It never ends

There was an ache in my chest, hiding from the inevitable truth. A continuous panging sensation that stung my eyes. I turned around to blink my tears back. I was speechless, there was nothing I could say. Because as much as I hated to admit it, it was true.
I wasn’t mad, just shocked . Was that what he wanted to say to me this entire time? Was he holding it in? Of course he was.
I got in the car and drove off, driving as fast as I could to get out and off the campus.
I heard my phone buzz from my bag in the passengers seat. My eyes still on the road I reached in my bag and pulled out my phone. My chest dropped as I saw the caller ID. I wasn’t on a main road, so I decided to read it before I got on the highway. It was Oliver.
*Where the fuck are you?!*
*I need my damn car skyler?”
Crap. He was mad. Did he not read the note I left him? Probably not for him to respond this way. The voice in my head was telling me to give it some time before going back to the apartment.
A few second later another buzz came from my phone. I was a bit hesitant before I read it.
*Are you okay?*
*I’m sorry, where are you*

I smiled to myself. I knew he wouldn’t have apologized before. The fact he was attempting to control his anger was good enough for me.
I started recalling memories as I got on the highway. I remembered when I first had a real conversation with him. Even though we ended up kissing against the wall. I felt my cheeks heat up as I thought about it. It was the heat of the moment, and I never would have thought it would lead to this. Never thought I would be with a guy like him. One with so many tattoos and an attitude. Even though he wasn’t perfect. I didn’t expect him to be. But they were all reasons I loved him
I made my way into the parking lot. I shut off the car and came to the realization that I had talked myself into the answer. I would move in with him. Although I haven’t been with him long it just feels right.
I walked up the stairs, waiting for the voice in my head to scream and tell me to stop. But it wasn’t there. I grinned once more as I got to the apartment door. Turning my key in the lock and pushing the door open.
I looked around for Oliver and saw him in the kitchen, I couldn’t tell what he was doing because the ledge was in the way.
He looked up at me as I closed the door.
He glared, but his expression faded to just mild anger. He was still mad, but not as much as he was before.
“Where the hell have you been?” He said, obviously trying to control his voice so he didn’t start to yell.
“I was just going to class” I put my bag on the chair and sauntered over to the counter ledge. I saw Oliver was making a sandwich, he was dressed, but his hair was still messy. “You didn’t read the note I left”
Oliver lowered his eyebrows. Guess that answers my question.
I saw the piece of paper that I had written on earlier today laying on the same place, not even touched.
I held it up, Oliver looked at it and pressed his lips together. I shrugged it off. It didn’t matter, I’m here now.
I realized I was tapping my finger on the counter. I must have been pretty anxious to tell him.
Oliver took a bite of his sandwich and looked up at me. He squinted his eyes as if he was wondering something.
“what?” he asked.
“yes”
He shrugged. “yes what?”
I took a deep breath. Still waiting and listening for that voice to tell me to stop. But it wasn’t there.
“Yes, I’ll move in with you”
He froze. His eyes gleaming. He was staring at me, trying to piece things together. Figuring out if I had really said what I did.
A few seconds later, he finally moved. I spotted a faint smile, but only for a split second.
“really?”
I nodded.
“When did you decide that?” he took another bite of his sandwich.
“In the car” I replied, looking down, wondering what he must be thinking of me since I made a relatively big deal about it when he asked, and just made up my mind in the car.
Oliver tilted his head to the side before shaking off the thought. He finished his sandwich in one bite and walked over until he was behind me.

