Forgive Me- Part 3

Alex's POV

I'm standing across from Amelia; my eyes open wide and my heart racing. I’m watching her brace herself against the wall in shock, hand still against her mouth. What have I done? That was not supposed to happen. God no, that was definitely not supposed to happen. I stand there for a while, unable to do anything but gawk at her.

"Mil- Milly I am so sorry" I finally manage to get out. She doesn't say anything but just nods, her eyes still wide and not focusing on anything in particular.

"Lisa?" She asked eventually, looking slightly horrified. My heart begins to pound. Lisa. What have I done? Oh god. What now? Should I tell her? I have to. She'll guess that's something's up right away. She's going to hate me. Maybe I shouldn't tell her. It was just a kiss...

I look up into Amelia's eyes. Looking for help. A sign of what to do next.

"This didn't happen." She says flatly

"What?" I say

"I've only just gotten all of you back in my life, I don't want to screw it up straight away."

"So it didn't happen"

"Exactly" we both fall silent for a moment.

"Now what?" I ask

"Now... You head downstairs? There's no way the kids are still sleeping so I'll go check on them"
Shit. I had forgotten they were right there.

" Milly I am so sorry"

"Don't be it's not like I didn't kiss back. Let's just leave it okay?"

I nod. I pull her into my arms and hold her tightly. Relishing in the fact that she's actually here right now. I missed having someone to pick on and chat to when I’m feeling like absolute shit. I needed her when I was having a break down and I could talk to Lisa. Sometimes I really just needed to have my best friend there for me when I needed her. Besides that, nothing hurt more than her not trusting me enough to come to me before she left. I would have been there for her. I would have helped her with her kids, and despite what she thinks I would not have told Jaime, not if she asked me not to. I am her best friend and I would have been there for her like a good best friend would be.

"Don't leave me again okay? I couldn't handle it if I lost you again" I whisper.

"I won't, I think I'll be around for a hell of a long time yet"

"Good."

She smiles at me then gently shoves my shoulder, directing me towards the stairs.

"You should head downstairs, I bet everyone want to make sure we didn't kill each other"

"Okay" I hug her again quickly then head down the stairs. My heart still pounding from our quick encounter.

The second I reach the bottom of the stairs I am swarmed by people all eager to find out what had transpired; Jaime right at the front and not looking impressed at me.

"What the hell man! Do you want her to leave again?!" He yelled at me.

"God no! I- I was just pissed. We figured it out now okay?" I say

"No it's not okay. I just got her back; I don't want you screwing it up for me!" He shoved past me and headed up the stairs presumably to see Milly. I watch him go and it upset me. Jaime and I were close, especially after us both losing Milly. I didn’t want him to be angry at me.

"Don't worry, he's still on edge about everything being perfect for her" Tony said. "He'll calm down soon and will probably come apologise"

"He's right though" I say "I shouldn't have yelled at her"

"I think it's good that you did." Vic said shocking me. "I think she needed it, she needed to see that it wasn't okay what she did and that she did screw us all over in a way. Yea we love her and forgive her, but that doesn't make it okay"

"Yea Vic's right. I missed her like hell but I was pissed as well" Mike said

"Let's just leave it for now okay?" Tony said "we're meant to be having a fun night tonight, so no more angry talk"

Everyone muttered okays and agreements but it was obvious to see that it wasn't over. The guys were pissed at what she had done. Even though they love her to pieces she still hurt them. A lot. And I doubt they’re going to let her get away with it scot free. They'd gotten over the excitement of her being alive and okay and are now starting to see the bad in what she did. God I hope they can hold it in for a while, at least for tonight. I know that it’s hypocritical because I couldn’t but I don’t think she could handle anymore. I know she couldn’t, and I don’t want to lose her again. I couldn’t handle losing her again and I’m not the only one. Jaime, especially now after meeting his children, would probably die inside if she left again. I can only hope that nothing happens to scare her off.

Notes

Okay so there is no excuse for me taking as long as i did to update so I'm not even going to try and justify it. I'm just going to say sorry, hope you all forgive me and pray that i haven't lost all my readers because of this. I really am sorry and I'll try to not let it happen again.

Love you all heaps and I hope you don't hate me


Gabbi
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