The past never changes

*MEL'S POV*

My mom dropped us off at the mall and went grocery shopping.

Kathy and I headed towards journeys first,
We were gonna see if they had any of those converse high top boots.
I've been wanting a pair for ever and we decided to just look around before trying to figure out what the guys would want.

We were looking around when Kathy nudged me "so what are you gonna get Vic?"
She asked rising an eyebrow, which I have no idea how she does.
"I don't know, easter isn't really a gift giving day is it?" I asked looking through the assortment of rubber wristbands with band names on them.
"Yeah, I guess your right...but what if he gets you something?" She asked looking at me with a curious look.
"I highly doubt that's gonna happen" I said walking towards the shoes,
Then my phone rang, I answered it "hello?"




*VIC'S POV*

I'm sitting in the bus alone.
All the guys went out shopping, Jaime thought it would be cool to get all sorts of candy and stuff and make mini easter baskets for everybody, he always seems to find a bright side to things. I had told Mel that I needed to go shopping but I already found the perfect gift for her.
I hated to lie to her... but I couldn't make her feel bad, hell knows she's been through enough as it is.

Bad feelings were creeping up on me again.
I couldn't take it any more, I ran to my bunk and opened my duffle bag,
I pulled out the little black box that held my old friend,
I pulled out the shiny blade and ran to the bathroom.
I shut the door and sat on the floor, I knew what I was gonna do would be bad but I needed it.
I pulled up my hoodie sleeve and let the cold blade slide against my skin
I finished with the first cut and started another, after fifteen cuts I watched as my arm was flooding in blood. The blood soon began to be too much and I passed out.

"Holy shit!" I heard somebody yell, I was just barely awake,
I was finally able to open my eyes the least bit and there was tony standing in the bathroom door frame staring at me in shock,
Soonly mike ran in and pushed tony out of the way.
"What the fuck Vic" he yelled getting really angry.
He kneeled down and pulled the razorblade out of my hand, he threw it in the trash.
he pulled me up by the arm that had been holding the blade.
He got a clean towel and wet the corner in the sink, he lightly wiped the blood off from around my now dried cuts. He wrapped my arm in a bandage and put the blood towel in the trash.

"Do you want to tell me why the fuck you decided to rip your arm up?" He asked anger rising in his eyes, I cupped my face with my hands, my eyes had tears building up in them, "I'm s-sorry, I just needed it" I said before crying.
"God damn it Vic, why don't ask us for help instead of doing this shit" he yelled
getting angrier by the second.
Jaime walked in "mike just get out" he said calmly, he always acts so cheerful and silly, but with things like this he would always be mature and calm.
Mike stormed out.

Jaime and I sat for a while in silence, when he noticed that I had calmed down he said
"You need to tell her about this", I nodded my head, I stood up and headed towards the back lounge.

I sat down and pulled out my phone and tapped on Mel's name.
It rang a couple of times before she answered, "hello?" She said seeming happy.
"yeah, can you come over? we need to talk" I said in a tired voice,
"Sure, what's wrong?" She asked now concerned instead of happy,
"I'll tell you when you get here" I said almost to quiet to hear,
"Ok I'm on my way" she said and hung up.

Damn it, why did have to go and ruin everything again? I am nothing but a fuck up.

Notes

Hey guys, sorry only one update, I'll have more tomorrow night, hope you enjoy this.
Love you guys thanks for everything, feel free to leave your thoughts on the story.

Chapter named after the lyrics in Christina Perri's song "distance"

Bye <3