then to continue but sadly that didn't happen.

"You should get home...it's getting late.." Victor spoke. I was still on his lap. My hormones are going crazy right now. I just want him. I slowly ground my hips into his, causing him to moan softly.

"Ah, fuck...K-Kellin, stop."

"I want you." I whispered, grinding my hips down harder and faster. I got yet again, another moan from Victor. I could feel him grow beneath me.

"Fuck, Kellin...you're impossible." Victor moaned. He picked me up and set me down to the floor.

"I'm taking you home." Victor spoke. He grabbed my hand and started walking towards the door. I didn't object. He was holding my hand. I smiled to myself and intertwined my fingers with his. He looked down at our hands and smiled too.

"Kellin, you're not gonna tell anyone about this, right?"

"No, I promise. Just promise me you won't ignore me anymore." I responded.

"I promise." Victor smiled. We walked out to the parking lot, we got into his car and soon enough he was driving me home. There's no doubt I like my teacher. And I'm not letting him go.

Notes

ERYGHTBEUJKET,N OMG I WROTE THAT. XD

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