Vic’s POV

Two days, I managed to somewhat avoid talking to Kellin. I cant act like we’re buddy buddy again not after that memory I had manage to recall. How could he just shrugged it off? Hmm. I dont even know why Im making such a big deal about it but I am, maybe because I just care about him that much. I dont even know... Damn it! now Im really confuse. I just dont want to talk to him now, I just cant bring myself to it. I dont know what to tell him and I just need time to think it all through for a while, plus I kinda owe Tay a day or two.

"You’ve been totally ignoring me all week " Tay said. We’re currently at the mall, Shopping. My way of making it up to her, cause yeah I’ve been totally ignoring her and plus I needed yet again, another distraction.

"I mean who even does that?" she said as she skim through the rack of clothes infront.

"you didnt even call or replied to my messages" she pouted as she finally look at me

"Im sorry babe a lot has happened." I said plainly, wrapping an arm around her thin frame. I need to smooth my way for her forgiveness.

"aaw. you dont need to act all sweet on me its ok, I forgive you, I just miss you a lot, ok?" she said cupping my face, both her thumbs stroking my cheeks. I nodded and gave her a grin. I feel bad, I need to somehow make it up to her I mean, she did made me feel a little bit better.

"well are you okay? You seem kinda down earlier." she ask with a concern tone.

"yeah. Im fine." I smiled weakly.

" I dont know Vic, you wanna talk about it? " she asked again.

"not really" talking about it is the last thing I want right now.

Tay made her way over to the counter, I followed suit. Oh thank God she’s finally done, I was starting to get tired walking around. Im such a lazy ass. I feel like I need to go to a gym or something.

"Babe." Tay giggled as she poke my stomach.

"hmm?" I looked at her taking her hand in mine.

"why are you smiling? " she smiled. I didnt realize I was, probably glad my aching feet can rest. I shrugged.

"You’re weird sometimes." I just smiled and ignored the comment.

"So what do you wanna do next?" she added.

"You wanna go watch a movie or something?" I asked.

"yeah, Sure."

---

"Oh hey look Jenna’s here too" Tay said. She started holding my hand and practically dragged me to where Jenna was; Oh-kaaay, I didnt know she was THAT excited to see her.

" Hi Jen" Tay said when we got there, her smile never fading.

"oh hey Tay" Jenna smiled at her. Jack and Alex went over to us and waved ’hi’ to me.

"Hey what are you guys doing here?" I asked them.

"Oh hey man. We were just in the mood to watch some movie." Tony said as he and the others walk up behind Jenna. Oh great Kellin is here too. He looked at me with a sad expression probably because of the fact that I didnt talk to him for two days. His gaze fell down to my hand which was still holding Tay’s, then he just closed his eyes, like he didnt want to be here or something. As much as I want to comfort him, I quickly shrugged it off, I still need to not talk to him, I dont really know.

"Aww. No fair you guys didnt ask me out." I pouted.

"oh well we figured you’ll be with your girl." Mike said as he greeted Tay with a smile. Tay smiled back.

"Hey, you were the guys from the mall one time." she referred to Mike and Kellin.

"well funny thing is, this is my brother Mike and my best friend Kellin" I introduced them.

"Oh, Hi." Tay smiled and waved at them

"sup" Mike said. Kellin smiled weakly at her before looking down at the tiles.

"babe you didnt tell me you knew them." Tay whispered.

"I recently just found out too." I whispered back, she nodded in understanding.

"So since we’re all here together why dont we go join each other." Mike suggested.

It was supposed to be only Tay and I but the more the merrier, right? I look over at Tay silently asking for permission she squeezed my hand that she was holding and nodded. Guess she’s cool with it then. Oh well so much for avoiding Kellin.

"yeah. Great Idea. I’ll go buy us some snacks." I said to them.

"Alex and I’ll help you" Jack said. I nodded.

"I’ll go buy us tickets." Tony said and started heading for the booth. Jenna followed him.

"alright, we’ll meet you guys at the entrance?" I asked. They nodded and me, Jack and Alex started to walk off.

