I want to hate Tay, I tried. I want to hate her with all my heart but I cant. Why? Well one is because she’s nice. Second is that she didnt do shit to me and lastly, she doesnt even know anything about me and Vic’s past. Its my fault, I just had to tell him I was the best friend, well, what can I do? he’s in love with Tay and I get that. I taught I can cope but I cant. Seeing them together all happy and at each others faces breaks me every time, my heart cant take that, its too much for me to handle, but I have no right to be jealous right? I gave that right away when I told him Im just a friend. All I can do is lie in my bed and cry my eyes out. Just like what Im doing right now.

I heard a knocking on my door, pulling me away from my thoughts. Oh so they must be done watching the movie huh? I hope Vic and Tay had fun. Oh who am I kidding of course they had fun, They probably didnt even notice I left.

"Kellin?" Mike called out. I just ignored him, I didnt feel like talking to someone right now. I just want to be alone.

"Kell?" he called out again.

"Go away Mike."

"Dude open the door." I heard the jiggling of the knob. ugh. What is it now? I stood up from the bed and opened the door.

"What?"

"Hey what happened to you? Why’d you left?" he said as he let himself inside my room.

"nothing I just decided, I wasnt in the mood to watch a movie" I plopped down to my bed.

"which movie? The one on the screen or the one happening live?" he smirk and I .just want to punch that smirk off of his face.

"If your here to insult me, I’m not in the mood Mike." I said and turned to cover my face with a pillow.

"Hey I was just trying to lift the mood up" he said I just ignored him. Whatever.

"Well are you okay?"

"Do I look ok?" I turned to face him with an annoyed expression.

"have you been crying? What happened?" he asked as he took a seat in my bed.

"I c-cant." I cried. I couldnt take it anymore, the taught of Vic being with someone.

"Aww. Hey now buddy dont go all crying on me now." Mike said. I hoisted myself up so that I could sit next to him and just cried some more.

"Vic is.. He’s.. He has girlfriend Mike.." I sniffed. He frowned.

"I know, Im sorry." he sighed.

"Its just.. I know he’s fine and happy and all, but what about me? What do I do?" I whimphered.

"Well you should’ve told him who you really were when you got the chance" Mike said.

He wasnt exactly helping but he was right I shouldve just told him but I dont want to force myself on him, making him love me because I said Im his boyfriend. I want him to feel it for himself not because I said so and plus he has Tay.

"but he has a girlfriend" I reasoned.

"yeah but you were first" he was right again but I dont know, he doesnt feel like that for me anymore. He forgot his feelings for me.

"he forgot about me Mike! do you know how much that hurts?! I have to constantly act like Im just a friend to him and that Im suppose to understand these boundaries I have to stay out off, a and seeing him with Tay? How am I supposed to act out on that?" I just lost it.

"Kellin" he sighed clearly tired of my shit.

"we’re gonna get him back I swear. Ok? He has amnesia, he didnt intentionally forgot about you. You told me that." he said. He was right but that doesnt change the fact that Im still hurting.

"yeah but what if he never get his memory back?" I blurted out of the blue, I wasnt exactly thinking when I said that, but the realization of that being not very far from reality stab me like a knife. Oh god what if he doesnt get his memory back? what if we never end up back together again? By this time I was sobbing louder than before.

"Hey now, dont think like that" Mike rub my back to comfort me

"yeah but thats not very far from happening Mike is it?"

"Well I guess we’re just gonna have to try harder ok?" he said. I nodded.

"yeah, but still what if?" I asked. I didnt know what to do I just wanted him to tell me something nice to keep me from doing some things I might regret.

"then I guess you’ll just gonna have to win him back." he smiled weakly. Win him back? How the hell would I do that? He has a girlfriend stealing him back would be mean, but then again it wouldnt be mean if Im only trying to make him remember me right? Yeah, I should try and win him back and at the same time make him try to remember; I decided Im not just gonna sit around and watch them all up on each other, the sooner he gets his memory back the better right? I have just the perfect plan.

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The next morning, ...

Vic’s POV

"VIC! "

"VIC! " someone calling my name? I just ignored them, Im still sleepy.

"VICTURD! WAKE UP!" ugh. I groaned in annoyance. I reach for the alarm clock trying to find the off button. Unfortunately, the clock is not responsible for the sound.

"C’MON SLEEPY HEAD! WAKE UP! " I flutter my eyes open. Determined to find out who’s that person calling my name. Realizing that the sound is coming outside, I decided to open the door to the balcony and check who that person is not caring that I’m only in my boxers. Sure enough, I saw Kellin leaning against Mike’s car; standing there with balloons in hand, each are the different colors of the rainbow

"Kellin?" he just smiled at me and let go of the balloons he was holding, letting it fly up in the sky.
Hmm. Rainbow balloons in the air. Why do I feel.like I’ve seen that before? I manage to caught the yellow one before smiling back down at him. I noticed he chuckled a bit to himself before he went inside the car and left. I just stood there smiling at myself.. he’s crazy, he just came here and wake me up for this? But I find it kinda cute actually.

Head hurts. What the fuck now?.. I let go of the balloon I was holding to support my aching head hoping to somewhat ease the pain.

’
"I dont know what color you like so I got you a rainbow" I said as I went over to Kellin and hold his hand as we started walking up
to the street next to ours.
"Aww. You’re such a dork" he bumped on me.
"oww." He lost his balance and he almost fell. I swiftly caught him before he could fall to the ground.
"Woah, Kells are you alright?" I asked him while I hoisted him up.
"yeah I just.... spasms-- Hey look what you did to the balloons.." he pouted. I look up and saw balloons started floating up in the
air.
"grab the yellow one Vic. " I jumped but yeah, curse me for being so short. Oh well, there goes those damn balloons.
I look back at him with a huge grin on my face, he was still pouting
"This one I’ll never let go though" I raise our hands up to eye level so he could see. He returned the huge grin back.
"You idiot, Im not gonna float up in the air." ’

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