Wonderless ♡

Today was the day I'd meet Jessica. My stomach felt empty and I still wanted to throw up or dry reach. I was nervous as hell but I had to support Vic.

We waited at a small playground near her house looking at each other, holding hands.

"Whatever happens" I said squeezing his hand and he sighed deeply and nodded

We saw a car pull up and a heavily pregnant woman come out and Vic squeezed my hand really hard, so hard that his arm was actually shaking. I swallowed hard. It looked like she was ready to burst. Suddenly he let go and walked over to her and I quickly followed. She had shut the door when Vic reached her and shouted "what the fuck Jessica!"

"What?" she shouted back

"How are you pregnant right now?" he asked

"Are you fucking serious, do I need to draw you a diagram?" she hissed

"That is not my child then" he sold crossing his arms

"And how do you know?" she snapped

"We slept together over a year ago, babies stay in there nine months" he said then looked at me and I nodded in agreement

"I can't believe all this shit you've been trying to guilt me with" he said "is this some sick joke to you?"

"Well this baby is overdue" she said

"By 5 months?!" he snapped "I don't want to see or hear from you again, what we did was a mistake and if you clearly don't know who the father is I assume you made a big one too"

I had never seen Vic this angry before. It was a slight turn on.

"You're so fucking stupid" he added before turning around and she looked at me with a sour face

"Good luck!" I smiled and ran to catch up with Vic who didn't speak all the way to the bus

I decided to leave him alone and went to the venue instead where I could hear Alex singing Paramore. I walked to the stage to see him and the rest of the band doing karaoke from the screen except Jack who was just dancing around everyone.

My phone buzzed a little while later and it was from Vic asking where I was. He came in before sound check and we sat in the dressing room.

"How are you feeling now?" I asked with my hand on his lap

"Relieved I guess" he said "she's just stupid, we shouldn't have had to go through any of this"

I frowned and he looked at me "I'm sorry"

When I looked into his eyes I wanted to tell him that I loved him, but something was stopping me. I've never been in love with another person before, how am I meant to know if it was what I was really feeling? I gave him a hug instead.

"I'll make it upto you, we'll go out to dinner" he said

"Just the two of us?" I asked ad he nodded

"Like a date?" I said and he nodded again

I think it's pretty sad when you're 23 and hoked up with so many guys and never been on one date.

"Sounds great" I smiled "wear something slutty"

"Okay" he smiled back

On stage, Vic was different. He was more powerful and more energetic in a way. By the end of the night, he performed the best that I had ever seen.

It was a few weeks later and the boys were preparing to go overseas. I couldn't get a passport in time and decided to just go and stay back home. Because we were taking it slow, Vic and I didn't have sex again since the first time, and I had caught him a few times fooling around with himself in bed. It was obvious that he was struggling more than I was.

The night before the band was leaving and we were back at my house and in my bed

"We can postpone the tour" Vic begged

"Honey, I'm going to stay here" I smiled "I think after all the making out, our mouths can use a break"

"I'm going to miss you like crazy" he said

"I'll miss you too" I pouted and gently started to kiss his neck

"Uhhh Zo, if you do that I'm not gonna handle it" he said

"You're going away for a month, we are going to bang" I said

"Okay just checking" he said

After a very passionate love making, the morning came too fast. Vic's alarm went off and we both got up and got ready to drive to the airport.

I drove on hand on the wheel and the other holding Vic's hand. It was a freezing cold morning and I missed my bed the whole way there. We parked and grabbed Vic's bags and walked over to the international section.

Whilst going through security I was slowly coming to the realization that we weren't going to see each other and it was making me incredibly sad. I was saying goodbyes as they announced the flight's boarding call. I waved as everyone boarded except Vic who I left til last.

I couldn't look him in the eye as I started to feel the tears.

"It'll be okay" he said holding me while I quietly sobbed

I took a deep breath and tried to be strong as I looked at him through glassy eyes

"I love you"

He looked a little shocked as tears fell down my face "really?"

I nodded as he kissed me softly "I love you too"

He then smiled "finally I'm not the first one to say it"

He reached into his jacket pocket and gave me a small jewellery box

"What is it?" I asked as they announced the final boarding call

"Something I wanted to give you for the right time" he said lining up in the queue

I put it in my pocket and held his hand in line until it was his turn to enter the plane

"Have fun in London" I said giving him a final hug and kiss "come back with an English accent"

He smiled and we waved as he entered the tunnel and I sat by the window and watched the plane take off. After I went to the bathroom and wiped my eyes before getting a hot chocolate and returning to my car. I sat down and felt discomfort from my pocket and pulled out the jewellery box that Vic gave me.

I decided to wait until I got home to open it and put it on the dashboard, but while driving I couldn't stop staring at it. I quickly pulled over on the highway and opened it to see a locket and could feel the engraving.

I turned the light above me on and saw it was a heart that said "Love you always" and opened it to see another engraving that said "From Vic"

I sat there and cried in my car for about half an hour.

When I got home I put the locket on and laid in bed constantly touching it. As it reached late morning I called my Mom who answered straight away.

"Hello darling" she said happily

"Momma?" I said

"Yes?" she replied

"I'm at home and I'm in love" I said nervously

"I see. I'll put on the tea and you come on over" she said

I had a shower and got dressed, putting a Pierce the Veil set list on my iPod for the trip to my parents' house. I had no idea what they were going to say.

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