Hold on till may*On hold*

~~This will be a short chapter because its 11:00 at night and I need something to do cause I cant sleep~~

Jazlyn**

I rolled over to find that Vic was gone but then I saw a note on his pillow it read

Dear Jazz:
I went to the store to go get some things make yourself at home, just don't touch the guitars
XoXo ~Vic <3

I smiled to myself when I read the note then my phone started to buzz I looked at the caller ID is was my uncle.... grate

:Jazlyn:
"her uncle"
:hello:-"where the fuck are you, you ungrateful little slut"-:I'm some where that I'm actually wanted not with some idiot loser like you:-"you fucking bitch I want you home now"-:I'm sorry I'm not coming home:-"your going to want to soon, and when you do I wont be her because your an ungrateful little piece of shit that no one loves no one will love and no one has ever loved, I bet your parents would be so disappointed with you, your the reason every one hates you" after that the line went dead I needed to call Vic.

It rang a couple times but he didn't answer the things my uncle were saying were swimming around my head I left a message "H-hey Vic wh-when you ge-get this please co-come ho-home, I wan-want it so b-bad, I ne-need y-you" I hung up and sat there for ten more minutes still no call back then I got a text

Britt: hey little slut did you slitt your emo wrists yet?
Britt is my fucking cousin unfortunately I didn't even bother to text back but they just kept coming, I just couldn't take it I ran to the bathroom looking through the cabinets I couldn't find my razor so I got the next best thing... Pills, the were the anti depressants I used to take but stopped taking I had about 20 left, I popped the lid off and swallowed 10 my phone started to ring I answered it sleepily "hello?" I asked "Jaz.. please tell me you haven't done anything" Vic's voice asked worriedly I just sighed and I swallowed the last ten "Jaz?" he asked more scared "I-I'm sorry V-Vic I just couldn't stop" I cried as I brought a razor to my wrist and drug it across "there right" I cringed "I don't deserve love... or happiness... or anything" I said as I made 6 new cuts "hold on I'll be right there" he hung up and I was barley holding on, I started to slip into darkens until I felt fingers go down my throat causing me to throw up all the pills in my stomach, I just kept vomiting until everything was out, I had a crying Vic above me "I- I cause you to much pain... why wont you let me die?" I asked "you're my best friend I CANT lose you, you don't cause me any pain, but you need help... Jaz I'm getting you help" he said as he brushed the hair out from my eye's "I'm sorry" I cried he just shushed me and we stayed like that for awhile, or at lease until I fell asleep, and at that moment I actually felt like I belonged...

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