Forgive Me- Part 3

Amelia's POV

We leave the little studio and head back towards the guys. I brace myself, ready to face the fire and stand up to apologise to them. They've waited too long to hear it from me and they more than deserve and explanation for my actions. As we round the corner that puts them all in view I hesitate. I don't deserve their forgiveness, not even the tiniest bit, but I need it. They really are and always have been family to me despite everything I have done to hurt them.

"I-" I hesitate, considering my words "I know that I have no right to say any of this to you after everything I have done, and that I definitely don't deserve your forgiveness, but I am so sorry for leaving you all the way that I did. I know it's not an excuse but I was terrified and even though I knew you were all there for me I couldn't bring myself to put that on you. I saw it as something that I had to do on my own, that it wasn’t a burden that I should put on you. I know that you would have been more than happy to help me through it all but at the time I was too scared to let you. I have and always will consider you to my family and though I know I can't make up for everything I have done I hope you can still see me as the same."

There was a long silence where I could see them thinking over my words. I became more and more anxious with every second that passed. I mentally began to beg that one of them would speak. Anything, even anger would be better than silence. Mike was the first to break my anxiety and speak up.

"Look Mil, I can't speak for the others, but I'm not so much angry as I am hurt. We were always close but especially after you came and stayed with me and Vic, I thought you would have trusted us. But even so that doesn't mean I don't still see you as a part of my family. It might take some time for us to get past this but I think we all will. You'll always be my little sister." He came over with his arms outstretched and I walked into them gratefully with tears in my eyes, so grateful for his words.

"Thanks Mikey, I missed you so much"

"Missed you too Mil"

"I think it's safe to say the rest of usfeel pretty much the same way. We were all really hurt when you ran out like that and that's not something that will go away straight away, but that doesn't mean you're not still a part of our family" Vic said, not really looking right at me as he spoke. I can't help but frown slightly as I take in the group and process all the damage I have really done. How could I hurt them all so badly?

"You know you can spend the night right? The kids are passed out and it's a Friday, is there much point in waking them?" Jaime asked me quietly, I think he sensed that though I really should be leaving I wasn't quite ready to let go yet.

"I don't know Himes..."

"There's one more spare room upstairs, I can crash on the couch"

"I can't kick you out of your own bed"

"Technically we split the cost of that bed so it's half yours" he said. I remember that, I couldn't sleep in his, it was way too soft. Trying to find a new one that we both liked was more than a mission. He loved really soft mattresses but I’ve always been much more comfortable on a firm one.

"Jaime..."

"Look I know that we are only just starting at getting to know each other again, and you probably feel awkward staying here right now but I can also see that you don't really want to leave either. Say what you will but I know you."

"Okay."

"Really?" He looked like an excited puppy, looking like he was actually about to start bouncing on the spot in joy, as if he really didn’t expect me to agree with him. I really hope this isn't a bad idea.

"Yea we're all crashing here to Himes." Mike called over.

"Okay but the couch is mine"

"Yea good luck" he says stretching out the couch. They start to bicker over the ownership of the couch and it on the floor just watching them. I really missed everyone. So much. Leaning against the side of the couch, Simba fast asleep over my lap I start to doze off. It's been an intense day but it's also been the best day I've had in a very long time.

Notes

So I'm glad to see that not all of my readers have left! I'm going to try and upload one chapter every two days or so, i don't want to start stressing myself out over this again because i really really want to finish this story with you guys! Let me know what you're thinking, i love your feedback!

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