Wonderless
Bulletproof Love
"Kells you awake?" I asked him. I couldnt sleep knowing that he’s still mad at me. I had apologized to him a million times and each time I did he just says ’yeah
dont even worry about it’. Really sucks that we dont talk as much anymore. Its been three days since that incident happened. I miss him. I just wanna cuddle with him but he’s really mad. Fuck these pillow walls. I hear him sniffing. He’s crying again. I feel so bad for doing that to him.
"Babe are you crying?" I ask.
"I’m fine. Go to sleep" he said coldly. I didnt wanna make him even more mad at me so I just didnt push for it. I just remained silent waiting for sleep to caught up with me.’
I hate this sad dreams. They’re ruining my perfect sleep. I glanced at the clock in my bedside table. 2:30 am. Fuck its too early. My thoughts wandered to what had happened earlier. I saw him. His beautiful, perfect, even. He’s real but I cant believe I push him away. I dont know why the hell I did that, Im so stupid. I hope I see him again and if I do, I swear Im gonna make it up to him. I yawned. I think I should go back to sleep.
’
(Different Setting.)
"hey, I know your still annoyed with me talking to you and all. Im not gonna apologize cause I know your just gonna shrug it off again but just know that I really am Sorry Kells and if I could, I’d take it all back. Im really sorry and I wrote you a song to prove it to you. Just hear me out okay?"
I started strumming the guitar that I was holding I took a deep breath. This is it, whatever happens now, atleast I tried.
" I breathe you in with smoke in the backyard lights (backyard lights),
we used to laugh until we choked into the wasted nights (wasted nights).
It was the best time of my life, but now I sleep alone (sleep alone),
So darling, don’t, don’t wake me up, ’cause my thrill is gone.
(Say I’m wrong)
and the sunset turning red behind the smoke,
forever and alone..."
I poured my heart out singing to him. I hope he realizes that I really am sorry and I’ll never hurt him again.. I hate seeing him sad
like that, especially when I know I was the one that cause it.
"now there’s nothing to do but tear my voice apart.
Nothing to do, and scream at the drunken moon." I sang the last line. I look at Kellin, he’s expression was unreadable.
"Kells?" I asked waiting for him to tell me how he felt. He responded by attacking me with a kiss.
Finally. ’
Bored. Hmm. Nothing to do this afternoon. Jenna wont let me go outside I dont even know why. So I’ll just lock myself in my room then. My eyes scanned the room looking for something good to do. My gaze landed on my guitar that was sitting across the room. Hmm. This gives me an idea, I just need to try something. I grab my guitar and started playing that song.
Kellin's POV
"alright He’s up stairs why dont you call him so you guys could all talk." Jenna told me.
I went upstairs and I could hear singing coming from one of the rooms...
"... I wanna hold your hand so tight I’m gonna break my wrist,
and when the vultures sing tonight I’m gonna join right in. "
That song. Is Vic singing that? Why is he? I know that song, how could I forget. That song was for me. Does this mean he remembers now? I cant believe he remembers that song.
Vic’s POV
" I’ll sing along, oh
’Cause I don’t know any other song.
I’ll sing along,
but I’m barely hanging on.
No, I’m barely hanging on.
By the time you’re hearing this I’ll already be gone,
and now there’s nothing to do but scream at the drunken.." I stopped
"moon. " I sighed. Okay that’s enough remembering. I cant believe I’ve known that song, I didnt even taught I could play it. I hear somebody knocking at my door.
"Its open." I said.
The door gently pushed open revealing a very sad but cute looking Kellin? Why is he here? How did he even know I live here? Jennaaaaa.
"Hi." I said awkwardly.
"Hey." he said forcing a smile.
"Can I come in?" he ask.
"sure." I said.
Why does he have to look sad all the time. I dont like seeing him like that.
"come sit with me." I scooted over to give space on the bed. his eyes went wide for a second probably surprised at what I had just said.
"o-ok-okay" he stuttered. So cute.
He went to sit next to me.
"listen, Im really sorry about how I reacted yesterday. I didnt--"
"Its ok. Jenna told us after we left." he interrupted. Oh so thats what they were talking about.
"Uhmm. so, dont take this the wrong way but.. Who are you? and what are you doing here?"
"Relax. Haha We’ll talk about it later.." he said nervously.
"uhmm.. My name’s Kellin by the way" he said looking anywhere but me.
"I know" I said.
"you do?" this time he looked at me, surprise
"yeah. From yesterday." I said.
"oh." Disappointed. That’s what his eyes told me. Am I suppose to know him? I mean he’s here right? Surely he’s here for a reason.
We fell into an awkward silence and I was thinking of something good to say to eliminate this awkwardness between us when he spoke.
"I uhh.. I heard you singing a while ago.." he said.
"Oh" I said. I feel a bit shy. He heard me singing.
"yeah. That song you were singing.. Uhmm.. How did you.. Uhh.." he trailed.
"How Did I know?" I continued his question for him. He nodded awkwardly.
