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Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.

Chapter 85 - You Sat While The World Was At Your Feet

Oli's POV

There was nothing on the TV tonight. I swirled my drink in the bottom of the tumbler glass and watched as the bubbles from the sides floated to the top. The lights were out and the fuzzy television screen was lighting up my pale body, sat in the very corner of the sofa. Anthony was walking around upstairs, and I could still hear Rain sniffing in the kitchen. I would have spoken to her, if I wasn't such a coward. I guess I hadn't really been thinking about her much lately.

I wanted to hold her, more than anything. Just bring her tiny body onto mine and feel her quiet, slow heart beat. I hated it when she cried. It killed me, which I guess is why I'm sat here with my whiskey, in a separate room.

I pulled the ring out of my pocket and looked it over once more. Opening up it's satin box, I starred at the tiny cut and pretty engravings. Her name on the inside and one blue sapphire centered by several smaller white crystals. I bought it because the color of the sapphire, was a shade of blue that reminded me of rain. And rain reminded me of her.

Maybe I didn't want to marry her as such, but I just wanted to make her smile. Show her that I've always still felt for her deeply. But I've always felt like she's hated me or the kids needing looking after or anything that would come over her happiness. But nothing should come over that really. Because when she is happy, I will be.

Just imagining how happy she will be with that ring on her finger makes my stomach turn. I missed her smile, the way her eyes would light up with when she saw me come towards her. And the way we used to play fight on the bed or on the sofa. And cuddle for the whole night. The sweet smell of the candles she bought for me once, and set them up around the dresser while we watched a movie and had a pillow fight. Simple things made me need her in my life, and it was time to set things right.

I slammed my glass down onto the ground, watching the liquor splash onto the floorboards. I marched myself straight to the kitchen door, resting my palm against it. Come on Oliver. You can do this. Walk in there and kiss her. Like you used to. Before any of this damn shit happened. Before you started loving her from a distance.

"Baby girl..." I whispered, opening the door.

We stood at opposite sides of the room, starring at each other. Motionless and quiet for what seemed like hours. We were just looking at each other. But she must have seen the longing in my eyes. For she finally ran into my arms and collapsed on me.

"I've got a lot to say, baby." I whispered into her soft hair. "But I'm going to buy you candles, and we are going to spend nights together, alone. Just you and me. I'm going to cuddle you more and hold you close and kiss your head and..."

"Shh." She giggled, tears still dribbling down her messy face. She nervously laughed. "Just hold me."

I stroked her hair and felt her body against mine. It was so much more intense than I had imagined. Her beauty was all in my hands and it made me feel so sad that I had been neglecting her for years now. I lifted her up into my arms and carried her over to the kitchen table, sitting her down on it and kissing her. I wrapped her legs around my waist and leaned over her, stroking her neck and holding her hips.

We heard Anthony walk in behind us, who seemed to be surprised that we were kissing so intensely just after a fight. We both turned to face him, and my heart throbbed because Rain didn't let go of my hand. There was still energy flowing between us.

Anthony rubbed his knuckles. "Glad to see you two are doing better... Have you seen the kids lately?"

Rain sat forward and leaned on me. "No..." She whispered, her face seeming slightly alarmed.

"The window is open in the nursery and I can't find their shoes or coats..." Anthony pleaded.

Notes

Aww So everything is going to be alright? But where have the kids gone? x

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Comments

Quality read, I love this story so much, can you check out my new story please? I'd appreciate it and wanna collab

Anyone who is reading this, I'm actually the writer of this story, I just deleted my tumblr account that was linked to this a while ago. I wrote this years and years ago, and I think it's pretty poorly written at the start, so apologies lmao. But anyway, I made a new account, I'm older now so my writing has gotten better, I'm taking English as an A level too so everything is good. I'm in the process of writing something new, but I'm totally annoyed with the lack of views it's getting. It's got a kind of similar story involving drugs and pregnancy and stuff so check it out? <3 Its called "On The Vacant Canvas, We Should Be Waiting", and I've based some parts of the story ie. drugs and fights etc. on experiences that actually happened to me and my friends so it's quite a personal story, as I think it should be.

@SparklyRainbows
Thankyou so much, I've been really good lately, and I hope that you can be too, and I'm glad you're enjoying it :) You better stay awesome too, hun <3

I just want to let you know, I stated until 6:03 in the morning, reading the ever loving fuck out of this. This story is amazin . First of all, this story spans over years, not months or days like most storie . Second of all, I have a real connection with both Oli and Rain (which is one of the character names in my story, too!!!). I struggle with self harm, alcohol, and drug abuse, and this chapter really connected with me especially. Whatever you're going through, I've never met you, but I believe in you. I'm proud that you're five (or more) days sober, and you definitely better keep it up. You're a strong person, and it's really awesome that you're doing good and writing an amazing story while you're at. Stay beautiful my lovely creature!!

I really felt the connection in this chapter with the Alcohol abuse. I really liked this update, a lot x