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It feels so right, I just know it's wrong.

Already screwing up

Victor's P.O.V.

Today's my first day of teaching. I'm going to be teaching a sophomore math class. If I'm being honest, I'm fucking nervous. Teenagers are fucking trouble. I should know, I mean, I probably made the most trouble growing up. That doesn't mean I'm going soft on anyone though.

The bell rang and soon enough, all the kids started rolling in. I greeted them all at the door even though I remember how much I hated it when teachers did that before. Guess the tradition just passes on. Everyone was seated. There was just one empty seat, then someone came in. And my god, did he catch my attention quickly.

"AYYYYEEEEE!" The boy came in yelling. Everyone seemed to know him, as there reaction to him resulted in whistles, winks, waves, and cheers. Wish I was this popular in high school.

"Sit down, please." I spoke, looking towards the boy. He looked at me and bit his lip shyly. He didn't care to sit down, he just walked closer to me.

"So you're our teacher, hu?"

"Yes, and you are?"

"Kellin. Don't make this class boring for me, I don't like boring." Kellin spoke. This guy sure seems like a jerk.

"Please take a seat." I said. Kellin nodded and headed over to the empty seat in the front. All of the girls were drooling over him, I could already see the eyes falling on him. I rolled my eyes and walked over to my desk.

"Alright. Now that everyone's here, I can introduce myself! My name is Victor Fuentes, you can call me Victor, Vic, or just by my last name. I really don't give a shit. I'm 26, I ran away from home when I was 15 to be with my boyfriend at the time. I loved him but I should have listened to my parents. He was a bad influence on me and now he's in jail. Luckily I ended up alright, and here I am. Yes, I like math. Yes, I hate teenagers. It's a normal thing to hate once you've grown older. Anyone have any questions about me? I'm an open book." I spoke, sitting down at my desk. The class just looked at me with wide eyes and opened mouths. Then a girl in the front raised her hand.

"You're gay? What did your boyfriend do?"

"Yes, I'm gay if it didn't already seem obvious enough. It's not just what he did, we both did a lot of things. I regret some of them, but it made me who I am today." I replied.

"How long were you with him?" Another girl asked. All the girls looked fascinated.

"Two whole years. My parents hated him, but he only ever bought out the real me."

"How did you come out to everyone?" Kellin asked. I looked over to him, with a smirk on my face. I'm not gonna lie, he's attractive for a sophomore.

"Just showed up to school kissing my boyfriend one day. A lot of people were really thrown off about it. Not gonna lie, I didn't really have a lot of friends in high school. "

"Are you a virgin?" Kellin asked. The class looked shocked at what he asked. I said I was an opened book, there's no reason to shut it down now.

"Most I've had is a blowjob. What about you?" I asked. This kid thinks he can shut me down. Yea right.

"I've actually had sex." Kellin answered. I don't believe him. "So you're single now, Vic?"

"Yes, as a matter of fact, I am. I'm assuming you are too? Cocky guys never have girlfriends." I insisted. The class got a kick out of that. Kellin looked pissed.

"Fuck you, Vic! You think you can come in here, acting hard? You're just a teacher." Kellin spoke.

"Just a teacher? You're right, Kellin. Since I'm just the teacher, it just looks like I'm inviting you to stay after school today to help me organize the classroom! Isn't that great? Don't worry, I can call your parents for you." I smiled, walking over to the phone.

"Dick." Kellin muttered. I only laughed. The rest of the class went by smoothly, the kids seemed to like me. Well, not Kellin but that's okay. This blue eyed boy won't be getting far with his smart mouth in my class.

As the day went by, I couldn't seem to get my mind off Kellin. Something tells me this whole cocky jerk act is all for a reputation. I don't believe for one second this is the real Kellin. Justin was like that. He always put on this image...he was only himself with me.

The end of school came around and I waited in my classroom for Kellin. He was late, but he showed up. That's something. When he came in, he didn't look pissed off, he wasn't loud and he only nodded when I told him what to do.

"How's school been today?" I asked, moving a box onto the desk and taking stuff out.

"It was fine." Kellin answered, not looking at me. He was hanging up math posters for me at the moment. "So...w-were you nervous when you came out?.." Kellin asked softly. I looked over to him. His back was to me. God, he has a nice ass...fuck. What am I saying?

"Um...why do you ask?"

"Just..." Kellin stopped doing anything completely and got off from the chair he was standing on. "I need some advice..." He finally turned to look at me.

"What kind of advice?"

"Like...how did you know you were gay? " Kellin almost whispered. I raised both my eyebrows and nodded slightly. So he's gay.

"Well..the first time I kissed a guy. Why? Are you having a problem?.." I asked.

"Kind of...I don't know. I just find guys attractive...I don't think I'm um...gay though...I can't be. I've just been feeling a little weird around this guy in my second period...I don't know, I'm dumb." Kellin shrugged. His face was deep red.

"It's okay to be gay, Kellin. I'm gay, there's nothing wrong with that. You're not dumb. If you want to be sure, just try something. Anything. Make sure you do it with someone you know won't mind. It could help clarify things." I answered honestly. Kellin nodded and awkwardly stood there. Oddly enough, I found myself staring at those gentle, beautiful, blue eyes of his. This boy really is attractive. I know I can't say that about a student, but..he's just so...cute.

"Victor?" Kellin asked, snapping me back to reality.

"Yea?"

"I kind of want to do it with someone experienced..." Kellin spoke, walking closer. "So I can feel more comfortable..." He was right in front of me now. I don't know why, I got this strange feeling in my stomach. This isn't normal...

"Then you should. Whatever makes you comfortable." I replied, totally oblivious to what he was doing. Kellin took a deep breath and put his hand on the back of my neck. I raised an eyebrow not sure what he was doing. It's not until he closed his eyes and leaned in that I realized what was happening. I know the right thing to do wold be to stop him. He's a fucking student! But I didn't...I felt him come closer to my lips, and soon enough I felt his lips on my own.

My eyes went wide, I wasn't sure what to do. I just did what felt right. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I unknowingly, automatically wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled him closer.It felt so good. Our lips moved together nicely, I needed to pull away, I just couldn't. His hands were playing with my hair now. I let out a soft groan. That's it, it's too far. I pulled away and stepped back a little.

"You have to go." I seethed. I'm so fucking angry at myself. I could lose my job for this! What the hell is wrong with me?!

"I-I'm sorry..." Kellin mumbled, his face turning the brightest red in the world. My heart was beating out of my chest. I can't believe I did that!

"You need to go..." I said again. Kellin nodded and let out a breath before walking out of the room.

Why did I do that?