What Are Friends?

I left the house grabbing a hoodie on my way out, not even bothering with breakfast. I can't believe that Sara did that! By now everyone in that shit hole will have heard about the things I wrote in that diary. I was 13, my Mom hated me and my step dad was a cunt, I got bullied at school and at home so of course I was thinking those things, of course I was contemplating taking my own life and actually attempted taking my life.

I walked through the 'gates of hell' as I like to call them and it was like everyone was waiting for me. I was the center of attention and all eyes were on me. I put my head down and my hood up to avoid their judgmental stares. I got to my locker and got the books I needed for the day. I noticed a piece of paper that had been slipped in the slots of my locker. I picked it up and stared at it, the page I wrote in my diary the first time I attempted suicide, it was photo copied and black ink that appeared as blood from the original page covered parts making it hard to read.

I could feel tears forming in my eyes. It felt as if I was reliving my life 3 years ago. I felt eyes burning into my back and when I turned around every single person in the hall was looking at me, some whispering things to their friends, some just giving me a death stare.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ALL LOOKING AT?!" I screamed. "HUH?!"

It was silent. A deafening silence only broken by the sound of my locker slamming. I picked up my bag and threw it over my shoulder before walking fast down the next corridor. I looked up to see the guys at the end of the hall.

"Hi" I gave them a small smile.

"Hey Am" Tony gave me a gorgeous smile and pulled me in for a hug.

"Where is Abby?" I asked looking around.

"She isn't welcome here" Vic scoffed and Mike punched him in the arm giving him a "bro shut up" look.

Why is she not welcome here? She was the nice one out of the girls, the only one that understood me and actually liked me. She was the only real one out of those barbie dolls so why the hell wont they let her hang out with us?

"Um why?" I asked clearly confused.

"Amily, did you get your notebook back after you left it here yesterday?" Jaime asked.

"No but what does that have to do with Abby not being welcome in our group?!" I asked mad that he was changing the subject.

"Am, she took it and told us she was going to take it to your house for you, but you never got it. She's the one who photocopied those pages and spread them all over the school" Tony gave me a sad look. "I'm sorry"

"That bitch!" I muttered. I could feel anger run through my veins and I didn't like it, I was so mad at her. How could she do this? My blood was boiling. "Hold my fucking bag" I said throwing my bag at Mike.

"Amily she's not worth it" Vic tried to calm me down.

"No Vic, I know you are only trynna help but there is no fucking way that bitch is gonna get away with it" I said walking off. I could hear their foot steps behind me but I was walking to fast for them to keep up.

"Abby you fucking bitch" I yelled when she came in to sight. She was with Sara and Caitlin of course.

"Oh Amily" she smiled "Did you figure out it was me?" She laughed. She fucking laughed! This only added to my anger. I walked straight up to her and punched her dead in the nose, I pushed her to the ground then sat on top of her punching her repeatedly. I got at least 5 good hard hits in before I was pulled off of her by Mike.

"She isn't worth it Amily" He said scoffing at the girls.

"Amily Jones, come with me" Principle Walker said before turning away expecting me to follow.



"Amily what was all that about in the corridor?" He asked once I was seated in his office.

"Dude, I mean Mister, she photocopied pages from a journal I kept when I was younger and put them in every students locker. Those pages were personal and she had no right to do that." I said not being able to look him in the eye.

"Miss Jones, I know she must have hurt you but that doesn't give you the right to beat her up" He said disappointed. "Although it was funny to see her face all fat and puffy" he laughed.

"Mister Walker, I was only standing up for myself" I said calmly.

"I know Amily but I can't just let you off the hook, you'll have to have 2 stand down days off school, its compulsory I'm sorry, she did deserve that though. She and her two friends are mean, mean girls" He said. "Now take the days off to think about your behavior today or to finish that homework thats almost overdue." He laughed shooing me out of his office.



I told the guys I had to take two days off and they promised to ditch the second day so we can all hang out. I noticed I wasn't getting as many weird looks anymore but I could still hear a few whispers mainly about how I beat up Abby, even in the girls bathroom I was in the most respected girls side with reasons underneath saying things like: 'Stands up for herself and doesn't let anyone push her around' and 'Bet up the bitchiest bitch in school." there was one saying about how I fought the struggle that is depression and that I'm still here today.

I got home and prepared myself for the biggest growling of my life...

Notes

Ooooooooh Abby turned on her!