You're My Favorite Addiction

"1,2,3." I whispered barely audible.

"Phoenix what the fuck are you doing!" Skylar came barging in through the bathroom door.

I started crying uncontrollably as she ripped the blade from my hand. I felt my body tense up, how could she do this to me. I would never be able to show my face at school again. But then again I've been through worse.

"Phoenix I thought you said you would never do this again." She sighed as she flushed my blade down the toilet.

I couldn't even generate words, I was dumbfounded.

"Phoenix!"

"What! What do you want from me! Skylar you fucked up everything. I thought we were best friends, remember when I was there for you when Ryan raped you and everyone found out." I screamed.

She just sat there and glared at me.

"This is completely different Phoenix." She shook her head.

"No Skylar it is not different. You were devastated and guess who stuck around through all of it. Me! I did, and now the tables have turned. And you fucking outed me to everybody. I mean c'mon." I cried.

"Phoenix are you dumb! You're 18 years old, you made a promise to spend your life with someone!"

"And that's so fucking wrong of me! How? I wanna know why it's so wrong of me to wanna be happy, you just can't let that ever happen. Ever Skylar. You fucked Derrick when we were dating! And I forgave you! But I mean this is a new low for you! If anything you're the whore. Not me, I made a decision to spend the rest of my life with Austin because he cares about me. Unlike you." I was furious, and as of right now I had seen all of her wrongs and all of the things she did to me. She was the one at fault here, and there was no way in hell that I was going to let this one slide.

"I suggest you get the fuck out of my house, out of my life. For good, I'm done. This can't go on any longer." I said calmly.

"Are you kidding me-"

"FUCKING LEAVE! NOW!" I screamed before she could finish. She hung her head low and left.

I sighed and slid my body down against the wall. Crying hysterically.

"3:45." Fuck I have to get ready for work.

I reluctantly got up and sighed, putting on my uniform and going out to me car.

Work was busy, and I was happy about that. Carol loved her present and that made me happy. I started getting a little bit down as the night dragged on.

"Honey what's wrong?" Carol cooed rubbing my back.

"You would never believe me if I told you Car." I sighed rubbing my eyes. All I wanted as of right now was to sleep. Forget about today's events and sleep.

"Try me sweetheart." She said, concern riding in her voice. I sighed and began. After I finished she looked at me with such a sympathetic look in her eyes.

"Forget about her Phoenix, that is definitely not a real friend if you ask me. I would take tomorrow off, spend the day regaining your composure, maybe go shopping or something. Get a makeover, do something to make you feel good about you. What you did isn't wrong. God wanted it this way, everything happens for a reason honey. Trust me, we go through these hardships in life to see the bigger picture in the end." She smiled, and I nodded.

She was right, and I let her words sink in. We do go through many hardships in life because if we didn't life would be boring. No adventure, no obstacles. Just everyday passing by before we die.

I clocked out out and drove home. I walked in to see a note on the counter.

"Phoenix your father and I went out for the night, see you tomorrow. Love you, mom." I sighed. I guess I'll see what Austin's doing.

"Hey I'm on my way over. Actually pulling into your driveway as we speak." He laughed.

I hung up and he walked through the door. Roses in one hand, and chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream in the other. God did I love him.

"Thank you." I whispered gripping to his torso.

"So wanna talk about today?" He kissed my hair. I shook my head.

"Okay I can respect that. How about we watch a movie and eat this I scream babe." He laughed grabbing two spoons from the drawer.

"Sounds good." I smiled.

We sat on my bed just laughing and eating the ice cream. I finally decided to tell him about what happened and he was astonished.

"Why would she do that to you Phoenix?" He questioned sternly. So I held up my left hand, showing the ring.

"She's jealous, that's what it is. You have the things she's always wanted. And I know Alan is too young and scared to make such a big commitment." He told me. And he was right.

"I guess you're right, but it still hurts Austin." I said and my lip began to quiver, the tears were coming on again. I can't keep crying about this. I just can't.

"Are you staying home tomorrow?" He asked.

"I might I don't know quite yet." I shrugged taking another scoop from the ice cream.

"Well so whatever you need to. I just want you to be happy." He smiled.

"I'll be happy as long as I have you." I said putting some ice cream on his nose.

"Oh so that's how this is gonna be." He laughed.

"Here let me get that you gotta little something on your nose." I laughed licking the ice cream off.

"Here you got a little something yourself." He said wiping his spoon all over my face.

"Austin! My face is gonna be all sticky!"

"Just hold still I'll get it." He laughed taking my face into his hands before kissing it all over getting all the ice cream off. I could still feel the residue of chocolate.

"Oops missed a spot." She smiled kissing me on the lips. He pulled away and grinned down at me.

"I love you Phoenix. Please don't ever leave." He whispered pushing strands of hair away from my face.

"I would never dream of it Austin."

Notes

Chapter 19!
Love you guys!
Stephanie <3
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