“Now that you’ve accepted” he wrapped his arms around my waist, his warm embrace making me fluster. “we should go out” he said, his lips gently grazing my neck. It was so hard to resist his touch.
“What do you mean?”
“There’s a party” I stopped him, turning around as much as I could without breaking his grip.
“Does that really sound like a good idea right now”
He groaned. “It’s just a bonfire, it’s not going to be crowded…at least it shouldn’t be”
“But shouldn’t you wait a while before going out again”
“cmon skyler” he murmured, trailing kisses up to my earlobe.
Suddenly he pulled on my waist so I was facing him. My feet felt glued in place. His piercing eyes not leaving mine.
“Just for an hour”
I thought about it. I obviously wasn’t going to win this, but I at least should get something out of it.
“Fine” I gave in. “but you owe me”
Oliver smiled. “Okay, what?”
I stood still, I didn’t expect him to question me immediatly. “I don’t know, but I’ll figure it out”
I barely had time to grab my phone before I was pulled out of the apartment.
I spent the car ride trying to figure out how to pass the time while I was there. I wasn’t much of a partier, but I didn’t hate it. I really just wanted to spend time with oliver alone, but the plus is that if in the near future I wanted to go somewhere, he would have to go. No arguments.
The music wasn’t as loud as the previous parties I’ve been to. But when I got in the house it was deafening. It wasn’t as crowded as I had expected, it was then I realized that mostly everyone must be outside in the backyard
Oliver gripped my hand, making sure I was paying attention before maneuvering me through the crowd and to the backdoor. I could see the large fire through the glass screen. Oliver opened the door and the fires heat hit me instantly. My face burned, but the cool breeze made it bearable.
A large crowd surrounded the fire, but it was tall enough that I could see it and feel it. I watched as people threw random things into the fire, cheering as it erupted. Some were attempting to cook things on thin metal sticks, and the others were just watching, enjoying the warmth.
On the side of the fire, a girl just sat there, watching it sipping from a glass siting down on a log. She was talking to a group of friends. It took me a while, but I realized who it was. Scarlett, in a half sleeve black shirt and white shorts. Who are those people around her.
“See” Oliver said, distracting me from my thoughts. “it’s not that bad” I had to admit, it wasn’t, but I’d still rather be at home.
Out of nowhere, several voices were coming from the behind the fire. Some laughing and others plain shouting.
“What’s that” I asked. Oliver shrugged and began walking over, I followed closely behind. For a split second I made eye contact with scarlett before I fully reached the opposite side of the fire.
I sucked in a breath as I saw what was causing the noise.
A large group of people sitting in a distorted circle, around what could only be a bong, they were doing drugs. But that’s not what everyone was paying attention to. Sitting in a chair was a guy. Pure blond hair, with a stature similar to Oliver’s. A girl next to him held onto his arm, trailing in on his everyone word, basically sitting on top of him. I recognized the girl as Katherine. Which made me think, who was that guy.
He looked up, and everyone’s’ eyes landed on us, making my stomach turn. I didn’t like the attention. I felt out of place, and all I wanted at the moment was to back away and hide.
“Oli!” the guy said loudly, smiling.
Oliver dropped my hand. I looked at him, wondering if he realized it.
He sauntered over to us, arrogantly aware of all the fact that everyone was watching him.
“Dammit, Oli! Where the fuck have you been? I’ve been waiting almost all night” He had the same English accent as Oliver, only a bit harder to understand. The guy pulled Oliver in a guy hug. I didn’t have anything else to do but stand and watch. Trying my hardest not to look behind him and see all the people staring.
There was obviously some chemistry here. They must have been long time friends or something along those lines. I didn’t know what, but I wanted to.
Because he was right in front of me I got a better look at him. His eyes were a striking cerulean blue. He had tattoos lined on his left arm, unlike Oliver’s, his were a variety or patterns that peeked up above his shirt collar. They were both a lot larger than I was, vastly intimidating.
“Jace, what the hell are you doing here” Olivers looked surprised, mixed in with lot’s of other emotions, and even a little bit of…anger?
“Came back about 3 days ago, thought I’d surprise you” Oliver looked at jace as if there was something he wanted to say, but was holding back.
Jace’s eyes fell on me, I immediately held my breath.
“And who is this” he words were smooth, and I was speechless. As I opened my mouth to answer I was cut off by Oliver doing it for me.
“Skyler” Jace’s eyes didn’t leave me. He just smiled, slyly.
“Well, hello Skyler” He prolonged my name, making me feel uncomfortable.
A second of uncomfortable silence feel around us. I was thinking of any excuse to leave.
“Skyler, can you excuse us for a second” I tried not to let my sigh of relief too audible. And in the back of my head I wanted to know why, and I didn’t want to be left alone out here, but I also didn’t want to cause a problem. Plus whatever they had to talk about seemed important enough”
I backed away, but not too quickly. When I reached the other side of the bonfire, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see Scarlett, shyly smiling. I pressed my lips together in annoyance. I tried to find the same anger I felt before, but it was faint.
“Hey skyler” he words were awkward, not like her usual confident self.
I folded my arms. “What do you want?”
“I see you met Jace” Her eyes wondered over behind me for a split second before returning them back to me.
“And…” That couldn’t be the only reason she wanted to speak to me, was it?
“has umm…”she paused for a beats, comtemplating if she should ask me or not. I wasn’t in the mood for this.
I started to walk away, but scarlett blocked my path. “Wait! I was just going to ask, if umm…Has Oliver told you about anna yet”
I instantly felt my blood boil, I was two seconds away from yellings. “NO! Why can’t you just tell me, what’s the big deal!? How come everyone knows about his except for me! Just tell me!” I didn’t realize how loud I was until a few people looked at me.
Scarlett was a shocked, I’m not a yeller, I was just frustrated. “It’s not my place to tell you!”
“What does Jace have to do with any of this?”
“He was involved with it, I don’t want to see anything like that happen to you” Her voice was a harsh whisper.
“Like what!”
She suddenly realized what she had said. “Nothing, I needed to tell you, I know I’m the last person to say this but Jace is not a good person”
I shook my head. I was tired of people telling me to do something, but not why. He didn’t seem that bad. “Scarlett, until you start giving me some of my answers, I can’t trust you as much as I can trust jace”
I walked away. Even though I was right next to a large fire, I felt cold. I found an area I could sit down, not be bothered by anyone, but still be close by the fire. I sat down and pulled my knees up to my chest. Gazing into the flames.
I tried not to dwell on it, but I pondered why Oliver let go of my hand like that. I couldn’t help but thinking there was some deeper meaning, but maybe I was just thinking too much.
I had so many questions, but noone answered to them. It was beginning to get unbearable. I needed to ask Oliver. But I knew I was scared, scared about what answer might be, scared if my feelings would change.
I doubted that, but it was still an option.
I tried to reel my mind away and relax, and soon enough I did.

Notes

Title Credit: Flyleaf

I couldn't find the right song for this chapter, so I went with this one out of my top 3.

Sorry for the long wait, I had so much to do, it's nearing the end of the school year and I have to keep my grades and stuff up. Plus i'm working on lot's of other stuff for different things.

I do try to write my chapters as quick as I can without rushing them, rushing never works out for me.

Thanks for the reads and comments and everything I really appreciate them. :)

P.S: I didn't edit this one as much as my other chapter so i apologize for the mistakes.