Kellin’s POV

I dont really know whats up with Vic, but I know he’s avoiding me, Hell he didnt even smiled at me or say ’Hi’ for that matter, I don’t really know what’s his deal, but I think he’s mad at me or something, its really obvious, I could tell. Maybe I’ll go talk to him later.

"You know what guys I think I need to go to the restroom before the movie starts, Austin come with me." Jaime said. Austin rolled his eyes before walking off with Jaime.

Tay, Mike and I were the only ones left and I can already feel this situation is going to be awkward, I dont even know, oh well at least Mike is here. I look over to Mike and he gave me a reassuring smile, I think he also felt this situation is going to be awkward judging by he’s facial expression.

"Uhmm. Vic wait up." Mike called out to his brother and started walking off too. What the hell Mike?, Oh great, leave me here with her why dont you?

"So I guess its just me and you now huh? " Tay smiled at me.

"uhh. Y-yeah" I said awkwardly.

"well c’mon lets go wait for them in the entrance" she grabbed my hand and started walking like an excited little kid.

"So Kellin tell me a little about yourself" she smiled at me when we got there.

"uhmm. I dont know." honestly I really dont know what to tell her. I feel awkward talking to her but she seems kinda nice.

"hmmm" she looked at me like she was examining my face.

"What?" I asked.

"are you Okay? You look sad." she said.

"Its ok, this is how I naturally look like." Its somewhat true, I’ve been sad all the time that it actually became a natural look.

"you should totally change that look, I bet you have a really great smile, you should start wearing it" she smiled at me. I gave her a soft smile back. "see that's more like it."

"So Kellin, tell me about Vic, like how close are you guys to each other?"

"uhmm like he said we were best friends." yeah. Nice one Kellin go with the single sentence answers. Hopefully she’ll stop asking me.
--

I taught she would stop asking but no, the whole time we were waiting she just kept asking me more and more questions, I was trying to keep my answers as short as possible before I spill something to her. Well, she’s with Vic right now and I guess I should respect that. I should be happy for Vic at least he’s happy right? and her girlfriend seems kinda nice.

"Hey Tay?"

"Yeah?" she said.

"Vic is a really great guy." I said.

"mmm. Yeah, I know. How lucky am I, right?" she smiled. Yeah. The luckiest. I could feel that tightening feeling on my throat and I instantly know Im about to cry any minute now but I just ignored it.

"Very." I gave her a weak smile.

"Just dont hurt him. Okay?" I added.

"I wont even think of it. Thanks." she said. As if on cue Vic and the others came up to us together with the stuffs we need.

"Hey. So what were you guys talking about?" Vic asked us as he snake his arm around his girl’s waist. I look away trying so hard not to show any emotions.

"Nothing much." Tay answered.

And we just stood there; they were in front of me acting all sweet like I wasnt even there and ugh. I cant stand this.

"You guys should go ahead, I think I need to use the bathroom." They nodded and I started making my way to where the bathroom was, As soon as I got out there, Tears immediately escaped from my eyes. Fuck it. I just cant stand seeing Vic with someone else, Someone thats not me. Call me jealous cause I am but whatever. I went inside and just practically stared at myself in the mirrror. I look pathetic, stupid and hopeless. I heard the opening of the door. I just ignored it, too busy fixing myself up internally.

"Hey, I just came to check up on you." I look at to where the voice was and was greeted by Vic smiling, He is really confusing, I taught he’s ignoring me and now his acting all concerned about me again.

"Im fine." I said, opening the faucet to wash my tear-filled face.

"mmm. Wow the movie’s not even starting yet. Kells, what’s wrong?" he asked.

"nothing" I said coldly. Now Im mad at him for confusing me.

"are you sure?"

"mhmm." I said as I splash my face with the water.

"Wanna tell your ol’ pal what you're all upset about?"

"why are you avoiding me Vic? Did I do something wrong?" I hold back a sob

"Oh hey, I think your fine now, uhmm Ill get going then" he shrugged my question off like he always does when he doesn't want to talk about it, and started heading to the door.

"Vic please just please tell me" I followed him. He was about to open the door but I pushed it closed and stood in front of it. He rolled his eyes.

"just please tell me what I did and I swear I’ll leave you alone."

