I ball up the note and throw it to the ground.
I sit by the tree, I pull my knees to my chest.
And I cry, I just sit there and cry.

Why did she even kiss me? She left me and never came back years ago.


*Flashback*

I push her hair out of her face and stared into her almost black eyes.
I close my eyes and slowly lean in to kiss her.
We have been together for three years and not a single day passed by that I wasn't in love with her.
Her phone rings before our lips meet and she pulls away.
I watch her as she looks at her phone, what used to be a smile is replaced with a frown.
"I will be right back" she says answering the phone and walking out to the porch.
For a good ten minutes I sit there wondering who was on the other line.
Throughout the entire ten minutes there were undescribable words being spat into the phone conversation.
Then she hangs up and comes back in.
"Who was that?" I ask looking up at her.
Her eyes slowly swelling with tears, she sits down next to me.
"Vic,I have to leave, and I don't know when or if I will be back" she says trying her best
not to cry.
I sit there in confusion, "you can't leave" I say feeling my eyes begin to water.
"Its for the best I swear" she says now crying.
i pull her in for a hug, and we just stay like that forever.
She finally pulls away and stands up, "I always loved you Vic, never forget it"
She says and runs out.
By the time I had ran outside she was already gone.
It would be months before I saw her again, but this time she had a well noticeable baby bump and the tall man with blonde hair was following her around.
My world came crashing down, she was cheating on me.
She looked dead at me and froze there.
I couldn't handle it, I ran and didn't stop, I couldn't stop not now, not ever.

*end of flashback*

I was awakened by tony, "Vic, get up you fucking moron" he yelled slapping me in the face.

I opened my eyes to five angry looking people surrounding me.
"What the hell was you thinking Vic?" Kathy yelled with her eyes full of rage.
I couldn't blame her.
Right as Mike was about to say something i cut him off.
"Look! I know what i did was fucking stupid, but SHE kissed me, i fucking hate myself for kissing back, but i can explain!" I yelled sitting up.

"Okay" Kathy said "explain" the five of them stood there staring at me.
I looked at Mike, "it was layla" i said.
He looked at me mixed with surprise, confusion and anger.
"Who the hell is layla?" Cindy asked breaking the silence.
Tony pulled Kathy and Cindy to the side to tell them everything.

"Vic why the hell was she here?" Mike asked sitting down next to me, and Jaime sat on my other side.
"I don't know" I said trying to wipe away old tears.
"Wasn't she pregnant with some dick head's baby?" Jaime asked in a state of confusion. "Yeah, she was" I sighed looking down.

"How did you guys find me?" I asked .
"Mel called us and told us everything and where we could find you" Mike said running his hand through the grass.
"Did she tell you where she was?" I asked jumping up.
"Yeah, but she told us not to tell you" Mike said standing up.
i looked down, "I can't lose her" I whispered.

if I lose her, then everything I know is gone. I have to find her with or without anyone's help.
I love her

Notes

Long chapter, I know. But I figured I needed to make up for my lost time.
And also this chapter was bound to be long anyway with its content.

Hope you enjoyed it, might have another one tonight.

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