One million branches

My phone starts ringing. Fuck sake its like 6am!
"Hello?"
"Hey sweet, arent you late for achool? I call because you havent replied to me"
"its like 6 vic" i said laughing
"its 8 An" he laughs
"shit! U think u can pick me up?"
"I'll be there in 10" he says as he hangs up

i start sniffing all the my clothes to check which is less stinky, ha! Of mice & men never lets me down! I put my shirt on, black skinnies and my old black toms. I straight my hair and i hear vic beeping
"hey darling, looking good without make up" he giggled
"shut up" i said as i start making a fine line with black eye liner
"this is your senior year isnt it?"
"Yep finally done with it"
"what are u going to study then?"
"I was thinking music.. Or photography"
"today. 6pm. Guitar lessons?" He smiled and omg his smile!
"Sure, text me your adress" i say as he park
"alright bye darling" he leans on me to kiss me but i get out of the car, i dont know why i did that!

*school*

shit shit i have to pee! I run to the bathroom and i hear a girl crying
"are u ok?" I ask
"leave me alone" clair?
"if you need to tal..." She opens the door
"listen here you little shit, step away from me, leave me alone" i ignore her, i was just trying to help
I run in the bathroom, thank god

*lunch*

"darling how are u? :)" he makes me smile
"at lunch and you? :)"
"kinda working lol, are u with your friends?"
"Why kinda? And i dont have any" alex was my only friend, now i have nothing
"well you have me, im your best friend now :D" this hurted, i like vic but i will never replace alex.. He is.. Well he is alex
we messaged all lunch and classes until i got home
"Im going to take a shower as i didnt got one in the morning :) brb"
"alrighty"
i take off some clean clothes and i realized i took one of alex shirts, i press it softly against my face just to smell it and tears again

im in my bathroom looking at my body in the mirror, look at this ugly body, its gross, covered in scars. I take my razor and cut myself and get in the shower.
I see red going though my feet and i just sit and cry
"anni.." Not again
"what" i look at alex, this ghost of him that haunts me
"why" he looks sad
"because i miss you! Im all alone here and its my fault!"
"its not.. What happend wasnt your fault"
"why are you here?"
"Well when you die you dont go until you do what you were suppose to do in life, im not really here sweety, you just dont let me go"
"if i do im going to be all alone" i cry even more
"go get dress and use my shirt, see ya later boobies"
"see ya mr.ass" i smile, i always smile when he calls me boobies

*flashback*
"why you get them and i dont" alex said making a tantrum
"mummy says its cuz im a girl, they are boobies" we both laugh, we were just kids
"BOOOOBIES! MRS BOOBIES" he said laughing
*end of flashback*

I put the shitt on and get dress
"hey im back :)"
"took long :) was it nice" i look at the hour, shit one hour and a half
"sorry, yea it was nice :)" bautiful fake smiles
"i'll be there in 30 so you better call taco bell!"

Notes

Next chapter you get to see what happened with alex!