You're My Favorite Addiction

"Here's goes another day." I groaned getting out of bed. Somethimg about today seemed like it was going to be alright. I did my normal routine of shower, hair, makeup. Then got dressed.

"Hey mom, how are you?" I chirped in a gitty manner.

"Good, the school phoned me this morning." She said never once looking up from her laptop.

"Oh... And?" I questioned nervously, twiddling my thumbs.

"You skipped out on half a day? What's that all about Phoenix? Where has your head been lately, you're not acting like yourself." She finally looked at me, sternly though.

"Um it's a long story, and I have to go." I said pointing to the door.

"Fine but if something is going on I want you to tell me. I'm still your loving, caring mother dear. I still want to know what's going on in your life, just because your father is around now doesn't change anything." She smiled softly.

She was right to extent. Yes, she still was my mother. But, she's been so tangled up in acting like a teenager again with my dad that's things have changed. I rarely see her anymore. She goes out all night with him, doing god knows what. Then I stumbles in the door at 3 am. I sighed and nodded, proceeding on with the rest of my day.

I stopped at Alan's house like usual, and his mother came out telling me he got a ride with Skylar. Then she went on to tell me how lovely and wonderful Skylar is. What a load of shit was all I could think. I rushed my way to school because Mrs. As by would not stop talking, and parked in the senior lot and scurried into the school. I stopped at my locker and grabbed a few books and ran to first period. Right in time for the bell to ring. Alan sat next to me was quiet, and had a guilty look on his face.

"Hey Phoenix." He finally spoke up.

"Oh so you're talking to me now I see." I stated sarcastically.

"Sorry, I'm just not me today. Skylar caused a big scene in the hallway and broke up with me. Saying how terrible of a boyfriend I was." He spoke, as he stared in the distance before placing his head in his hands.

I felt bad for the kid. Skylar has been nothing but horrible to him, if anything. He broke me from the my thoughts when he began again, this time tears welling up in his eyes.

"Phoen... She cheated on me." He looked me dead in the eyes, with tears rushing from them.

How could she do such a thing to him. He was nothing but good to her. This was my fault, all because I got involved with Austin, and he gave me this stupid ring. I caused this to happen.

"Alan she's no good for you, I promise." I cooed as I rubbed his back.

"Phoenix, you don't understand she was the first girl I loved... Ever." He said putting emphasis on the ever.

"Listen you will love again Alan. I promise you that. When she fucked my boyfriend at the time Derrick I was devastated, but I moved on. Now I have Austin and he's the love of my life." I smiled at the thought of him, but yet felt guilty for all this happening.

"Exactly you found Austin. I have no one." He sobbed quietly.

I didn't know what to say at this point. I felt just terrible for him.

"How about a best friend night, you can spend the night?" I smiled softly.

"Please, I miss you Phoen. I really do." He half smiled.

"Of course Allycat, I love you okay bud?"

"Okay." He smiled.

Finally does me some good to see someone happy.

The rest of the day was a blur, a surreal blur. I remember listening to my teachers ramble on and on, about nothing. I didn't pay attention. My senioritis was definitely kicking in to full drive. Lunch, me and Alan sat alone. I saw Skylar at the popular kid table. The table where all the fake people sit.

"She fits right in." I huffed.

"You bet your ass she does." Alan growled, and I simply glared as she laughed and enjoyed herself. The people she once hated.

"She's only sitting there to get her 15 minutes of fame, that's it." I stared.

"She's so desperate she'd probably settle for 2 minutes." Alan laughed, and I joined in.

The classes that Alan and I had with Skylar were funny, she just sat alone and fumbled with her hands. Unsure of what to do really. Good, I want her to suffer. Dumb bitch, but the. Music came and she' sat with Kristen. Wonderful crowd Sky. You'll really make a name for yourself there.

"Good afternoon class, um today were gonna do volunteers on songs. I only need 2 volunteers." Austin stated causing me to grin. I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I could play my new song. I whispered to Alan, and we both raised out hands high.

"Okay, go ahead Ms. Rose." He smiled.

"Actually could he do it as a pair?" I questioned, and he nodded. I told Alan the chords and he grabbed a guitar, plopping down on a stool. He began strumming and I cleared my throat ready to sing my heart out.

"She sees them walking in a straight line but that's not really her style
And they all got the same heart beat
But hers is falling behind
Nothing in this world could ever bring them down
Yeah they're invincible and she's just in the background
And she says
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Cause all the cool kids they seem to fit in
I wish that I could be like cool kids
Like the cools kids
He sees them talking with a big smile
But they haven't got a clue
Yeah they're living the good life
Can't see what he is going through
They're driving fast cars
But don't know where they're going
In the fast lane
Living life without knowing
And he says
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Cause all the cool kids they seem to fit in
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Like the cool kids
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Cause they seem to get it
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Like the cool kids
And they said I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Cause all the cool kids they seem to fit in
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Like the cool kids
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Cause they seem to get it
I wish that I could be like the cool kids
Like the cool kids"

We finished and the crowd applauded and Austin and Skylars mouths stayed agape. I smiled wide and hugged Alan placing a kiss on his cheek before we went back and sat down. Skylar's eyes followed us across the room and I saw nothing but astonishment in her eyes, maybe a little bit of jealously written in there too.

The bell rang and I took Alan to his house to get him some clothes to spend the night. Once we got back to my house it was vacant. To my disliking I found another note.

"Out for the night, here's a 50 if you wanna order pizza or something, love you." I sighed and crumbled the note up throwing it away.

We watched movies and laughed at Skylar and her new friends. We decided on watching 500 days of summer because that was apparently Alan's favorite movie. God he was weird, but I was happy to have him back in my life. I missed the weirdo.

"I'm happy we can be best friends again." He smiled.

"Me too Ginger Princess." I laughed ruffling his hair a bit.

He smiled and held his gaze with me.

"Can you hold still and cover your eyes I have a surprise for you." He whispered.

"Okay?" I laughed. I covered and eyes and sat still, feeling his weight shift on the bed.

Then I felt his lips touch mine.

Notes

Skylar is dumb. Thumbs down for Skylar. But woah Alan. What will Phoenix do? What will Austin do?cis the important question.

ALSO, ALL RIGHTS AND RESERVES GO TO ECHOSMITH FOR THEIR SONG "COOL KIDS"

if you haven't heard it, go check it out. It's soooo good!

Also, check out my story I'm writing with Lacey :) it's called:

don't tell me I'm beautiful.

thanks guys, love you!

Stephanie <3

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