A Fool's Revenge.

Three months in and I already broke my promise to Jayme. I said I would either call or text her when I got the chance and every time I had the chance I forgot. There was another reason for me not calling but that would come out when I talked to her later.

We had all just got up for sound check. It was my least favorite part of the day but it had to be done so we could sound amazing.

“Have you called her yet?” Jaime snipped with his cup of coffee in his hands. He was the one who found me with her. He hasn’t said anything to Tony or Vic that I know of but I have my suspicions that he did.

“I’m gonna call her before warm up.” I said lowly and he just shook his head.

“This is your last day to call her before I do and you know if I call her and tell her what you did she’ll be so hurt and pissed.” He said in a quiet angry tone of voice that honestly scared the crap out of me.

I just nodded and he walked off the bus.

“What’s got you so down?” Vic asked as he entered the front lounge with Tony.

“Nothing.” I grumbled and quickly got off the bus and into the venue we were at today.

I went through sound check letting out all my pent up emotions. It helped a little until we got outside. There was already a mass of people waiting in line. Of course, we all had to go meet some of them. It took over an hour and a half just to say hi and take a few pictures along with signing things. I give credit to those people who stand in line for more than five hours just to see us.

I walked back to the bus by myself as the guys finished up with the remaining people in line. I just couldn’t deal. I was in too bad of a mood to pretend to be happy for them. For the sake of everyone, I don’t want to blow up on an innocent person.

I slammed the door to the bus and grabbed a bottle of Fireball. It was only a pint and it reminded me of home. I angrily walked to the back lounge and twisted open the plastic bottle. I wanted to be alone for as long as possible tonight.

I sat there gingerly sipping the spicy but sweet liquid and toying with my promise ring. All I wanted was to be home with Jayme. I didn’t want to just hear her voice over the phone or see her through a screen, I wanted her in my arms with her stupid cup of tea while we watched the news or some Disney movie she loved.

I listened to the guys come on the bus while I sat in the back lounge, half a pint gone from the bottle and dreading of the conversation I would have with Jay later on. I heard someone knock on the door and I ignored it as it opened. I casually stared out the window as the person sat next to me.

“You know, drinking by yourself, shutting everyone out and being pissed off without telling anyone why will just make you blow up eventually. It’s like giving a pigeon rice, the just pop!” our bus driver, George said light heartedly and I let out a little chuckle.

“I know but I did something that is just so fucked up and I honestly think that this is gonna be the end of my ‘picture perfect’ relation everyone wanted so badly.” I sighed and took a long sip from the bottle.

“Did you want it?” he asked genuinely.

“Yeah, I have always wanted Jayme. Ever since the first day of sophomore year of high school; I never had the balls to say it to her and I was such an asshole back then but now I have her and I can’t help but feel like I’m going to lose her because of a stupid mistake I made… again.” I said before another swig from the plastic container.

“Mike, she might understand. She obviously likes you enough to look past all of the bullshit from high school and whatever else happened to still be with you. Yeah, she probably will get mad but I’m sure everything will be fine.” George smiled weakly and got up to leave.

“C’mon, don’t mope around back here. Go hang out with your friends or go ride around the venue. Meeting fans always make you feel a little better.” He smiled and left leaving the door open.

I pondered it for a moment, going out to ride around, and I decided it was a better idea than wallowing in my own sadness. I finished the pint and was in a better mood.

“Where are you going?” Jaime asked skeptically.

“To ride around… anyone want to come?” I wasn’t going to ask but I figured they are my bestfriends and where the hell would I honestly be without them?

“I’ll come. I wanted to scope out the place anyways.” Vic said and followed me off the bus. I knew he was going to interrogate me but I was okay with it because he was my brother, I grew up with him. I could almost tell him anything.

“So, what’s been up with you lately?” Vic asked as he searched for his skateboard in the trailer.

“I’ve been missing Jayme. I want to call her but I never get the chance and when I do I forget.” I wasn’t necessarily lying but it wasn’t exactly the truth. If I told him the truth then he would probably act the same way Jaime is.

“Don’t let it get you down. We’ll be home in a little less than three months.” He said calmly. I nodded and we circled around looking for a way around the crowd. There was a back entrance for buses to come through so we went through there to explore the city we were in.

We rode around enjoying the scenery until we saw a local place. It was a nice little diner, something Jayme would’ve called an ‘adorable mom and pop’ place. We walked in and it smelled amazing.

“Hello sweethearts, what can I get ya?” a nice older lady said from the counter as, what looked like, regulars stared at us.

“I have a question, how late are you guys open till?” Vic asked politely while sitting down.

“We’re open till ten tonight. Why hun?” I smiled at the lady and she smiled back.

“Well, I’d love to bring my friends here but I don’t think our show is over until ten and we won’t make it here.”

“A show? Are you two in a band or something?” she said cockily.

“Marie, they’re in that band you’re niece is always talking about. Pierce the something or other..” an old man said from down the bar.

“OH! Pierce the Veil, right?” Marie smiled shyly now. We both nodded.

