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Curtains Close; Take a bow. I think we fooled all of them now.

Chapter 43 - Oh, If You Need Me, I'll Be Tying A Rope To The Tree Where Our Love Used To Be

Rain's POV

I felt so rejected. So unloved. All I wanted was to slowly ease him back into loving me again. But he wouldn't even hug me, after everything that I did for him. He now stood there in vain, eyeing me up about the events.

"Are you alright?" He jerked towards me, but I quickly left off in the other direction.

"Fine." I said sadly. The amount of times I had said the word 'fine' and felt as though I was dying, I could barely count them any more.

"Oh." He shrugged, leaving me to run my distance away from him. "It's just, you seem all down lately. Is it something I said?"

Of course it fucking was you blind son of a bitch. I wanted to scream at him, let him know how ignorant he was being. But I simply said nothing. I just shook my head. Despite my heart throbbing and my eyes swelling, I couldn't bring myself to say anything.

"Oh right." He said with a smile. "Is it your time of the month or something?"

"No... Oli." I wanted to take him down with my bare fists. He was such an idiot, but I loved him so much.

My hands went numb from clenching them. He continued to stare at me. "No, something is definitely up with you Rain. Your acting all mopey and shit. And you don't usually pour yourself that big of a glass of liquor." He laughed slightly, but stopped almost immediately as I didn't find it very humorous.

"I just wanted to ask you..." I paused. What did I want to ask him? Oh Jesus there was no way I could even step foot there now, after him rejecting my hug. I paused, and starred at him with fear.

"You wanted to ask me?" He said, trying to push me on to finishing my sentence.

"I wanted to ask you whether you... Had any aspirin?" Oh shit, you are never going to ask him. Aspirin of all things? Are you insane. Of course he has it, you were giving it to him just yesterday. It's in the bathroom cabinet, top shelf. Why would I ask for something so ridiculous.

"Yeah..." He said with an off putting expression. "It should still be where it was yesterday..."

Shit. Now what!? "Yeah... Obviously!" I said, nervously. "But... We ran out."

"Did we?" He asked, looking surprised. "What do you need it for anyway?"

"Headache!" I shouted, beginning to ascend the stairs. "I'm going to go check again, and maybe take a nap too."

I quickly burst through the door of the bedroom and threw myself onto the bed. Could I have acted any awkwarder? It was obvious something was up now, and he would surely squeeze it out of me. I just wanted him to hold me like before.



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Quality read, I love this story so much, can you check out my new story please? I'd appreciate it and wanna collab

Anyone who is reading this, I'm actually the writer of this story, I just deleted my tumblr account that was linked to this a while ago. I wrote this years and years ago, and I think it's pretty poorly written at the start, so apologies lmao. But anyway, I made a new account, I'm older now so my writing has gotten better, I'm taking English as an A level too so everything is good. I'm in the process of writing something new, but I'm totally annoyed with the lack of views it's getting. It's got a kind of similar story involving drugs and pregnancy and stuff so check it out? <3 Its called "On The Vacant Canvas, We Should Be Waiting", and I've based some parts of the story ie. drugs and fights etc. on experiences that actually happened to me and my friends so it's quite a personal story, as I think it should be.

@SparklyRainbows
Thankyou so much, I've been really good lately, and I hope that you can be too, and I'm glad you're enjoying it :) You better stay awesome too, hun <3

I just want to let you know, I stated until 6:03 in the morning, reading the ever loving fuck out of this. This story is amazin . First of all, this story spans over years, not months or days like most storie . Second of all, I have a real connection with both Oli and Rain (which is one of the character names in my story, too!!!). I struggle with self harm, alcohol, and drug abuse, and this chapter really connected with me especially. Whatever you're going through, I've never met you, but I believe in you. I'm proud that you're five (or more) days sober, and you definitely better keep it up. You're a strong person, and it's really awesome that you're doing good and writing an amazing story while you're at. Stay beautiful my lovely creature!!

I really felt the connection in this chapter with the Alcohol abuse. I really liked this update, a lot x