Forgive Me- Part 3

Jaime’s POV

I sit on the couch anxiously as I watch Alex follow Milly out of the room. I know that he has missed her like cray and her leaving probably hit him almost as hard as it did me but I could see in his face the second that he saw her and knew she was okay that there was a lot more than just worry there. He was angry at her, he felt betrayed by her and I am genuinely scared that he is going to go off about it. He's barely been holding it together all night, you can see it in his face that he was about to snap and now Milly has gone off with him.

"How could you do it Mil? How could you run off like that?!” I hear Alex yell from up the stairs. Shit Alex, seriously?! You really couldn’t hold off for one night? I head towards the stairs. No. No way in hell am I letting him ruin this for me.

“I was pregnant! I thought he hated me! I couldn’t stand him forcing himself into my life just because I had his children in my stomach" Pain shoots through my heart at her words and I stop.

“But you didn’t have to cut me out! I’m your best friend, you could have told me”

“I was scared that you’d tell him. That you 'd feel obliged to let him know he was a father. And don’t lie. You know you would.” There was a soft thud and the yelling dropped to murmurs but I still couldn't bring myself to move. I hurt her more than Alex ever could. She really thought that I hated her, the thought I would have been forcing myself to stay. How could she ever think that? I loved her more than anything else in this world and I would have done anything for her I still would. I know that I did a lot of really stupid shit to push her away but there is no way I could ever hate her.

Alex comes down the stairs looking very flustered and I feel anger boil inside of me despite knowing that I have done worse. How could he risk losing her? We only just got her back.

"What the hell man! Do you want her to leave again?!" I yell.

"God no! I- I was just pissed. We figured it out now okay?" He says

"No it's not okay. I just got her back; I don't want you screwing it up for me!" I push past him and head for the stairs. I need to see Milly. It's about time that we talked about this.

I push the door to my bedroom quietly and sneak inside, not wanting to wake the kids. My efforts are in vain as when I get into the room I see that Milly is already cooing them back to sleep. He fight with Alex must have woken them. She turns around and jumps lightly when she sees me, obviously she hadn't heard me come in. She smiles softly and shoos me out of the room.

"I should probably get them home" she says softly as she closes the door.

"I think we should probably talk first. Sort some things out." I say.


She looks uncomfortable but hesitantly nods. I lead her down stairs, ignoring the guys as we walk straight past them and lead her to my little studio. She looks around the room, taking in the piles of music paper with a smile before taking a seat on a stool.

"Look I know-""Milly I can't-" We say at the same time. With a chuckle she gestures for me to go first. I walk over to her and place my hand on her cheek, rubbing my thumb over her skin gently.

"I seriously cannot believe that you thought I hated you." I say.

"What was I supposed to think? You kicked me out, wouldn't talk to me, wouldn't even look at me..." She doesn't meet my eye and I drop my hand.

"Milly I was upset and confused. I know that's no excuse for the way that I treated you and that you had every right to leave like that, but I could never hate you. I would never have let you go through all of this on your own."

"I know that. That's why I went. I knew you would stay and help even if you hadn't changed your mind about what you thought I did. I didn't want to force you into this. It's not like we exactly planned it either."

“Just because it wasn’t planned doesn’t mean it wouldn’t have meant the world to me”

She looks down without saying a word.

"Everyone is really angry Mil..."

"I know, I don't blame them. I disappeared without a word. I had my reasons but that doesn't change the fact that I left you all behind. I will probably never be able to make up for doing that to you all, for taking your children away from you without even giving you a chance but I thought it was the right thing to do. "

"You're here now at least, as long as you don't run off again we can start working on getting everything right"

"I won't be running anymore, it doesn't get you anywhere"

"You did a really good job Mil" she looks at me confused. "With the kids, they're great kids. You did a great job raising them. It must have been hard"

"It was tough and they were a handful, but there was a lot more good than bad."

"Well you have all of us here now to help you through the tough times"

"They're not too mad at me for that?"

"No Mil, everyone is just upset that you left us. You were a part of our family."

"I'm so sorry"

"It's okay Mil, as long as you stay here now"

"I will" she smiles softly at me. I pull her into a hug, cherishing having her home. I know things won't be the same but at least this is a start. At least she's home and I can see my children. We can work together on this, I don't know if things can ever get right between us, if we'll ever get back together. But I can't afford to lose these moments in worry about that. She's home.

Notes

Now I know I have been away for a hell of a long time, honestly I didn't think I would upload anymore because there wouldn't be much point after how long I had left it. But this morning I woke up to a message on tumblr from one of the readers asking if I could please continue because they really enjoyed this story, it really gave me the motivation to get this up and running again. I'm sorry for giving up on this for so long and I know I have probably lost most of my readers because of how long I've been away but I hope that everyone who is still around is happy that I'm uploading again and not too mad at me for leaving.

Love you all

xx