"you didn't do anything, can I go now?"

"then why the fuck are you not talking to me?." I raised my voice a little higher. I was pissed.

"because you should be mad at me."

"why the hell would I be mad at you?" he’s really confusing the hell out of me now.

"because you could have fucking died. Because of me." he yelled.

"huh?" I looked at him kinda confuse as to what he was talking about.

"I remembered, when we crashed."

"and? What about it?"

"Its my fault" he said looking at the ground. I frowned, why is he blaming himself? He shouldn't be. It was a fucking accident.

"Vic, I don't think you remember it correctly because it was an accident. " I said. It really was an accident.

"No Kellin I was the one driving therefore Im responsible." ugh, why is he being so stubborn?

"It was an accident Vic. Just fucking let it go."

"but you could have died." he reasoned.

"but Im not dead. Im alive see. Im okay Vic. Its you who got the worse end, you got amnesia" I looked at his sad chocolate eyes.

"maybe this is for the better." he looked away.

"what are you talking about vic?"

"Id rather have amnesia than have you dead." he said.

"but I am alive" I turn his cheek so that he was facing me.

"yeah and I have amnesia, everybody wins."

"No. Dont think like that, okay? Its not your fault, you couldnt have done anything to avoid it anyway." I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around him pulling him in a warm embrace.

"I just cant have you dying okay? Like I said you’re special to me." he hugged back.

"T-thank you Kells."

"for what?" He pulled away from the hug to look at me and say,

"For still being here, still wanting to be a part of my life and for helping me retrieve my memories. Thank you" he smiled, I smiled back he hugged me again resting his head on my shoulder.

"you dont have to thank me. I’ll do anything for you, I love you" I said, barely audible.

"Now c’mon they’re waiting for us outside." he pulled away from the hug and held my hand as we walked our way to our friends. I miss this, him holding my hand.

"Tay!" he tore his hand out of mine, ripping a piece of my heart out along the process, to go to where her girlfriend was waiting for him.

"Hey what took you guys so long?" she smiled at him.

Looking at them, I notice that Vic. My Vic. he’s with somebody else now, he’s happy with Tay. I dont know if I should give him up or make him try to remember me still.

We finally made our way into the movie theater and took a seat. (from left to right… the fuck?? Haha moving on..) Austin, Jenna, Tay and Vic sat in the front. Jack, Alex, Jaime, Tony, Mike and I sat behind them. Now all the lights are off, the movie is starting.

“hey did you talked to Vic?” Mike asked.

“uhh yeah, we’re good now” I said, he smiled and nodded. My gaze fell down to Mike’s left hand and noticed that Tony’s hand is on his. I look up to him and smirked.

“shut up” he punch my shoulder playfully.

“I didn’t even say anything” I placed my hands up in surrender.

---

Half way through the movie…

I’m not even paying attention to the movie, instead, my focus is on these two love birds in front of me. I’m watching them, being sweet to each other, how Vic holds her, how he kisses her forehead and Tay’s head resting on Vic’s shoulder and her arms wrapped around him. The sight of them just killed me. Ugh. I can’t even.. that tightening feeling inside of your chest when you see that person you love look at somebody else the way they were supposed to look at you. That look of so much love and adoration; and your just sitting there, staring, trying to take it all inside; pretending that it’s not affecting you in any way possible. Youre hurting but you can’t do anything about it and you just wanna look away but at the same time you cant. Worse part is you can’t complain; you can’t even do anything about it but just stare and pretend like nothing’s wrong but deep inside everything is crumbling down. Jealousy; I hate that feeling,honestly, I can’t stand that.

“you okay?” Mike asked when he nudged my shoulder. I just nodded even though I’m not.

Look at them being all sweet and cuddly, acting like they’re the only two people in the world. I should be the one beside him. I should be the one he’s kissing on the forehead. it’s my head that should be on his shoulders, It’s my arms that should be wrapping around him. I should be the one he’s holding.

My vision blurred as tears started to well up in my eyes. I can’t take this. I can’t just sit here watching them. I should get out of here, so I stood up and practically ran through the door. I think I should go home instead.

Notes