Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.
Chapter 84 - I Just Wanted The Lonely Inside Me To Leave
Anthony's POV
'Years Of Love Have Been Forgot, In The Hatred Of A Minute."
One of the most true quotes, written by Edgar Allen Poe. It was, indeed, suitable for the situation. Two people were brought together by fate, but were never supposed to be. I have studied them both, and it seems that there is a huge communication error between the two of them.
In the very beginning, Oli was sent to take her life. He was supposed to show no mercy to her, and watch her die because of his decision. But he didn't. And I guess I will never understand why he didn't. He seems to be quick to make decisions, and he also seems to be very unsure after he has made them. He clearly loves her, and the kids. But I feel like he also loved SJ. Which is why he is so torn now. He has a gentle heart, but doesn't want to understand the reality of what Rain feels. Or his kids. He just wants it to be crystal clear.
Rain is a delicate thing. I feel that because Oli suddenly picked her up, straight after SJ died, she has always felt like a back-up plan. And you can't really blame her. She hated him for leaving her, and when he suddenly came back, it was difficult to adjust to. I think she had lost her love for him then, tried to forget about all of her feelings towards him. And after you recover, it's difficult to fall back down into the trap again.
When they raised Hanley together, Oliver obviously had a serious connection with him. Hanley was all he had of SJ. And Rain accepted it. Rain seemed to love Hanley, but distantly. Because deep down, she knew that Hanley wasn't her own child. And every time Hanley calls her his "Mother" it is a lie. So she thought that by having her own baby, it would seal everything between the two of them.
But there are difficulties with that. She hadn't thought about it until it was too late. Oliver might not love the baby the same way as he loves Hanley, because it would be her baby, not SJ's. On top of that, Danny had tried to warn her about something, and she assumed she was going to die. After all, she isn't supposed to be alive in the first place. So she didn't want the baby to be motherless. So she thought she could avoid death by killing the baby in her place.
Oliver wouldn't let that happen. He wanted to keep the baby, to prove to her that he would love it as much as he loved her. So he tried to change her mind. But when she didn't comply, he locked her up. Obviously she had attempted to kill the baby somehow, which explains why Sienna is blind.
So Rain has a lot of regrets. People have died for her. Oliver chose to keep her alive, and not anyone else. She has a boyfriend who is determined to prove to her that he loves her, but doesn't want to actually listen to her opinions and feelings. She was the one that forced lifetime blindness onto her own baby girl. And at the end of the day, she wishes that Oli never kept her alive. Because the only thing that is stopping her from trying to kill herself again is her children.
As I lay on my bed and think about this, the night came upon us. The two of them had been separated for the evening. Oliver drinking his whiskey, his face pinned on the TV, motionless and cold. Rain in the kitchen, her hands shaking and her eyes swelling as she tries to cope with it all.
I hadn't seen the kids since the dispute.
"Hanley?" I crept through into the nursery, expecting to see the two of them there, playing together sweetly and giggling to each other. Except the room was dark, and quiet. The night light that was pinned on the opposite wall was hauntingly glowing, creating shadows on the floor. The room felt cold. The window was open. And something was seriously wrong.
Notes
So Anthony has a voice of reason. But where have the kids gone?
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