“Is your niece coming to the show tonight? Maybe we could make a deal with you.” I said and Vic looked over at me knowing exactly what I was doing.

“I’m not sure. Give me a minute, I’ll call her right now and find out.” She handed us two cups of coffee while we waited.

After about fifteen minutes the waitress came back with her phone in her hand. She chuckled a little and looked at the two of us.

“I told her to talk to you guys, if that’s okay…” she said hesitantly and almost instantly Vic grabbed the phone and said hello. He just got an earful of high pitched squeals from the girl.

After letting her calm down, we told her we would put her on the guest list as long as we could come to her aunt’s restaurant to eat after the show. She agreed with that and so did the aunt.

“We’ll see you around ten thirty-ish. I’m sure we won’t be too long here but our friends and crew will really appreciate a nice meal.” Vic said when he handed Marie her phone back.

“I’ll bet they will! I’m sure it’ll be a pleasure to have you all. And by all, how many people are we talking about?” she asked skeptically.

“About fifty or so.” I said before Vic could get too analytical. He glared at me knowing it would be more like one hundred people in this little diner.

“Ok, well… have a good afternoon, Marie! We’ll see you later.” Vic said with a smile and she waved as we paid for our coffee and left.

We rode around for a little while longer until it was time to get ready for the show. I started getting shaky thinking about the phone call I was about to make. I had never been this nervous to talk to Jayme but if I didn’t do it now, Jaime would then I would be really screwed.

I stared at her name in phone for what seemed like hours until I actually grew the balls to press call. I was about to hang up but it clicked over.

“Hey babe! Sorry I haven’t called or texted, it’s been crazy here. I’ll tell you about it tomorrow though. I know it’s a little late. I just wanted to check in before we started warming up. How are you?” I said as I walked out into the brisk air. It was quiet and calm out here. I liked it.

“It’s okay, I figured you were busy. I actually have something to tell you and I don’t know how you’ll take it. Well, actually I do but…” she said in a hushed tone.

“What is it, Jay?” I said with a bit of hesitation in my voice.

“I cut myself a couple weeks ago…” I heard her voice crack a little and a cough.

“It’s okay, I’m not mad. Don’t cry, please.” I mumbled knowing she would cry once I told her what I did. It broke my heart just thinking about her crying.

She sniffled and didn’t say anything for a while. It was silent. The only thing telling me he was still there was the light static in the background.

“Jayme, I have something to tell you. I’m sorry and I know it’s going to hurt you and I don’t know what to-”

“What?” her voice cracked, barely holding back the tears. I wish I didn’t have to do this over the phone.

“I… I made out with a girl one night at a bar. I didn’t do anything else but it got heated and I’m so sorry and I wish I was there instead of on the road when I’m telling you this.” My voice cracked this time and I felt the tears rolling down my face as all I heard was silence. REAL silence. The line was dead.

I slid down the brick building and held back the tears. I was a guy, I couldn’t cry. I felt my phone buzz and saw it was Vic telling me to hurry up. The show started in less than a half hour.

I calmed myself down and walked inside. Everyone just looked at me as I walked into our green room but soon went on doing their own things again.


“Five minute warning!” the stage manager screamed from behind our door. I took everything out of my pockets and put them in my hat on the table.

We did our little chant a little less enthusiastically today and lined up on side stage. We ran out in our usual order and went on with the show as though nothing was wrong.

I felt better by the time we got back to the green room. I instantly checked my phone and smiled a little

From; Babyy<3
Hey, I know you hate to hear my cry so I hung up. I’m sad but at least you didn’t sleep with the girl. I’m not mad. Have a great show tonight. Goodnight, I love you Mike. Always.

I was going to text her back but it was almost three in the morning in Cali so I decided against it.

I shut my phone off and looked up to see the guys staring. Jaime slyly did a thumbs up/thumbs down motion and I gave a thumbs up. He smiled and Tony and Vic just looked confused.

“Is everyone ready for some home cooked food?!” Vic screamed. I chuckled and everyone cheered.

“I’m just gonna go back to the bus. I’m really exhausted.” I faked a yawn and the guys just nodded. We all, the crew and everyone, walked out the backdoor and while everyone else headed towards the diner, I went to the bus.


I made a hot pocket and packed a bowl to the brim and sat in the back lounge. I relaxed to the point where I was actually tired.



My mind was at ease by the time I got into my bunk. It was nice to have that weight off my shoulders. To most people, kissing a girl isn’t a big deal but it honestly hurt my heart knowing I did that. Jayme was the only solid thing in my life besides my family. I needed her whether I liked to admit it or not. She was my world. She would be the death of my but I would die happy.

I fell asleep with the slightest bit of a smile on my face and it felt better than expected.

Notes

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Sorry for the lack of updates all summer and now.

A lot has been going on and I'm overloading myself already with school. I'm stressing out about my eye surgery tomorrow morning and missing school and I'm just a big ball of blah. I probably won't get an update in until at least next week because my eye has to heal and I can't look quickly at thing if that makes any sense and it's just gonna be a stressful time until I'm all better. I'll keep you guys posted as to when, approximately, I'll be updating again.

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