The past never changes

Kathy walked me home after we had finished shopping at the mall, Kathy got a new pair of studded converse and a few new outfits, I got a few pairs of skinny jeans cause my others were falling off of me. We got home and I sat with Kathy before she headed home so she could catch her breath, we sat in silence for about 10 minutes and then Kathy stood up, "are you sure you don't want my to spend the night with you? We could hang and-" I cut her off kind of annoyed that she was constantly looking after me, "Kathy, I'm fine, I promise" I put on a smile hoping she would drop it, "OK but if you need ANYTHING just call me and I will be there" she said with a concerned look, "OK I will, now get home your driving me crazy" I joked we both laughed a bit, then hugged and she was on her way. Sigh I wish I could tell her what has been happening lately,

I walk into my home and as I walk upstairs I hear my parents fighting again, I couldn't make out what they was saying too well, something like "how could you be so stupid" "don't you remember last time?" I refused to listen any longer because I had a good idea what they were talking about.

I got to my bedroom and shut the door I decided that I needed a shower I felt filthy, I went into my bathroom and locked the door behind me, as I undressed I just looked at myself the voices came back "fat whore" "ugly freak", then I felt a chill run up my spine, I decided to try and shake off the voices with a nice refreshing shower, the second I turned the water I started to feel the stinging from some of my recent cuts, as I stepped out of the shower the bad feelings started creeping up again, I put some black leggings and a black tank top revealing my scare filled arms, I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face when I was I done I sat on the closed toilet seat, I sat there trying to shake the feelings creeping up again but just couldn't stop myself, not this time. I opened the cabinets under my sink and got this little box out, it is where I hid my razorblades, I grabbed one out, I sat on the floor the voices running through my head "stupid" "fat" "ugly" I started to cry a little, I then took a deep breath and put the blade to my wrist and made the first cut then I made 4 more before stopping and watching to blood slowly seep out, I sat there for about 30 minutes until the cuts were dry, I put the blade up and head towards bed, I curled up in a ball and slowly drifted off to a peaceful sleep.

Notes

Hey, here's another chapter. Pierce the veil is coming into the picture very so only.what will Kathy and Mel think?leave comments plz I love you all :D :P P.S. sorry if this chapter was kinda short, the next one will be a bit longer...bye