"hmm.. I dont know but I had a dream about it" I said plainly cause I didnt want him to think I was a creep for having him in my dream.
"Oh Okay." he said shakily.
"want me to play it for you?" I asked him with a smile. I dont know why I did that. I just want to cheer him up so I could see him smile again. I hate seeing him sad like that.
"Y-yess. Please?" he said like his life depended on it.
"alright Im just gonna pick up where I left" He nodded.
" This isn’t fair!
(No!)
Don’t you try to blame this on me.
My love for you was bulletproof but you’re the one who shot me.
And god damn it, I can barely say your name,
so I’ll try to write it and fill the pen with blood from the sink.
Whoa oh
But don’t just say it, you should sing my name.
Pretend that it’s a song ’cause forever it’s yours,
and we can sing this on the way home. " I sang the parts perfectly but I stopped when I saw his eyes glistened. I put the guitar down on the floor.
"Are you Okay?" I asked him. I placed my hands on his face to stop his tears before it falls on that beautiful face of his. Okay maybe singing to him was a bad idea.
"I didnt think I would be that bad." I joked trying to light up his mood. He chuckled a bit at my statement.
"No, you were good actually, sorry about that." he said. I just smiled at him. I cant help but notice his eyes. They’re beautiful like a mixture of the grass and the sea and those lips. Mmm. I wonder how they would taste like. No wait. Stop thinking like that Vic. Shit. How long was I staring at his lips like that. I look back up to his eyes. He would be perfect if he wasnt looking so sad all the time. He placed his hands on mine. I didnt even realize I was still cupping his face. Now I just look awkward as fuck.
"Do I have something on my face?" He asked. Perfection, thats what. Without even thinking straight, I crashed my lips into his as fast as I could, I pulled away before he could even pull back. They felt good against mine. His eyes widened and I notice they look a lot livelier than earlier ago. I need more. I started leaning in, slowly this time, I just wanted to know if he was okay with it. Surprisingly, he didnt even move. His eyes were fixed on mine, like he was waiting for me to reconnect our lips back again. Well Kellin, dont mind if I do. I brought my lips to his and started kissing him. he was kissing back. It was a slow and passionate kiss.
We’ve been making out for about five minutes now and as much as I didnt want to, I pulled away giving him an awkward smile. I brushed my thumb to his lips. I couldnt believe that happened. I kinda like it. I love it actually. He smiled, butterflies in my stomach fluttered around. He should smile like that more often.
"uhhmm. Jenna wanted us to come down" he said awkwardly.
I nodded and we stood up....
dont even worry about it’. Really sucks that we dont talk as much anymore. Its been three days since that incident happened. I miss him. I just wanna cuddle with him but he’s really mad. Fuck these pillow walls. I hear him sniffing. He’s crying again. I feel so bad for doing that to him.
"Babe are you crying?" I ask.
"I’m fine. Go to sleep" he said coldly. I didnt wanna make him even more mad at me so I just didnt push for it. I just remained silent waiting for sleep to caught up with me.’
I hate this sad dreams. They’re ruining my perfect sleep. I glanced at the clock in my bedside table. 2:30 am. Fuck its too early. My thoughts wandered to what had happened earlier. I saw him. His beautiful, perfect, even. He’s real but I cant believe I push him away. I dont know why the hell I did that, Im so stupid. I hope I see him again and if I do, I swear Im gonna make it up to him. I yawned. I think I should go back to sleep.
’
(Different Setting.)
"hey, I know your still annoyed with me talking to you and all. Im not gonna apologize cause I know your just gonna shrug it off again but just know that I really am Sorry Kells and if I could, I’d take it all back. Im really sorry and I wrote you a song to prove it to you. Just hear me out okay?"
I started strumming the guitar that I was holding I took a deep breath. This is it, whatever happens now, atleast I tried.
" I breathe you in with smoke in the backyard lights (backyard lights),
we used to laugh until we choked into the wasted nights (wasted nights).
It was the best time of my life, but now I sleep alone (sleep alone),
So darling, don’t, don’t wake me up, ’cause my thrill is gone.
(Say I’m wrong)
and the sunset turning red behind the smoke,
forever and alone..."
I poured my heart out singing to him. I hope he realizes that I really am sorry and I’ll never hurt him again.. I hate seeing him sad
like that, especially when I know I was the one that cause it.
"now there’s nothing to do but tear my voice apart.
Nothing to do, and scream at the drunken moon." I sang the last line. I look at Kellin, he’s expression was unreadable.
"Kells?" I asked waiting for him to tell me how he felt. He responded by attacking me with a kiss.
Finally. ’
Bored. Hmm. Nothing to do this afternoon. Jenna wont let me go outside I dont even know why. So I’ll just lock myself in my room then. My eyes scanned the room looking for something good to do. My gaze landed on my guitar that was sitting across the room. Hmm. This gives me an idea, I just need to try something. I grab my guitar and started playing that song.
Kellin's POV
"alright He’s up stairs why dont you call him so you guys could all talk." Jenna told me.
