It never ends

“Hey, wake up!” I was shaken awake. The cold air hit my body immediately. I looked around trying to figure out where I was and what had happened.
The first thing I recognized was red hair, must be Scarlett, standing directly over me.
“Skyler get up” she said again. But there was something off about her voice. I looked up to get a better look. It wasn’t scarlett at all. It was Tris. Her hair was pulled back into a disheveled ponytail, and she looked like she had been rushing.
The bonfire had been put out and a large pile of ashes stood in its place. This place looked deserted. How long had I been out? What happened? Where was Oliver?
Tris took my hand and pulled me to my feet. “Jeez, how did you sleep through all of that?”
“Through all what? How long was I out?
“All that mayhem, I thought for sure Oliver would have woke you up. It’s a good thing I accidentally left my bracelet. ” she raised her wrist revealing a sparkling silver chain. Not long, but it’s about 2 in the morning. She toyed on the chain along with a confused expression. “Though I don’t know how I lost it”
“Speaking of oliver, where is he?” I ran my fingers through my hair, hoping I didn’t look too bad.
Tris shrugged. “I don’t know, Jace, him and pretty much everyone left about half an hour ago. They could be anywhere.” I took out my phone, of course it was dead.
“I already tried to call him, no use, no one’s answering” Tris said as if already knowing what my intentions were.
I groaned. Where would he go, and why didn’t he get me? I don’t know, but I do know one thing. Katherine and Celeste are with him.
I tried to shake the thought off, I didn’t want to think of it right now. Every time I did there was a small pang in my chest.
“You look like you could use some sleep, I can take you home” she said.
“Thanks, I’ll just wait for him at the apartment” Tris gave a sympathetic smile, but I didn’t need her pity, I just needed to know where Oliver was.
~~~

On the highway I decided to break the silence and ask the question that’s been on the tip of my tongue for a while.
“Tris” I called.
She replied with a hmmm
“who’s Jace, it seems no one wants to tell me anything”
“ I don’t know a lot, it’s not like Oliver’s the most outward person about his life. But I do know that before he was here, he lived in England , although I don’t know where specifically” I couldn’t help but smile when she mentioned Oliver was from England. I already knew that, and I know I should probably be mad at him now, but I loved listening to his accent.
“Anyway, jace and Oliver were friends, and from what I heard, they did a whole bunch of illegal shit.” I saw tris about to say something else, but she hesitated.
I saw her briefly smirk before speaking again. “Including drugs”
What? I looked at tris, searching for a hint of doubt. I knew she was telling the truth. I didn’t know how to react. It was a big thing to me, but she said it so casually as if it happened on a regular basis. I suddenly felt a hint of anger build up within me.
Yet another thing everyone else knows that I don’t.
“Some other stuff happened, I’m not exactly sure, and he came over to America”
Neither of us said another word until we arrived to the parking lot of the apartment building.
I thanked Tris for the ride and walked up the stairs to the apartment and went inside. My weariness drifted away the more I was awake. I plugged my phone in and turned the tv on. By that time I wasn’t tired.
I laid on the couch staring at the screen at a tv show I wasn’t paying attention to. My mind was to focused on other things. Why did Oliver insist on keeping me in the dark? It’s not like I can’t handle it. Not like I won’t find out either way. I felt uneasy every time I thought about it. I won’t dwell on it now. But all I know is, the next time I see him, I will have answers to all my questions.
~~~

I heard the door click and creak open. I shifted and leaned up, turning my attention to Oliver. Who stood inside in front of the door and shrugged his jacket off. He looked at me and froze for a few seconds.
“I thought you would be sleep”
“I got all my sleep at the party, the one you didn’t wake me up from”
Oliver pressed his lips together. “I didn’t just leave you, you think Tris just accidentally left her bracelet” I tilted my head. He did that, instead of just telling me he was going somewhere. I continuously felt myself getting irritated. That still didn’t excuse it.
Oliver sat down on the barstool and stared at me. “Where were you?” I asked getting up and walking over to him.
Oliver shrugged, but not in a way that he doesn’t know, more of it’s not important enough to bring up.
I internally groaned. It was taking all of my self-control not to burst. I don’t understand why he keeps things from me, is he even aware he does it? Does he not trust me? I can’t remember what I could have done so he wouldn’t trust me, but I can think of a few things vice versa.
I walked over so I was right in front of him. “You’ve been gone for nearly an hour, it’s almost 4”
Oliver put his hands on my shoulder and down to my hands as if trying to assure me. “Well I’m home now, can’t we just go to sleep”
I pulled away from him. “No! You can’t leave me at a party that you dragged me to go and expect me to be fine when you come back at 4 in the morning!” I heard myself yelling, I couldn’t stop now.
Oliver looked a bit taken back, I don’t think he ever heard me yell. I didn’t because I didn’t have a reason to, except for now.
“What the hell is wrong with you why are you yelling? It’s not like I showed up drunk, I left before it got too serious. I knew you’d be upset but I didn’t think you’d be mad”
I felt my hands curl into a fist “Of course I’d be mad, at least you could tell me what you were doing”
“They were going to do some illegal shit and I left before they did, it’s not like I did anything wrong, besides leaving you!” That was the first time he raised his voice in this conversation, every other time it was me.
“Anything wrong?” He really didn’t see it. “This is not just about tonight, it’s about you and not telling me stuff, why doesn’t everyone else know everything about you and I keep finding out from everyone but you. Why do you insist on not telling me stuff and keeping secrets” I felt my nose begin to sting, and my eyes begin to water. No, I blinked back any tears that threatened to fall. “and I can’t be with someone who keeps secrets from me”.
Oliver froze, staring at me. A long, uncomfortable, deathly silence filled the air. He reached up ran his fingers through his hair and grabbed it at the root, closing his eyes, he let out a soft breath before letting go and looking at me.
“okay” oliver breathed, his voice was shaky, he looked worried. That scared me, his expression made me want to stop and take him in my arms, but I couldn’t now. I was already in too deep. “What do you want to know?”
I took a deep breath before speaking. “Tell me about anna”

Notes

Title cred: Ed sheeran (I switched titles because I wanted this song for this chapter)
If you have time read the lyrics to the song, Some parts of it I feel connect with the story, plus it's a good song :)

Sorry for the long updates, I'm studying for finals and my extra curricular activities, but it's almost summer so I should be back to once or twice a week.