I went upstairs and I could hear singing coming from one of the rooms...
"... I wanna hold your hand so tight I’m gonna break my wrist,
and when the vultures sing tonight I’m gonna join right in. "
That song. Is Vic singing that? Why is he? I know that song, how could I forget. That song was for me. Does this mean he remembers now? I cant believe he remembers that song.
Vic’s POV
" I’ll sing along, oh
’Cause I don’t know any other song.
I’ll sing along,
but I’m barely hanging on.
No, I’m barely hanging on.
By the time you’re hearing this I’ll already be gone,
and now there’s nothing to do but scream at the drunken.." I stopped
"moon. " I sighed. Okay that’s enough remembering. I cant believe I’ve known that song, I didnt even taught I could play it. I hear somebody knocking at my door.
"Its open." I said.
The door gently pushed open revealing a very sad but cute looking Kellin? Why is he here? How did he even know I live here? Jennaaaaa.
"Hi." I said awkwardly.
"Hey." he said forcing a smile.
"Can I come in?" he ask.
"sure." I said.
Why does he have to look sad all the time. I dont like seeing him like that.
"come sit with me." I scooted over to give space on the bed. his eyes went wide for a second probably surprised at what I had just said.
"o-ok-okay" he stuttered. So cute.
He went to sit next to me.
"listen, Im really sorry about how I reacted yesterday. I didnt--"
"Its ok. Jenna told us after we left." he interrupted. Oh so thats what they were talking about.
"Uhmm. so, dont take this the wrong way but.. Who are you? and what are you doing here?"
"Relax. Haha We’ll talk about it later.." he said nervously.
"uhmm.. My name’s Kellin by the way" he said looking anywhere but me.
"I know" I said.
"you do?" this time he looked at me, surprise
"yeah. From yesterday." I said.
"oh." Disappointed. That’s what his eyes told me. Am I suppose to know him? I mean he’s here right? Surely he’s here for a reason.
We fell into an awkward silence and I was thinking of something good to say to eliminate this awkwardness between us when he spoke.
"I uhh.. I heard you singing a while ago.." he said.
"Oh" I said. I feel a bit shy. He heard me singing.
"yeah. That song you were singing.. Uhmm.. How did you.. Uhh.." he trailed.
"How Did I know?" I continued his question for him. He nodded awkwardly.
"hmm.. I dont know but I had a dream about it" I said plainly cause I didnt want him to think I was a creep for having him in my dream.
"Oh Okay." he said shakily.
"want me to play it for you?" I asked him with a smile. I dont know why I did that. I just want to cheer him up so I could see him smile again. I hate seeing him sad like that.
"Y-yess. Please?" he said like his life depended on it.
"alright Im just gonna pick up where I left" He nodded.
" This isn’t fair!
(No!)
Don’t you try to blame this on me.
My love for you was bulletproof but you’re the one who shot me.
And god damn it, I can barely say your name,
so I’ll try to write it and fill the pen with blood from the sink.
Whoa oh
But don’t just say it, you should sing my name.
Pretend that it’s a song ’cause forever it’s yours,
and we can sing this on the way home. " I sang the parts perfectly but I stopped when I saw his eyes glistened. I put the guitar down on the floor.
"Are you Okay?" I asked him. I placed my hands on his face to stop his tears before it falls on that beautiful face of his. Okay maybe singing to him was a bad idea.
"I didnt think I would be that bad." I joked trying to light up his mood. He chuckled a bit at my statement.
"No, you were good actually, sorry about that." he said. I just smiled at him. I cant help but notice his eyes. They’re beautiful like a mixture of the grass and the sea and those lips. Mmm. I wonder how they would taste like. No wait. Stop thinking like that Vic. Shit. How long was I staring at his lips like that. I look back up to his eyes. He would be perfect if he wasnt looking so sad all the time. He placed his hands on mine. I didnt even realize I was still cupping his face. Now I just look awkward as fuck.
"Do I have something on my face?" He asked. Perfection, thats what. Without even thinking straight, I crashed my lips into his as fast as I could, I pulled away before he could even pull back. They felt good against mine. His eyes widened and I notice they look a lot livelier than earlier ago. I need more. I started leaning in, slowly this time, I just wanted to know if he was okay with it. Surprisingly, he didnt even move. His eyes were fixed on mine, like he was waiting for me to reconnect our lips back again. Well Kellin, dont mind if I do. I brought my lips to his and started kissing him. he was kissing back. It was a slow and passionate kiss.
We’ve been making out for about five minutes now and as much as I didnt want to, I pulled away giving him an awkward smile. I brushed my thumb to his lips. I couldnt believe that happened. I kinda like it. I love it actually. He smiled, butterflies in my stomach fluttered around. He should smile like that more often.
"uhhmm. Jenna wanted us to come down" he said awkwardly.
I nodded and we stood up....
Notes
This is me saying sorry for ya'll feels about that 'Collide' Chapter.
Hope ya'll like this one though. :)
Omg finally ive been waiting for this it was beautiful ending
11/17/16